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Its Christmas Time .....

All the house is decorated, the stockings are hung, the tree is up full of tinsel and joy. This year decorating our tree was a fun experiance for the first time since I became a mother the whole house pitched in , decorating was the number one priority on everyone's mind. Each one of my girls had a "Special" place that decorations had to .. It was blast with Christmas music blaring out the speakers on the computer from "Pandora" the candle and jasmine incense light with such care in hopes that the Holiday spirit would soon be found there..

Each ornament that was pulled out of the box represented parts of our lives , memories of time esclipsed forever. Each one of our children has recieved a ornament every year from the time of thier birth, for the plan you see is that when they leave Mommy and Daddy's they would have something of thier "childhood" in thier homes.. Starting out with just a bit of thier past with them. There are so many stories, each can remember where they were when they opened that special present. My husband and I decided years ago that a Star would top our tree every year for the "star" that brought light into this dark world when a newborn baby was born in that stable.. Each passing year as my children grow older, and the ones that I love passing into the veil. So I have an angel from "the Drake Collection" that my husband brought our oldest daughter years ago when doll collecting was her phase.. But yet it reminds me of my beautiful sister who will be spending her 15th Christmas in Heaven. So I now take time that to recongnize all the love ones that are here with me now , and those who are watching over me from above. I thank my Heavenly Father for giving me this wonderful life, for sending his son to give us a choice of eternal life.. Families are together forever, yet its a choice for us.. SO when we set down for those presents around the tree, enjoy those who are assembled around the tree more than what's under the tree. For presents can be bought anytime of the year, but sometimes life is short and fleeting..
Ok , you have listened to my rambling now, so I just want to wish you a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS and Happy New Year.. .

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Thanks-Giving.. .

    Are we "Thankful" for the table decorated for the festive hoilday, or the people that are in our day to day lives . To me "Thanks-Giving" has become more than a hoilday about eating our favorite foods, or who's coming to dinner. The older I get, an especially since my recent illness in September this Thanksgiving was full of love, gratitude, and grace. Love for all the people that are in life, that has impacted me and made me a better person. Gratitude  for Heavenly Father allowing me to contuine to live my life on this side of the veil , with my family . And I am also grateful for the knowledge that when we die life goes on for us. There is so much love that encompasses us as pass through the veil, the love ones that have gone on before us waiting there. Most of all for our Savior Jesus Christ, that laid his life down so we may raise ours up once again, so we all can return back to our Heavenly Father. Grace to allow me to be able to put others before myself. To serve my fellow man kind with a open loving heart..
    This Thanksgiving was a start of a new tradition for me and my family. For I was in charge of cooking an preparing this meal this year all on my own. Something my mother has waited for the last 16yrs for, and something I've dreaded to do for fear of screwing up everyone's hoilday. But this year I was bound and determined to do it so my parents could just enjoy the day .Their health hasnt been the greatest this year so I thought it was time to allow them just to enjoy the day and NOT worry about cooking or cleaning for a bunch of us.
         For you see traditions run deep in our families, every year its the same food with the same stories behind them of when, where and why we started making them. These are the things that I enjoy and find comfort in. As I make mashpototes I hear my baby sister whisper in my ear, "you know you can add more butter and milk to that right?" Lisa has been gone from this earth for the last 15 years, and yet everytime I make mashpotoes I hear her voice whisper that in my ear. Yes, its a memory but a dear one. Chocolate pie is my favorite pie, but it was also my Daddy Gibbs favorite too .. I didnt make it this year because of my diabetes being crazy but I did think of him .. Every year as I lay the deviled eggs on the plate that belonged to my Nanny Clark, I see her smiling.. for you see over 25 yrs ago she when on to be with our Heavenly Father. I know they are waiting on me for I saw them and talked to them during my coma in September. I truly beleive that I will be reunited with my family on the other side of the veil, but for now I'll bring thier memories with me as I cook each hoilday meal.. I cant wait to have Mommy Gibbs punch come New Years..

When it rains..

When it rains all I want to do is curl up in a good book, or snuggle in bed with the one I love.. That goes back to my childhood, the deepest memories of cabin with my beloved Aunt and Uncle. Listening to the sounds of the rain hitting the tin roof as we were camping.

Then when Charles and I first married , we had bought a trailer.. I loved laying in bed snuggling with my babies as the rain blew outside. These are the memories that I hold dear to my heart , as the play through my brain now on another cold rainy day.

Instead of snuggling with my babies , I have my laptop as music plays quietly in the distance. Life changes, babies grow and unfortunately people that we love dearly leave us , and we find ourselves saying goodbye. The one thing that I have learned in the last month is that the veil between life and death is very thin. We come down to this planet only to leave the only home we had ever known, leave the presence of our Heavenly Father. SO full of light , love we came here to take upon our mortal bodies and all the lessons that we are meant to be here. This is a poem that was read at my sisters funeral over sixteen years ago, but its so full of love, I just had to share.

To All Parents
"I'll lend you for a while a child of mine,"
He said.
"For you to love the while she lives and mourn for
when she's dead.
It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or
three,
But will you, till I call her back, take care of
her for me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you, and should
her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories as solace for
your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay; since all from
earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I
want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over in My search
for teachers true
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes
I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love, not think
the labor vain, Nor hate Me when I come to call to take her back again?"
I fancied that I that I heard them say, "Dear Lord,
Thy will be done!
For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the
risk of grief we run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness, we'll
love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known, forever
grateful stay;
But should the angels call for her much sooner
than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and
try to understand."
~Unknown

I pray that I never have to live through the grief of burying my own child, and my heart breaks for those of you  that had to bear . But it is so close that veil and when we cross over that great divide they are their waiting on us. When we walk from the darkness into the bright light full of love, an peace we will know that our journey, trials and lessons that we had to face here on earth will be worth it in the end.. So just remember no matter how difficult the storm, return with honor back to our home in Heaven .We lived their once and will return again if we have lived with honor..

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Changes...

Changes…
As I sit here listening to, “The House That Built Me” by Miranda Lambert. Memories rush through my mind, memories of my childhood and all those that are no longer here. I am not the same person as I was the day I was born or even the day I went into the hospital on that rainy September night.
Many things has changed inside my soul, for once in my life I am not trying to please the people that are in my life, I am living only to please my God, My family and Myself. These are the only people I answer to know in my life. I may be someone’s daughter but I am no longer a child. I have the agency that Heavenly Father gave me to make choices.
I have realized that I don’t want to have regrets when I close my eyes for the last time. As I face the eternities I don’t want to have regrets of should’ve done... or could’ve done. . I want to know inside my heart and soul that I lived my life to the fullest never slowing down or giving up on my hopes and dream. I will take my life by the reigns and be in control of it... There isn’t a man on this earth that I am afraid of and the only Judge I have to answer to is my family, and Heavenly Father. A family that I answer to consist of my husband, and children. I know that people may think I have lost it and that I’m going crazy but life is short, too short to live it in misery.
I leave a final question with you, my love ones … If you were to take your last breathe on earth tonight .what would be the one thing you would regret not doing.. SO all that I ask of you, the ones that I love, is either come on this journey with me, or love me in spite of my choices.
Comments are encouraged and most welcome.. leave me your thoughts

Pre- Existance

Within the preceding week, overcoming death has turned my thoughts to the other side of the veil. My heart is full; my mind is abundant with the Spirit. I want to share with you my friends and family what is impression unto my soul. I reminisce about going to Time Out for Women a couple of years ago. I can remember sensitivity to the awesome spirit in that room, and hearing Sister Nelson tell us that," if only we had a Pre-Existence dvd” So if we could remember all the promises that we made with our Heavenly Father before we came to Earth." I also remember Michael Wilcox talking about," how we are divine Spirit daughters of our Heavenly Father and how we are exceptional generation. We are here on this Earth at this time in all of time, because our Heavenly Father knows we can handle the temptations and overcome them to return back to him."
Those words were powerful then but I tell you my friends they are more powerful know as I look back on all I have overcame. I know that without a shadow of doubt without the Priesthood power that is alive on this earth and prayers from all around the world that I received I would have not made it back from the Coma. I had a testimony before the Coma but now my “Testimony” is concrete, unmovable. I wish I could have avoided all that but do I regret the outcome no… I have always said your funeral; all those in attendance signifies how well you lived your life. How many you loved and were loved in return. The unfortunate side effect of life is that many people live this life pondering if their lives mean anything, wondering if they are loved by those they love..
Well my beloved friends I can tell you that I know without a shadow of doubt that I am loved, that my ultimate accomplishment in this life will not be the millions I make in a board room but my beautiful daughters that Heavenly Father gave me to raise . I will raise them with a higher determination because life is not about how many millions you make but about how many souls you help lead back to Our Father In Heaven.
Right now I feel closer to my love ones that I have traversed that Veil, I guess I know how truly thin it is. I believe that within one heartbeat we all could be reunited. I know that I have a resolve under Heaven and I am not ready to go anywhere.
The time upon this world is short, the temptations that will rise are greater than anyone has ever derived across that has existed upon this earth. Satan is the great deceiver, once the most magnificent angel in Heaven, he choose to become the author of all lies. He chose to create a war within Heaven and took 1/3 of all the angels with him. We are different than those angel we have “agency”, we can choose right or wrong.
In order to endure this world we will have to stay in our scriptures, and on our knees in prayer. I am so thankful that I have the privilege of believing that there is a Modern Day Prophet and I can follow his direction for my family and my life. Prophet Monson will warn us of things that are forthcoming that could attack our families. Satan will try to hit us in our weakest spot with these temptations and it will not be so apparent. It could be a weakness that we thought we had overcome. I urge my loved ones to stay in prayer, keep our families united as one .For there is nothing on this side of veil that is worth losing your family over. Families are forever, what is bound on earth will be bound in Heaven. (Through proper Priesthood authority)
There is nothing paramount then being a Beloved Spirit daughter of my Heavenly Father I recognize that he loves me, and wants what is best for me. I identify that the time on this earth is short; I am here to learn the things that I need to learn in this physical body. Earth is the separation from our Spirit bodies and our Heavenly Father. It is our job to go through the things that will lead us back to the eternities.
I didn’t mean to go on a tirade my dear ones but with time on my hands and my heart brimming with the Spirit of my Heavenly Father who knows what will derive out of these hands as I typed into this keyboard. May we all be found faithful and return with honor to our Father in Heaven. Until next time I set words to paper..
All my love goes with you who read this. May your hearts be filled with love, and your families united under the Heavens.
Rata..

The Final Acts of Life..

Have you ever wondered what happens when we close our eyes for the final time? I know that this week I came very close to experiancing what is on "the Other Side" Not out of what my church beliefs are, or how I lived my life but honestly it all plays into that. I know that we have a Kind gracious loving Heavenly Father that is patiently loving and watching over us from the other side of veil.
I will tell you it is very strange to go to sleep one night , and be declared unresponsive. I came very close to not waking up on this side of eternity but on the "other Side" .. Believe me when you have been through an experience like this it puts your priorities in life. My only thoughts were of my husband, my children , my family and friends. It can not imagine what that phone call was like on the end that my dearest friend answered, " Hello this is Kings Daughter's Medical Center .. .are you.. are you her POA shes non-responsive. " Yes I am glad that at 35 I had the paper work in to play for years. That I had expressed my wishes to my family and especially to my best friend to answered that call.  It was paper work that I never thought I would have to use but I am so thankful to have it into place. I am thankful for all the love an support that has flooded from around the world for me and my family.
I am thankful that Prayers are still answered and Jesus Christ still performs miracles upon this earth today. Yes it is a primary theme, but it is the theme of my life , I personally know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ is still in the miracles business . I am living breathing proof of that , 48 hrs ago I was in ICU not responding to anyone. Today I am setting at home with my family, my children and waiting for my hubby to walk through the door.. I am not ready to leave this life , but I do have the security of knowing that whether I am here or on the other side by family is with me loving me..  FAMILIES  ARE FOREVER AND APART OF HEAVENLY FATHER'S PLAN..

Endless Summer days..

So you ever wish you could just have endless summer days to spend with your children and love ones.. Well today I took that moment just for me. Today my husband and our children meet one of my best friends down at the Park .. It was amazing just to take time out of our day to day crazy lives and watch the children play. Granted it was more like watching hers play an keeping tabs on the teenagers..  I remember the times when it was myself chasing after little ones insted of trying to get my cell away from teenagers. Life goes by so quicky at time but it was wonderful all of us getting sprayed by the water as it jetts up from the ground.. With in a blink of an eye these stumbling toddlers , and elementary smart mouths turn into teenage drama queens and quarter backs of the football team.
So my request is that you enjoy each minute of the day , love the ones your with cause before your very eyes time will fly by.. Time changes we all grow up, out into the worlds and make sure the one you love will love you back through enternity...

Changes...

Today is a New beginning for my Family! For you see school started today! Taz has began her first day of high-school and our baby Frog has started her last year of middle school ! For 8th grade calls her, with new friends to make in a new school making a fresh new start!
I can remember carrying these precious angels, raising them from infants ,and some days praying for strength to make it through that minute! Now flash forward 14 years an I have a daughter starting Seminary an high-school! The baby that wasn't ever suppose to live is now 13 in her last year of lower elementary education! To all of My friends/family out there enjoy each moment an photography all you can for those babies your holding so close to your hearts now will be a teenager before your very eyes in just a blink of time! So as I celebrate these changes I want to take a moment to say cherish each for Its a blessing from our Father in Heaven, & take tons of photos become your own family's stalker! Because in the end when They have children of their child think of the memories & blackmail you will have! Love you all,until next time!

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Random Memories

As I was driving down the highway a song popped into my head.. An before you start laughing you must remember I am a adolescent of the late 80's and early 90's so the majority of the Glam Rock bands are my absolute favorite . As I was driving down the road Jon Bon Jovi's song "Blood on Blood" started replaying in my head. Even though I haven't listened in years that song has more significance in the present day than it did at that time.

    As the lyrics go,

“ I can still remember
          When I was just a kid
                 When friends were friends forever
                     And what you said was what you did Blood on blood
         One on one
                  We'd still be standing
                     When all was said and done
              Blood on blood
            One on one
                  And I'll be here for you
                   Till Kingdom come
                   Blood on blood"

Granted I have taken the freedom of shortening the lyrics that suits my framework of thoughts right now. Are there people in your day to day life that you would go to the ends of the earth for? Are there people that you love no matter where they are? And if they called you at three am would you respond to that ringing of the telephone and be willing to help?

      I am a firm believer in that Family doesn't consist of the people who are only genetically connected to you. For in my own life I created my family. No I am not directly talking about the man that I choice or marry, or have children with. I am talking about those people who we meet in life and have an instant connection with. Sometimes I feel that certain people are in our life as challenges not meant to destroy us but to cause us to grow, change and become a better person. But for every "Challenge” Heavenly Father gives us, He also gives us a person who will love us unconditionally a support us through all Time and Eternity.  It is up to us as individuals to live our life as we see fit and to understand what a “Challenge” is and what is a blessing. So my beloved friends as I set down to find my own "Challenges and Blessings" I persuade you to do the same for I do feel like this is a personal revelation that I just wanted to share.

Back to School

It's time to get organized with the words that every child dreads , mothers cheer and yes my dear ones its "Back to School " time in the Robinette Household. I am in the process of reorganizing the house again, granted I only finished the first round but there is times when I wonder if I will ever be done. Finally we have a working washer and drying in our own home!! Yay granted we had to re run  water and electric line but we have a separate room to wash clothes! its Amazing for the girls are in the process of learning how to be responsible for their own laundry. They are no longer babies but young women who needs to learn to stand on their own in this world. 

The house is still a work in progress but what makes it a home our the souls that are contained within these walls. I love being able to go to bed at night without worrying that the girls are gonna get into a fight, for now they have their own rooms. The biggest fight I have to referee now is the line to their bathroom. 

I love being able to cook and have family and friends over for dinner.Whether its my tacos, or just something easy that I threw together.. I guess I love to entertain LOL!  It is hard to believe that Taz has started her Freshman Year in High School and Wolfie has entered in to her last year of middle school 8th grade.. Here we come rushing into the unknown. This is the part of parenting where I learn to let go , teach them to be independent beautiful women that I know they can be. Oh what to do with myself, its time for all of us to become who we were meant to be inside.

Spending time with Friends an Family

    No matter how crazy life gets we need to take the time to spend with those we love regardless how we are related to them! Whether they are family or friends love doesn't  know or understand Relationship to the heart. I have come to realize that life flashes before you eyes while you are here in earth. And it is up to each individual how they have spent their lives. 

   The only thing  I want to take to my death bed with me are having my family surround me, and my service to my Heavenly Father to echo the love that I have given people that have been in my life . I do not wait to lay in my death bed breathing my last breathes and have regrets with me! I try to live my life by loving people to the fullest extent of my heart, and all I expect is to be loved in return.. I may not be even liked by all but at last I will know those who loved me love who  I truly am no false faces or false expectations here. So if you ask me a question you better want what I truly feel or the Truth as I see it .. because somethings in life isn't pretty and I will not pretty it up for you.. 
My husband told me recently that he missed the girl I use to be that had a backbone that wouldn't take crap from anyone at anytime! I lived my live by my own standards with no apologies.. I miss that girl too.. and I will find her if its the last thing I do.. For I am tired of being a doormat.. I am tired of being taken advantage of its time to return to basics ..

Memories... how they seem to flood back at

The worst of times it seems to me that I am hit with a memory . In general its awesome that my mind seems to store memories like a DVD collection.. But this week I am struggling with the loss of my Sister. She was taken from this world almost 15 yrs ago by a drunk driver. At times it feels as if it was yesterday I know most people tell me I should get over it. I have learned to live with the loss but the loss of a sibling is something you never get over nor do I ever want to..
Heavenly Father put her on this earth for a reason, and yes I believe that she fulfilled that purpose and Heavenly Father called her to return back to him as we all will one day.Internally I realize that her upcoming birthday and anniversary of her death is why all these emotions has hit me like a ton of bricks. But even when you realize the source of the event doesn't mean you grasp a better knowledge of how to deal with it. With another day entering into the passage of time, it marches on and stops for no one. I just see how much life has changed for all of us since she left this planet. She still lives on in the lives in all that knew an loved her. At times my mind wonders with who she would have become, if she would be married or having children by now. I miss that incredible laugh, when she walked into a room it was filled with so much love it was if you could reach out and grasp it.. I also know that the children that has came into this world would surely be spoiled by having her in their lives.. I can only imagine for the love she felt for my daughter and her best friends son was unimaginable ! If she could only see them now and the ones that came after.. I realize I m starting to ramble so I think I'll close for now..

Until we meet again on the other side of the veil , know that your are always in my heart and on my mind.. I will love you for all time and Eternity. You will always be my sister until I take my last breathe and even after...
I love you Lisa LaDawn Stevens!! August 8th 1977- August 11th 1995!

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Changes..

We are currently in the process of moving into our own place again.. So I will not be updating for a while.. but then I promise myself that I would try everyday.I am not into journals so this will have to suffice.. Until then.. stay safe and keep us in your thoughts..

Milestones.....

Throughout our lives there are many milestones that we have to conquer . Some of them are easier than others, ex your 16 birthday party, marriage, birth of your child. Yet there are many more difficult such as a death of a loved one, loss of home or job.
Well the Robinette household has had one of those moments, at what I had percieved to be difficult actually turned out to be a joyous day! For you see as a mother I have been dreading Alanas Senior Prom , but it turned out to be such a blessed day! I can say with the mist of tears in my eyes!



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I have posted Alana's Senior Pictures

In my Myspace, and Facebook pages.. if you would like 2 see them go and check it out... just leave me tons of comments though to share your thoughts..

Alana Before Prom 2010

Senior Prom - Scott picking up Alana

What is a Friend?

What is the meaning of a friend to you? Is it someone you can call at 3 am when your scared out of your mind? Is a friend someone that prays for you when you have forgotten how to pray for yourself! Is a friend there in times of sorrow as well as joy?
How long is it from when you first meet someone does it take for you to call them a friend? An hour,day, or is it a year? Is a friend someone that you confide your deepest darkest secrets to yet all the while do you fear what they will thank of you? Does a friend have to be your age or social scene?


To me a friend is all of these questions an so much more! There was a time in my life that if I didn't know you since highschool then I didn't trust you with anything other than a Hello! The Scriptures say that Heavdnly Father knows what we are in need of even before we ask it of him! Looking back I can see how some of my friends your those answers to un-said prayers! I am do thankful for all the new friends that came into my life as a result of having the Gospel in my life! Some of these friends I meet during the process of the change that occurs in your life through the Atomement process! They have seen me at my worst yet still love me! It amazes me daily how I can be loved, accepted, and wanted in my life by strangers(or atleast who most plp would define as strangers) an still be hated an cruified by the very people I share DNA with! Your home, family, and friends are suppose to be a place of refuge when the storms of life overtake you! I have never had that until the last cpl of years ! It totally amazes me that I can call across country an say I need you, an they stop what's going on in their life to listen or pray for me!
Yet my own flesh an blood would rather murder me with thier tongue!
I guess sometimes the greatest challenges in our life is our family! But I am greatful for the friends that Heavenly Father has sent my way ! Heavenly Father know me an know excatly I need ! I thank him daily for : Kenzi, Biff, Lolu, Ash, Nisey, Glenna an of course the M&M in my life! I would be eternally lost without you! I'll love you all till the day I take my last breathe an beyound!!
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The Meaning behind Mother's Day

Mother's Day is the day that we celebrate our Mothers and all they do for us.. DO we stop celebrating our love we feel for our Mother's because they are no longer with us? Do we only share the love for Women that physically give birth to us or can we celebrate with anyone that feels that spot in our lives.
Throughout my childhood I can remember how hard Mother's Day was on my cousins because they lost thier mother at a young age. I remember talking to them during school when we had to make "Mother's Day " cards and they had a look of longing in thier eyes.. To me it doesnt matter how actually creates us. To me what matters is the people who loves us and nutures our souls.. Who leads us throughout our life, who is there to show us the meaning of unconditional love.
A parents love is unconditional, we are the only ones who are suppose to be there for our children from the moment they begin to grow, and until we take our last breathe on this earth. Our love for our children transends death, for as long as people that are on this side of the veil loves us then we will still be alive.. In thier hearts and memories. I know that it take more than simple DNA that makes you a parent.
So I want to take the time to Celebrate all thoses Amazing Women who feel like a "Mother" to me in my heart, whether your on this side of the veil or not.. I am so thankful that Heavenly Father sent me a "Family" that loves me unconditionally that supports me no matter how bad I screw it all up.. In this life you face difficulites and unforeseen challenges.. But your challenge should NEVER have to be your family.. I am so thankful that my Heavenly Father Loves me so much that he has given me the excat family for me .. That will love and support me no matter what, and I am thankful to realize that "family" doesnt have to have a DNA bond to matter. There is people in my life that I am gentically realted to that couldnt be farther apart in our values and beliefs.. Yet there is amazing people that I love dearly and would die for yet I have never meet them on this earth. Our souls connected an it feels like I ve loved them my whole life long.. Who knows we could have been together in the pre-existance. and promised to meet up again on this earth.. even with all of its challenges there are many blessings in store for us if we take the time to realize them.

Kings Island

Sa-Rai & Natasha is leaving this morning with the Russell Middle School Band for Kings Island! They have a contest in Loveland Ohio this morning and then they get to play at the park for the rest of the day! They will not be returning back to Russell until late this evening ( between 11:30- 12:00). Good Luck Russell Band and to my girls !


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Its Prom Time ...

Wow... I never thought I would be exicted to shop for my daughter's prom dress.. But it was amazing, and Lee was there to help!! It was so nice just to have a Girls Day out with Alana.. Then we even had time to spend with Lee and Eric.. I wish they lived closer..put atlas it isnt meant to be? I sometimes wonder why all the plp that I love and that loves me has to live soo far away from me. Yet all the while the ones that try to destory me and tear me down live seconds away...


Anyway, we found the perfect dress on our very first trip into the mall.. It is so beautiful and makes my baby look all grown up.. Its an amazing experiance that only happens ones in a lifetime.. And now on to hair, makeup since Prom is only 8 days away!!
I know that Alana and Scott will have a wonderful time, and it makes me worry alot less that they are going together..

Another Milestone

Heading 2 Lexington tomorrow to get the perfect prom dress.. and while we are there have to deal with Doctors that are refusing to release medical records!! What right do they have ??GRRR.. Ill keep you all posted Love you my family

The New Spin the Bottle....

“ LH6 . P911 . 8 . Al Capone . if your kids use secret texting codes like these, they just said "let's have sex (LH6)", "alert—parents coming into the room (P911)", "oral sex (8)" and "heroin (Al Capone)"
Make no mistake: that would have been one hell of a text. But what's more shocking is the continued attempts to rend garments over sexting, …” According to or Newsweek (http://blog.newsweek.com/blogs/thehumancondition/archive/2010/04/22/secret-teenage-sex-codes-revealed.aspx?GT1=43002)
What are our precious children doing to the rest of their lives? DO they not comprehend that once you snap a photograph it can have lasting consequences?
It use to be that the worse thing a Teenager could do to devastate their lives was get pregnant , I know for I did, and she saved me from a path of destruction . Yet, in Eighteen years she is responsible for herself, and I could (not saying I EVER would) have a existence of my own.. Yet with the Sexting that they are doing now it leads them down a path filled with illicit street drugs, Alcohol abuse (b4 they’re even 21), pre-marital sex, and even sometimes rape.
The sexting starts with the appearance of an naive conversation with mixture of numbers and letters. But the innocence’s has left long b4 that message flashed across the screen.. These children of this generation are lost at times before they even leave Primary School. They face unknown horrors that no adult should endure, yet afflicted by the millions in silence.
I struggle on a daily basis to raise a virtuous daughter, yet at ever twist and turn we call existence.. THE standards that I so desperately try to instill in my beautiful girls are silently being eradicated with every television show, day at school, and music that streams into their ears.. My daughters are picked on because they have principles that not many young women share on this planet today. They are not “Normal” because they desire to wear modest clothing. I am a paranoid mother because I think about about what and who is on their Facebook page, or what txts they receive.
Well I would rather be anomalous because I am involved in their lives, I know who their friends are, and I have final authorization over what and where they are at. OR what they post on their pages. These are my precious children that I brought into this world and that I am responsible for when I stand before my Father in Heaven. It is my job to raise productive adults that are not mortified of something they did as teenagers. SO I will be hands on, maybe too much so for their liking but you only acquire a solitary chance at this life. They will have the best that I can offer. .I love them with all my <3!!!
That Is why I am proud to say I am not alone in this endeavor to raise these virtuous women. I show gratitude my Heavenly Father on a daily basis for the supportive, loving Husband, and Family that he gave me.. Whether you are my family by blood, or my heart I will love you till I cross that veil.

Just came back from One of the Many Doctors with Monkey

I feel so blessed to have this doctor on our side. She has a very extensive medical background.. yet she is human and willing to listen.. Her goal today was that if we can not make this to go away completely than we would find a solution and make it livable! That is all I have been asking for with a Team of Doctors in 2 different States for over 5 years now..I know that one day she will have to live on her own , which i desperately want but right now its not safe.. And for that day to come we need a plan. .I feel for the first time in years that we are on the road to the rest of her life.. I feel so blessed to finally find the right doctors and prayer always works!!

Sharing

Found this new Blog today.. and I just love the Freebies they have. .I love the fonts etc.. so I thought I would share and spread the word!! http://www.kevinandamanda.com/

Week 3 Begins with a PRayer. .

We are Mothers of Divine Heavenly Children, and I feel that it is our duty to stand in the gap for them! We honor our households, and cherish the names of each precious soul that our Heavenly Father has given us to raise. Yet it is our duty as mothers not only to stand the in the gap for our children, but all the children around us! We have a divine Job to raise our children up in the way they shall go, and they will not depart from it.. I am so thankful to each and every one of my Brothers and Sisters that has stood by me and my daughter in these last 3 weeks. I know Heavenly Father has a grand master plan and I know that He sent my child to me, to raise up so she can return back to him with honor.
Dear Father in Heaven,
On this night as I have awoken from my bed with prayers upon my lips, not only for my children but for the children of those I Love around me. I pray on this night that your ministering angels attend to the beds of those who are sick and afflicted. I thank you for your Priesthood Power that is alive and walking upon this earth! I am eternally grateful that you have allowed me and my children to be brought to the earth at time when there is a fullness of the gospel, and salvation of all men is clear! I know that you hear each and even one of our Prayers Dear Father in Heaven and that you love each and every one of us the same for we are your children. We are sacred to you, and our children are to us. I am thankful that even in the mist of the darkest storms, when the world surrounds me with fear , all I have to do is turn to you on my knees and all the love that I would ever need feels my heart! I am so thankful for the Salvation of my soul Through the Atoning Sacrifice of Jesus On that cross.
I am thankful to know that there is nothing upon this earth that can take me or my children out of your hand, and your protection. ON this night I pray for healing that Jesus has for us not only for me and my household but for so many others. I pray for Missi and their families, I pray that the doctors will be amazed at the rate of healing that her body will just heal itself. But while she is healing that her family will be able to give her the help she needs. I ask a blessing on her children for I know that they must be very worried about their mommy and on her husband for heavenly father he is your son, and his burdens are heavy. Just make them feel light tonight.. For I know a husband hates to see is wife suffer..
Dear Father in Heaven I call upon the name of my sister Denise and her beautiful daughter Abby.. I know you know them well and you know their heart is scared at this time. I Can feel that mothers pain all too well.. Dear Father I ask that you send this child to the best doctors, that will be able to help her quickly.. I come unto thee on this night to ask a special blessing of peace and comfort upon this household father for they do so much for so many without ever a thought or complain. I ask you tonight as I raise up both of our daughters in prayer to night.. That you created their brains, and that you know exactly why they are going through this and you can completely obliterate this problem. But Dear Father in Heaven I ask you that if it’s something that we must go through, then send the angels in Heaven before us to make the path that we must tread feel light.. I ask that we the darkest times surround us that your name and GLORY will shine through! In all this I ask for in Jesus Christ Name Amen!

Count your Blessings..

Ok.. I had a major revelation last night,while I was waiting on to see if my eldest daughter was in the middle of having yet another stroke. YOU see I have been having a very hard time with the news that my baby(granted she is the oldest of my children) turned 18 in March.. and that she will be graduating in June..
The biggest revelation was that I should be thankful for all the time that I have had with her .. .That nothing in this life is promised , that we are not even promised to grow old and die ...
You think I would have been clued in to this when my sister was killed by a drunk driver at the age of 18 in August of 1995! My first baby girl has had a rough time in life these last couple of years.. She has had 2 strokes, migraine disorder and a seizure disorder.. There has been many nights that I was told to call our family in to say their good-byes for she wouldn't make it through the night! Yet instead of rejoicing that we have made it to 18, I was devastated that she would be growing up and leaving me..NOt leaving me persay but leaving the safety of MOMMY knowing her medical issues. KNowing how to take care of her.. what shes allgeric to and what she not.. For yous see I have spent the last FIve years fighting to keep her alive.. and I have been afriad to give up my post...
but through prayer and personal revelation I know that She is in her Heavenly Father's hands and he is in control of her life.. I am soo thankful for the plp that but up with me when i am hysterical ,and crying.. And the ones that love me enough to pray for me when i can barley pray for myself..( Thanks again Jeff, Kenzie, Ash, Micheal, Mollie and Rod!! I would be lost without you!! I know there are so many more plp that are praying for my family and I can not find the words to express how much I love you.
When Heavenly Father brought those missionaries to me, He not only brought me the Restored Gospel but a host of Family.. And i love them with every breathe! I am so Thankful that Families are FOREVER!!!!

Thanks to Ash for holding my hand at the Er! An to each an everyone of u who prayed for us! i love you all so much!

Monkey's Illness

Alana is showing symptoms that could b signs of stroke! Plz pray 4 her!

Trying to Survive in a Tea and Coffee World

I am not saying that Coffee and Tea are bad,I am trying my best to live my life in accordance to The Gospel of Jesus Christ and Modern Day Revelations by the Prophet. the gospel .With every twist and turn temptation is there to sway me away. I feel that it is up to me , to stay away from influences that I deem wrong . Thankfully we all have agency and what is right for me may not be right for someone else. Since there is so many negative influences that surrounds our daily lives, I have decided to work on something Spiritual at least once a day.. An given myself allowances that it doesn't have to fit in my life anywhere but for me.

Since I made this promise to me and My Heavenly Father my life has been flipped upside down. Alana hasn't been this sick in years and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight.
This week with all the hectic day to day life of trying to bring my daughter back from seizure world , I have decided to work on re-vamping my Modern Day Prophet Chart that I made for some missionaries . Yet this is where I could use the help of my Return Missionaries , I need help in remembering all the Prophets from Noah to current.. Are you up to the challenge?

Living Life with a House full of Teenagers

I love my daughters with all my heart. But at times they are the most trying experiences I have ever had. They surely keep me on my toes thinking and on my knees praying. With the fast approaching graduation of my oldest I sit back and wonder where all the time as went. I feels , when your carrying your precious child that the pregnancy will last forever.. Yet from the moment they breathe their first breathe of life on this planet life runs in fast forward. I know lots of little moments escape our day to day views because most people are trying desperately to make it to the next moment..
Yet with all the heartache that comes from parenting their is immense joy. I have often been told that without knowing sorrow you can never truly understand joy.. and that is a lot like raising a family.. You spend years teaching your child to learn to talk, and walk on their own. Then once they start making choices, and assert Independence from you it strikes a cord of fear within your heart. Not fear of them growing up , but the fear of being hurt, and as their mother their protector you learn you have to let go..
My children have been my whole existence since they came into existence as a baby growing inside my womb, yet now as they slowly turn into young women before my very eyes . I am learning to let go, and let them depend on their own brains and stand accountable to their Heavenly Father .So living in a house of teenagers has truly taught me what true atonement is all about. For my children are not perfect, they do not always make the choices that I think is right but I will always love them no matter what they do. I am so blessed to have them in my life and no matter where they go or whom they become I will always be in their corner..