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Monday, September 19, 2011

A brand New World..

Since Im having major issuse with this blog Ive changed .. Follow me here please.. .


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Saturday, September 17, 2011

A Open Letter to Myself

      Sometimes when I sit down to read a blog, I wonder to myself is this their authentic voice coming through the pages or are they just pretending to get a "huge Following".. Well for those of you who read this, if its anyone besides my friends, within theses pages you will find me ..
         If you look behind the screen you will find a (almost) 37yrold wife to my wonderful husband who isn't afraid to work for his family, Mother of the most  amazing young Women that you will ever have the chance to meet.. It breaks my heart that they are growing up so fast , I sit back an wonder where my babies went too.. It seems just like yesterday I was juggling  kids in the Primary school , a toddler and one on the way.. The days of sleepless nights, bottles, diapers and homework seem so far away.. But what I miss is having all my babies together and their cuddles... When I could take them into my arms and with a kiss an hug make the world right for them once again.. That the biggest pain they would ever face could be magically fixed with hugs&kisses.. Granted my life hasn't been full of rainbows and kittens.. There was a lot of pain, stress and trials to get me to where I am in my life. But there was also love for every pain, joy for every trial an peace for every moment of stress..

          For I am a Convert to "The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints", yes I meet a 19 year old boy who changed my life forever..Who changed my family forever, for he gave me the most precious gift I could ever receive...He taught me how my family can be Eternal, how death doesn't have to separate us..He taught me that Heavenly Father loves all this children , no matter how bad we screw up.That if we have a contrite heart, ask forgiveness for my sins that the ATONEMENT is there for me ..No matter what.. There has been many missionaries come and go in my life since that fateful October day in 2008, but I still Remain close to handful of them.. I am proud to call them my family, and yes I miss them so much ..There are days that these very special souls are on my speed dial, an they always listen to me no matter how crazy I sound..Being a  convert means that I speak another language from the rest of my family and friends.. An on the days that I long for a good gospel discussion *Yes Britt.. its you Im talking about ** I know who to call.. An just talk it out without having to give a defination for every other word out of my mouth. .LOL.. :OP

For Some reason ,which I have no clue why , Heavenly Father made me with a smart mouth that has no filter.. So whatever Im thinking usually comes straight out my mouth..*not a good thing if you ticked me off LOL* Also I hate Changes, I hate letting people get close to me because I fear rejection or losing them..But on the upside if I love you .. I will love you forever ,no matter what .. I am a friend that you can call at 3am because I m still awake.. I may not have lots of money but I will give any help I can to anyone ( an that usually comes back to bite me but oh well!!)
     I am a daughter to my "origanl" parents (thats a reference from my SIster Lisa) . I have two brothers whom I love with all my heart , they may not be blood but they are from my heart so that is where it counts.. Just because you have the same blood running through your viens it doesnt make you family.. Fammily comes from our heart, your soul the connection that you feel with another.. I have another set of parents watching over me from Heaven , my baby sister is with them.. But Heavenly Father has sent me more sisters to help me get through this earth, Tara (Twit), Terra (Tigger),Ms Ash...*oh how I miss you Arizona), Ms Mollie*I need some cuddle time with your cuddle bug* ,Sweet dear Kenzie, an last but Never least my Britt * I miss our gospel conversations.. I miss you**The sad part about this list is that all of them but one live on the other coast.. Oh how I miss you.. Then I have the most amazing brother / Sister in laws that a girl could ever ask for.. You know the ones that you can run to with tears streaming down our face ,an they make it ok.. or how they stand by your side even when your marriage was falling apart at the seems.. I can never do enough to show them my love an gratiude..

   When people ask me about my Testimony I tell them I am a work in progress because I firmily beleive i will not be done learning, growing or changing until after I take my last breath here .. and not even when I take my first breathe across the veil.. I am not perfect just striving hard daily to be found worthy to return back to my father in heaven.. To be the daughter that would make him proud. to be the mother to the chidren that he blessed me with, to all be reunited in Heaven one day..

 Well enough of my rants I will be closing for now.. Until next time...



    
    

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Updates in the Choas that I call my life..

       Ok in the month that I have last updated  a LOT has been going on in this crazy life I call mine.. I love my girls but our days have been filled with moving boxes, home work , band activites and running to an fro... Life is now fillled with Seminary Mornings, rushing them to the High School soon after..then picking them up in the evenings with band.. then band competions on the weekends..

     In the days of endless running and choas I miss my babies running around the house filling it with toys and chatter.. but I am also excited to be in this stage of my life. To be the Woman that Heavenly Father created me to be. To be the best wife and mother I can be.. to be the best sister ,  and friend ...

    Even though Heavenly Father took my only sister home to be with him 16yrs ago , he has giving me Many to hold my hand, to pray with me , or just to put up with my crazy rants.. An I love each and every one of them.. Yes, Tara Lynn , Terra Beth, Mollie, Ashley Hovick- LeMieux, an last but never least Mackenzie Meyer-Taylor.. I love you crazy women with all m heart , and soul.. You each have been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on, a friend to lift me up in prayer when I couldnt see for the darkness that surronded me.. Your apart of my family, my heart an will forever be..

    SO all my bright beautiful Sisters when you will you please come home and visit me.. These long-distance is killing me.. Your East Coast family needs you, to hug you and to love you.. No pressure though, i know all about lives, jobs , kids an Money.. Just know that your never alone and Im always here just a phone call or txt away...  

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Ashley…

Sitting here at KDMC with Ash.. She has been through hell and back in the last two weeks.. First of all she developed an abscess, which I am no stranger too.. It was caused by her sugars being too high..Then after the surgery to remove the infection in he abscess she developed the Flesh Eating Bacteria Virus on top of septic..

I know that without the blessing she was given by our full-time missionaries that we have currently serving in our ward. I know without a shadow of a doubt she was closer to the veil than she was here.. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for restoring the Priesthood power to the Earth..

Now she has two blood clots in her right arm, an one in left arm.. She is also in the beginning stages of kidney failure. But I know through the power of prayer and the loving grace of our Heavenly Father He can bring her through this and anything else in her way from a full recovery..

So right now I am currently taking the Night shift at the hospital so her Mom and Dad can sleep.. Her other family members can take the time during the day.. I am not complaining a bit, I love her so much .. I can remember her being a baby sitting on Mom Gibbs knee.. Hearing her say “Run Petey Run..” oh .. how the memories have flooded my mind of Mom and Dad Gibbs as of lately.. I wish  I could hear their precious voices once again..But on the other hand I am so glad they are not here watching their granddaughter go through this hell .. So as I close with a final thought I am asking you to pray for my niece… Whether you believe in a higher power or not.. she can use all the prayers , love and positive support her way..

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Another School Year…

Oh my in less than 24 hours my babies will be officially high school students..Where has the time gone, it feels like yesterday that they were toddlers running around my feet.. now they are beautiful independent women..

As of in the morning I will have a sophomore and a freshman at RUSSELL HIGH SCHOOL.. oh my oh my I  am feeling rather old today.. Well the back packs are bought, filled with school supplies(papers and pens) , their shoes are bought..now its time to find that “right” outfit to wear.. then off to school in the am..

Monday, August 8, 2011

Happy Birthday Baby Sister..

198699_2106582277723_1640539472_2075004_4018772_nToday you were born upon this earth, you were truly and angel that existed on this earth for the brief years you graced us with your love and presence. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back and talk to with you for I would never want to bring you here for where you are you are truly free in the presence of our Heavenly Father.. I wish I could hear your sweet laughter once again but I know I will one day.. and on that day that we are reunited we will never have to part again. I know your watching over me and my girls from the beautiful skies above.

I can still remember seeing your beautiful smile in September when I was in a coma. I felt no fear just love, peace and acceptance. I so wanted to just to be able to hold you in my arms once again , but you stopped me that’s when I remembered my beautiful girls . .. and what my loss would mean to them.. I thank you for that.. for without them I don’t know where I would be..

Baby Sister I just want you to know how much I love you.. I know if you were still with us you would have a been a very distinguished doctor prolly with a million babies running around.. So many people are still stuck in 1995 with you , your so loved and missed.. Danny and Amy became medical professionals because of you.. Because of you Nancy was able to move on find love, and become such and amazing artists.. Your friends that have children now take them to meet you to tell them WHY not to drink an drive.. Oh My if you could see Alana Gail now, shes not a baby anymore but a beautiful amazing woman… Oh how much I love an miss you sissy.. This is not a goodbye its until I'm226836_1837518911307_1640539472_1789735_5527302_n with you again..

Friday, July 22, 2011

Unexpected Blessings..

There has been many many unexpected blessings come our way in the last two wks.. Heavenly Father is answering many prayers that have long been praying.. I know the scriptures say that “Heavenly Father will only answer prayers that are for our benefit ,”but sometimes its so hard to hang on when your praying and you see nothing Change..


 

I am not going into the Changes right now, I am requesting that you guys still pray for me because its not over yet..But this battle that I have been struggling with for far too long is almost over.. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and it feels when I was in coma full of love, peace and just blessings..

Friday, July 1, 2011

Moving…

Seeing your life hauled into contents of boxes, stirs up emotions an sometimes memories.. I hate moving , I hate trying to plan what usually becomes utter chaos. because no matter how many boxes you have , you will always need more.. An I don’t know why but in my household something always ends up broke. Whether it be a picture frame, or something as big  as a latch on an appliance.

As I am surrounded by what feels like a million boxes, there are easily a million memories that go with each box.. Sometimes its as easy a card that I had received in the mail, “ you know the kind Im just thinking of you today” or a report card from a long ago year..
Like with each passing of the school year that is a milestone that will never be crossed again. As I long for stability in my children’s life. I know the most important things is NOT where we live but how we live.. Its more important that we are all together, united as one household*One Family* jn stead of living separate worlds.. *Yes I do realize the Journey Reference, even though its after 5am I'm awake enough to catch a good song.. *

On a much happier note I was able to purchase tickets for the midnight premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part2 ….In 3D ….with line skip…  I know might not seem that exciting to you guys out there but the last time Alana and I saw Harry Potter in 3D*even though it as on IMax* was because she was soo sick in Children's in Cincinnati .. an that movie was Goblet of Fire… so that tells you something right.. I know we will need about a billion boxes of tissues but I think the 3D effect will make you feel apart of the battle which is what happens when you read anyway.. An yet that is and end of an Era,,

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Life is a great circle full of movement , and Road blocks..

While visiting a dear friend of mine this past week I noticed stenciled on her wall, FAMILY , A JOURNEY TO ENTERITY.. *or something to that affect for I was quite emotional * ..

Well any who that has gotten this mind of my whirling.. For I am one of those that personally believe that we lived in Heaven before we came down here to take upon this mortal body.. And before I start rambling into Primary Songs, I know that live is hard , its full of roadblocks, heck even our own personal Hurricanes and tornado's .. We may not be affected by them physically but we can be emotionally, mentally or even spiritually..  I think the ones that know me best, know I have been in the middle of my own Spiritual hurricane.. An I like anyone who has ever survived a hurricane knows I battened down the hatches around my heart, my home , my family..

I have never been on to be an open book to others, to be able to ask for support if I truly needed or even let people know I was drowning.. My life has been full of love, laughter and even devastation, There has been many things that I have overcame , that would have killed a lesser woman.. I am not being boastful or arrogant .. I am just simply stating the things that I have overcame in this lifetime would warp your mind if you allowed it.. But once I had my beautiful daughter my survival became for most in my life, for I had to survive to take care of her.. She was my world, my very reason or existing.. All three of my children are, even when they’re trying my patience and turning me grey.. 

Looking over the last 4 years of my life there has been many changes, many ups and downs. Some of them blow my mind or I couldn’t imagine how empty my life, and my family would have been without some of these blessings… How people I didn’t know Four years ago , I would lay my life down for now if they needed it.. I am thankful for the love and support you all have shown me, an brand new world I never knew existed.. For when you say your love someone they actually mean it.. For people showing they love ,support me without wanting to hurt me or something first for them selves.

Granted I would love to take away some of the challenges that we have had , and continue to have but one thing I've learned is that even when we are walking into our own personal “living nightmare or hellish existence” Heavenly Father is always there with us loving us and wanting us to turn to him.. Sometimes when we pray its not that he’s not listening .. its just that the answer is not for our benefit so that’s why we are getting silence. . He loves us so much an only wants things for our benefit.. I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who is bedside me each step of the way on this side of mortality and waiting for me on the other side of immortality For when this race is finished I know that my home will be with my loved ones.. I am so Thankful that I know that Families are Forever.. .

Monday, June 20, 2011

Changes an Self Reflection

I am not the biggest fan of Changes, whether those changes are good for me or bad.. I have such a hard time letting people in and get close to me , for my biggest fear is rejection. Of loving someone and not being loved in returned. So If you have breached the wall that I have been around myself “Congratulations” because its not easy but yet its not something I can change.

One of my greatest quirks about myself that I am starting to find as one of my greatest strengths … Is that I tell you exactly what I am thinking.. an Feeling (most of the time LOL) the feeling part is still a great work in progress.. I am so tired of all the people whom seem to think that your life is their business, and if you don’t let them into your life they just make up an spread lies about you anyway.. I’ve been out of High School an long time now and yet some people never out grow that mentality of “Clicks” or destroying other people with their mouths. I am usually very tolerant of their stupidity but once they drag my children or family into their drama I See “RED” and all complete rational thought go out of my brain an my mouth goes into over-drive .. Yes I do see that as a flaw and I am currently working on the problem..

Life is crazy hard enough without other people trying to drag other people down.. So please encourage, love other people and like your mother told you ( or if she didn’t I will ) if you have NOTHING good to say then Say NOTHING at all. You don’t know what other people are experiencing in their lives, you don’t know their heartaches, stress or even medical problems .. so learn to leave your comments to yourself unless its full of love an appreciation for life is too short for all the DRAMA!!!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Reflecting on Summers past…

Summer has arrived in full force here in Kentucky and one of the things that I hate about summer is not the heat but the humidity..  According to my trusty Weather Channel App its 90 degrees outside but feels like 96 degrees UV index is HIGH …and this is only the last day of May.. I have a feeling we are in for another hellish summer.. Well tonight is Graduation Night in Ashland, my girls have to play in the band for graduation. Luckily or not for them it will be outside in the stadium, it’s a first experience for them. . I bet by the end of the evening they will be happy to have that breeze blowing on them from the wind instead of being shoved into a hot stuffy gym with no air flow..

Today is the last day of middle school for my youngest.. Lord I am feeling old right now.. But my Tomboy will officially be in high school..Time flies by …even though I have been with them during each of these steps it sometimes I feel as if I am watching from the outside.. I can remember holding each of these precious lives in my arms, how small and tiny they were.. How it felt as if the pregnancy was going to last a life time now I am reflecting back about how fast it went. Now time is at hand to enjoy each moment for they are fleeting.. it will not be much longer that they will want to hang out and watch a movie with dear old Mom and Dad.. I can say that Harry Potter Deathly Hallows Part2 is on the agenda for the Midnight Premiere for this family..what about you?? What are you plans for the summer lets me know… lets try to help each other out with ideas for I do know when I start hearing …”Mom I’m Bored” I tend to loose all thoughts out of my brain..

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Summer Trippin 2011

The very first weekend of Summer 2011, we started off at a Splash Park in Ironton Ohio. This is a new feature to our city, something for the kids to do and best of all its FREE.. WIth the state of the current economy I am sure I am not the only one looking for things fun to do with your families that doesnt cost a small fortune..
For the very first time in weeks we had nothing but lots of Sunshine, warm breeze a blowing through the trees,so it was decided FAMILY TIME .. Since we have a small car at this current time , I decided to take two trips to get everyone there legally.. The first one I took my hubby and our youngest to the Splash Park, allowing them to stake out the most perfect place.. While my older two kids went to pick up one of thier friends and the most perfect lunch awaits us, Zanzais Pizza  (http://www.zanzis.com/ZanzisMenu.htm) .. So after we picked up Natasha's friend Sunshine, I called in our order... Yummy , Sausage Pizza with and without Mushrooms, Barbaque Chicken Pizza and Cheese pizza for the little ones.. My best friend Terra , Amber (her sister) an her babies meet us at the water park as soon as they finished thier soccer games.
It was so much splashing around in the water, with the kids ..Watching Levi try to destroy the water as it jets out of the ground..an just hanging out and being a family.. I have always said that family is not defined by the blood that runs through your veins but your heart.. An I love those babies as much as I love my own.. Now since school doesnt offically end until Tuesday for us I wonder where the summer will find us.. Since I do believe that this was an excellent start.. So for you my wonderful readers.. tell me what your summer plans are, fill me in on your ideas for fun filled times that doesnt cost alot.. Lets try to make Summer 2011 the best one yet.. and most importantly not go in debt doing it.. LOVE to you all until the next time I sit down in front of this key board reaching out to you..

Monday, May 23, 2011

Cinderella.... The Transformation of a Tomboy into My Princess...

Sa-Rai was involved in a school Play called Cinderella, she loves acting and wants to become and actor.. So this is her journey into a bright new world, that for my shy child has became a revelation of hidden talent and strength. For you see ,Sa-Rai has been my tomboy since life was breathed into her soul. Even though as her mother I loved having the long cascading curls down her back, she would run into my arms going " Pull it up Momma, pull it into a ponytail, an get it out of my way.. " That was even at a year old, she was the one running around with bib overalls on, bare feet, chasing cars around the house an watching "Bob the Builder" ... 
Sa-Rai has never fit into a mold, or conformed to anything other than she thought she ought to be , being the youngest of my children, she has always been the "baby" .. Doing exactly anything that she deemed interesting .. She loves to draw, read comic books, play video games and hang out with her best friends. Not shopping at the malls,or chasing after boys.. She is my girl that I can find exploring out in the woods, or in front of the computer chatting with her best friends.. 
She was bitten by the acting bug a while ago, but not knowing exactly where to go or what to do.. It has taken her a while to proceed .. When her middle school had try-outs for their play "Cinderella" she wanted to try out.. With try-outs, a dentition came, and thus she was added to the cast Ensemble...They (the Cast) practice every day after school until 5- 5:30 pm thus making a long day.. As the play grew closer they practiced until 8.. I can tell you know that the play was scheduled the last full week school was ending.. 
There was many first in this play for Sa-Rai, first time she would be singing in front of a live audience, first time she would be wearing makeup, and curling her hair,the first time she would be sharing her talented self with the world .. Aw my baby has surely grown up, and is no longer that little Tomboy I see in my mind.. The confidence of being able to put on a full length formal gown and be comfortable in it, came froMollie Mayfield Pettingill... who taught Sa-Rai that she can still have fun, be herself even if she is in a dress..
I am so blessed to have the beautiful young women I have , even though in my heart and soul they are still my beautiful babies..  I am blessed to have the friends that I have , for I would be lost without them.. I have often said it "takes a village to raise a child' and i firmly believe that . for each person that comes into our lives leaves an imprint on our soul, and heart.. so with this I leave a final closing.. I am so proud to be a mother to my Three beautiful angels, I am proud of Sa-Rai for all she has accomplished in her 13 years that she has been on this earth and all she is going to accomplish( the child who was never suppose to live) and proud to have the friends and family I have without you I would not be half the woman, mother that I am.. Thanks for being there for me and my family.. 

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother's Day

My Mother's Gift
Well as you can see , Im starting my blog off with my present to my Mother. A photo collage of her children and grandchildren. I am the type of person that likes to make things for people because to me it comes from the heart, a lot of thought, time and engery goes into the gift.. Not just walking into Walmart an picking up the first thing that you run into .. I love photographs for they are truly a moment captured in time, a moment that I can never get back again . How my beautiful babies have grown into beautiful young women, I am so proud of them. Well for a run-down of my Mother's Day... I went to Church with my family, stopped in to my Moms and Mom(inlaw) and gave them my presents from us. I am the crafty one of my family so the gifts are a joint gift from me , my brother , sister in law brother in law and all the grandkids on both sides of the family.. Came home and made my Tacos for dinner, why you ask because  I wanted them.. Had a amazing dinner with my brother and family.. I love nights like this when the house is full of laughter and family. Then Charles an I settled into our kingsize bed to watch our Tv shows... Then my other *kids* called home, I loved hearing thier beautiful voices and listen to the exictment of wedding plans.. (Yes world I am talking about Jeff and his beautiful Mackenzie) I love these people with all of my heart. .

My Mother(inlaws) Gift
Do you have to give birth to be a mother? In my honest heartfelt opionion no. There has been many great women in my life that has helped shaped me into the wife, and mother that I am. I would not be half the person I am today without them. I love my mother-in law , she has always been a friend to me, my Great- Aunt Frankie was a mother figure in my life , an  I miss her everyday.. And I have had the privlage and even heart ache of loving children that I didnt give birth too. There are many special ones in my life an I would not trade anything for them, for them adding beauty and love to my life.I love my Returned Missionaries they are family to me, they brought so much love, joy into my life and family.. I dont know what or where  I would be without them. I love my church family, even though we all have our ups and downs there is unconditional love there.. So I want to leave you all with a poem that I found and it touched my heart.. An  I actually included this poem on the back of the Photos I made..

A mother heart is purely guided
As she senses her identity
She then becomes further ignited
Through her natural ability
How is a mother heart acquired?
But, through a gospel education
With strength and honor, she's attired
To strive without equivocation
Her tongue speaks the law of kindness
As she opens her mouth with wisdom
She eats not the bread of idleness
As she labors amongst God's kingdom
Her hands stretch out unto the poor
To willingly feed from her store
She looks well to her household duties
And her price is far above rubies
Out of small things proceedeth much verve
And, for her family, she delights to serve
Who is a mother heart? Why, it is us!
Before earth we shouted for joy at the trust
And we are here to attain earth life goals
By the side of righteous men each with their roles
Which neither can reach independently
To become endowed exponentially
Our work here is laying a great foundation
And obedience is part of this life's education
Those who're diligent will have much more advantage
As they take their considerable gifts and learn to manage
By developing a mother heart we prepare
To be blessed with a "quiver full" under our care
There is no limit then to what we can accomplish
To make the world a better place if we're conscientious
Julie B. Beck

A "Mother Heart"
Liahona, May 2004, 75
So until next time love each other, and be thankful to the women you have in your life because you are not promised tomorrow..

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

The Royal Wedding and other News worthy Headlines

Yes, I am one of those millons of Americans that anxiously sat in front of thier tv's to see the commoner become a Princess, thats every little girls dream right? I was of the generation that can remember watching Lady Diana marry Prince Charles, seeing Prince Willam grow up through photographs and even that horrible tradgey that took a mother away from her precious boys. As Alana and I watched the Wedding unfold on tv, the main thoughts that kept running through my mind was how much Prince William looks and acts like his mother, how much he must miss her and how much his wife would make his mother proud. Princess Diana never conformed to royal protocol and standards, She raised her boys to think about the world around them, taught them about true human suffering and to help the world around you. They have become better men for it, and now as William married for love, I know he made his mother proud.
For a mother is proud of her children no matter what they do. But there are days as a parent that you can do nothing right, when you feel like your kids are not listening to the messages that you try to instill in them.Then out of the blue they suprise you, they say or do something and your like....."wow" they really are listening. Ive taught my kids actions speak louder then words, and every action /choice you make in this life has a consquence whether in this life or the one that is to come you will have to face those consquences of your choice.
Just like the death of Bin Laden, an I so proud to live in a country that has freedom. I am so proud of my family/friends that are willing to lay thier lives down to insure that we are free everyday. I am proud of thier wives that go months to years at time keepin the home fires burning, and childrening growing up healthy and strong as thier Daddy fights in wars for our freedom. Words can never truly express the love and appreciaion I have for each member of our military.Just as the Germans learned with World War 1, Japanese learned in World War II, North Vietnam learned in "The Conflict" you may come an attack us, you may even knock the wind out of our sails but we will get back up and fight. American will attack and hit back harder than you could ever imagine, we will preserve freedoms even if lives are lost they are never forgot. I am so glad that we can finally close a horrible chapter in American History and may the families that were effected on September 11th 2001 finally have closure. May thier lives finally begin to heal, I know that when you loose someone you love you are never truly the same again but instead of sorrow an fear may they find peace. May the men an women fighting wars in countries all over the world finally be allowed to come home.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I saw a sign the other day..

I saw a church sign the other day that has me pondering on it for days.. Which is not that unsual for me an these signs.. But this one said, "its not where you come from but where you going that counts.." An I for one have to publicly disagree.. For  I believe that before I came to this world I lived with my Heavenly Father.. I choose to come to the earth to take upon this body, and then to do my best to return with honor to my Heavenly Father. .Even though life is full of struggles, joys and tempations I still believe its about Where I came from , what Im doing while Im here and how I return back to my creator..
Life is meant to be hard, to smooth the rough edges off us personally and spirtually.. But there are days that I feel like Im barely treading water.. People are more discouraging than incouraging..
 The churches are full of people who are not there to worship the creator , and help thier fellow man to Heaven. But they are there to act like pre-schoolers and start the drama, add to the pain.. What is the point of going into a building to worship your creator if it takes more stress and strain out of you then staying at home.. Why should you have to build a wall aroound you just to "assoicate" with supposedly like mind indivuals? I know my Father in Heaven loves me , my family loves me and wants me to suceed everyone else can just kiss it. .an back off.. I'm tired of trying to hang on, on struggling to stand  on my own to feet especially when I just get knocked back down.. so its time to for me to let the stress and strain of worrying go.. and Rely on my Heavenly Father. .

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Confusion

I am filled with confusion and heartbreak.. In times like these I pray for the strength to carry on.. Millions of things run through my mind.. I hate to hide behind pretenses but I'm tired of letting people in just to feel this pain.. To put the walls down, have my heart smashed into a million pieces. To hear your voice now its a million miles away.. it breaks my heart .. I dont know what I did to you, but know that no matter what I will always love you.. You are family, that will never change.. will  I let you in as close as you once were ...I dont know that answer questions ravage my mind like hidden daggers that attacks the very soul.. Who ever wrote the lines that Its better to have loved and lost....surely never  truly loved.. I love the experiance of having you in my life, I love the very being of your soul.. but I miss you.. I miss our things that we did together.. if you wouldve or could have let me in..then maybe I wouldnt feel this pain now. Maybe I would  feel like Ive done something horribly wrong.. Was I not good enough for the truth??? What went so wrong?? Could you just email me or let me know ..so the questions will stop swimming through my brain and soul.. so i can begin to heal and leave this place of pain and sorrow...

Monday, April 4, 2011

Heart Monitors and Iv Sticks

Heart monitors an Iv Sticks




I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me, my life,and my family .do I have all the answers: No..Am I scared.....More than I will ever publicly admitt too...

Yet the only Thing that runs through my mind right now is my Grandmothers favorite Scriptures," The Lord is my Shepherd ,I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters ..." so I know that matter how difficult life gets I will never have to walk it Alone.. for I will have my Heavenly Father looking out for me an my family walking by my side ..

Saturday, March 19, 2011

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    Update on MOM

    Current mood:worried
    Mom is back in the hosptial and its not her heart this time. Her right leg is full of cellitis , and it has bubbles of infection on it which is staff infection .. which means the flesh eating diease is back after 5 yrs.. the last time that mom has this they wanted to amputate before they could get it under control.. this is a very dangerous illness. now with her heart probs im sure it complicates matters even more . .They decided to today to call in the Infections diease dr.. Dr Ganier.. so she is spending her birthday iin the hospital.. she has been thier since Friday.. and they have no clue when she will be released.. The good thing is that she recieved a Priesthood Blessing on Friday from Elders Niles and Golding.. Now all we can do is wait and pray.. .so please keep my family in your prayers

    ☆ ASH TRAGEDY ☆     ive had cellulitis before and its definitely not fun. im sorry to hear about it and i hope all gets better soon. tell her i said hi and i hope she feels well and is back on  her feet in no time. <3 ya.
    2 years ago

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      Update of Sorts...

      Current mood:contemplative

      Hello , everyone.. I have been noticing that lately I have been getting a lot of request to approve comments bout drinking alcoholic beverages on my page. I am assuming that it is a new App, that I am unaware of .. Well I haven't been approving these comments. Before I hurt anyone's feelings, I felt that it was best that I should sit down with pen to paper and explain myself.. to you ... my friends..
      As some of you who know Charles and I on a personal level, we started talking to some missionaries almost 2 yrs ago..  This past June we felt that it was right for us individually and for our family to become baptized in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints ( www.lds.org)
      As a requirement for our baptism, and according to our Articles of Faith we no longer drink alcoholic  beverages, Charles quit smoking as of Mother's Day this year.. an many other great, amazing yet confusing changes have gone on in our lives.


      THE ARTICLES OF FAITH
      OF THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS

      History of the Church, Vol. 4, pp. 535—541
        1
      We abelieve in bGod, the Eternal Father, and in His cSon, Jesus Christ, and in the dHoly Ghost.

        2
      We believe that men will be apunished for their bown sins, and not for Adam’s ctransgression.

        3
      We believe that through the aAtonement of Christ, all bmankind may be csaved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

        4
      We believe that the first principles and aordinances of the Gospel are: first, bFaith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, cRepentance; third, dBaptism by eimmersion for the fremission of sins; fourth, Laying on of ghands for the hgift of the Holy Ghost.

        5
      We believe that a man must be acalled of God, by bprophecy, and by the laying on of chands by those who are in dauthority, to epreach the Gospel and administer in the fordinances thereof.

        6
      We believe in the same aorganization that existed in the Primitive Church, namely, apostles, bprophets, cpastors, dteachers, eevangelists, and so forth.
        7
      We believe in the agift of btongues, cprophecy, drevelation, evisions, fhealing, ginterpretation of tongues, and so forth.
        8
      We believe the aBible to be the bword of God as far as it is translated ccorrectly; we also believe the dBook of Mormon to be the word of God.

        9
      We believe all that God has arevealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet breveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.

        10
      We believe in the literal agathering of Israel and in the restoration of the bTen Tribes; that cZion (the New Jerusalem) will be built upon the American continent; that Christ will dreign personally upon the earth; and, that the earth will be erenewed and receive its fparadisiacal gglory.

        11
      We claim the aprivilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the bdictates of our own cconscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them dworship how, where, or what they may.
        12
      We believe in being asubject to bkings, presidents, rulers, and magistrates, in cobeying, honoring, and sustaining the dlaw.
        13
      aWe believe in being bhonest, true, cchaste, dbenevolent, virtuous, and in doing egood to all men; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul—We believe all things, we fhope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to gendure all things.  If there is anything hvirtuous, ilovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.

      We are not perfect, we are not any different that the people we use to be other than we are striving to live our lives from an eternal perspective now. I am not judging anyone, nor would I ever. Every one of you on my list I love with all of my heart and I pray that I dont lose your love and support. I just felt that if i didnt take the time to set down and atleast explain why I felt I couldnt post them, even though I know you mean no harm. I hope you dont take it personally and this doenst change your love for me.. All my love Rata 1:44 AM

      Suzi Henderson     hey girl i knew you were going hru this and i hope you have found pease with this desision. i know i would and monte and i are back in church and closer then ever and he is being ordained and we have made a lot of changes also. love ya and call me sometime. give my love to the girls and charles.                          
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      2 years ago
      Suzi Henderson     monte and i have made alot of changes also. i am glad you have found hapiness. we have to. monte is going to be ordained soon and alot of things going on with the girls. call me sometime.                           
      2 years ago

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        New Pics

        Current mood:creative
        I have recently updated new pics of the girls, including when they were playing in the huge snow we had, Natasha at her first Valentine's day Dance, and her 13th bday..but for some unforeseen reason I couldnt get it 2 up load to MySpace.. So they are all on my Facebook.. I am currently on facebook more than ever.. Yes , I use MySpace only for my blogs... but if you just want to chat that is the place to catch me..

        love you ...

      Mom's in the hospital again....

      Current mood:worried
      On thursday she woke up having chest pains and pains in her arm, at 530 in the morning. She waited as stubborn as she is, for the doctors office to open at 9 before she did anything. They asked her to go to the hospital, she didnt go until 1100. Once we got there , they did the cardic enyzmes they were up the first time but the second time they were fine. the pain had left completly by then of course the nitro patch always helps lol...

      anyway we've been admitted since thurday.. mom has experianced some neurological problems monday that were either caused by seizure, TIA, or strokes... we are now in the process of finding out what.. we have had a full battery of test 2day and even some last night but they are basically incluesive...

      so keep us in your prayers.. an it looks like she will be in the hospital till monday..

      Congrats to my Best friend an her Family..

      Current mood:blessed
      God is great... One of my best friends delievered her little boy last night , he weighed 6 lbs 5 1/2 oz and was 19 inches long.. She had some complications during the delivery but all is great with mommy and baby.. Her and her husband has two beautiful children after years of inferitilty .. God is great.. they were told they would never have any and they now have thier prince and princess.. She struggled to get him here but he is doing awesome now.. Welcome Levi Tate.. We all love you..


      • Terra Valentine     AWWW YOUR SO VERY SWEET!!! i HAVENT BEEN ON HERE MUCH STILL ADJUSTTING TO BEING A MOM AGAIN AFTER 6 YEARS OF A VERY INDEPENDENT LITTLE GIRL BUT THINGS ARE GREAT... THIS PREGNANCY TAUGHT ME MORE THAN MOST WILL EVER KNOW... BUT THE IMPORTANT THING THAT IT TAUGHT ME WAS THAT I NEEDED TO TRUST GOD AND PUT MY WORRIES IN HIS HANDS BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT HE ALWAYS HAS THE BEST PLAN LAID OUT FOR US... AND EVERY TIME I LOOK INTO LEVI'S BEAUTIFUL FACE I AM REMINDED TO PUT MYSELF INTO GODS HANDS AND HE WILL TAKE CARE OF US!!!                           
        1 year ago

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        Checking My List....

        Current mood:creative
        Ok I am trying to get in the Christmas Mood.. (LoL) .. Its been really hard with me having recently been sick, with Mom having problems with her heart, and now Alana in seziure mode.. but Life does go on... So when Lisa died, Christmas Cards seem to do the trick.. I know most plp doesnt like them..So indulge me please.. If I dont have your address, birthdays.. (spouse children you.. you know the drill ) please send it to me..
        I am a scrap book person by nature .. I love making things so please help me.. ok i love you guys.. Have a Merry Christmas .. An lets not stress about Jobs, money *or the lack of * an try to remember the TRUE reason why we celebrate this Season...

        I love you guys each an everyone of you on here. Even If I dont say it.. Please remember that.. I dont have these pages to *collect * plp for status you are my friends or family.. I love you dearly.. Life is too short an we get caught up in trying to live it and not enjoy those around us..

        Heavenly Father knows I learned that lesson 13 years ago, Merry Christmas Lisa, I love you my dear sister and I will see you one day...


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        Updates an new info..

        Current mood:sleepy
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        everyone's been complaining to why i dont have a facebook so i thought  i would try it out .. add me.. tell me what you think... But i love myspace and im not getting rid of it..so u can still talk to me here..


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        AMAZING.......

        Current mood:rockin
        That's about how I can sum up my night.. for one I finally was able to talk to my dear friend... Jeff.. I was so glad to hear from that boy.. I was beginning to think I was going to have to take a trip out to Washington State to hunt him down and whip him.. lol.. Im gonna call him back on Saturday so we can actually have a "sit down" and talk... this was more like Oh My!! how are you Ive missed you .. but he was working .. and I was driving down the highway to get my hubby from work... So its all good...
        Then my Hubby, brother, niece , daughters , bestfriend an my daughters friend went to the midnight showing of TWLIGHT last night... Yes I know.. I encourage them.. But it was awesome.. they had a blast.. and they got up this morning on Cloud nine .. without complaint.. Still on thier Twlight High..lol.. We had 11 plp in our little group last night... Phoniex Theaters Sold out 3 different viewing rooms last night ..each room holds 250 plp per showing .. so at midnight that was a bunch of Twlight fans.. I bought our tickets 10 days earlier.. an they had already sold out of one theater (viewing room) right after I bought them.. An the movie actually sticks really close to the book.. thier is all kinds of book quotes in the movie.. I was throughly impressed with the movie..
        So to say the least my night last night ROCKED!!!!!
        3 years ago

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          You know its been a Hard Wk...

          Current mood:cold
          When you past the song Lyrics that your keep on repeat in a blog so you can read them... Ive had this song on constant repeat this wk.. an its really helped me... Lord its only Tuesday.. Let's hope it get's easier..
          Love and Prayers.. Rata..

          East To West lyrics
          Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
          The chains of yesterday surround me
          I yearn for peace and rest
          I don't want to end up where You found me
          And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
          I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
          And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
          But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

          Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
          'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
          In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
          'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
          From one scarred hand to the other

          I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
          Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
          Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

          I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
          I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
          I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
          I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
          You're holding on to me

          Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
          I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
          In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
          'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
          From one scarred hand to the other
          One scarred hand to the other
          From one scarred hand to the other

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          Have you ever looked into another....

          Current mood:sad
          Person's eyes and stared into thier souls.. Ive heard that our lifetime on this earth is just a breath in Heaven.. My so... Maybe my sister has sent me some angel's during this last yr.... I know now.. that in the Pre- existance we all choose to come down here to this world.. to have these experiances ... no matter what they are so we can return to our Heavenly Father...
          For without sadness you can not truly know joy.. without Pain .. you cannot truly know love.. But there has been many times in my life where I have truly felt that I have felt more Sadness than Joy... more Pain than love... But I have honestly always been a firm believer that we go through things in our lives for  a reason.. We may not know them at that excat moment.. but there will be a moment in time where we will look back and go .. oh ... yeah... i understand now..
          I also firmly believe that we have people in our lives for a reason.. that friends are in our lives for a purpose.. we may never truly know that purpose but lets never try to ignore any one in our life , or let each new wonderful possiblity esacpe us because we are too busy letting our daily lives pass us by...  This pass year has taught me a beautiful lesson in Friendship and Family.. and how quickly time can pass you by..
          How a innocent knock at your door , that you think will not matter in the great scheme of things turns out to be a friendship that will last you a lifetime.. Or that innocent fresh face boy of 19.. who will forever be apart of our family to the day I die .. I love him as if I have known him a lifetime ... instead of a yr.. The words fault me as I try to describe for you the emotions as I feel runs through me ... when i can close my eyes and see my dear Sister Jones and Elder Taylor teasing each other beyond belief...(those too acted like brother and sisters..) Tears spring into my eyes as I think of the the "knighting" ceremony between the Elders that Christmas with Crys, Jason, Charles, I and all the Hell-dren... An the Epic throwing events between Sisters.. in my livingroom in Raceland.. The girls still practice.. These are the memories that I miss.. the snipets of time.. where my friends where still within reach.. but no matter where your at Washington, Utah, Arizona, or God sends you know that I love you dearly.. and I am praying for the day that we all can be together again...
          Until that day.. Stay Safe my friends... All my love and Prayers...

          3 years ago


            angela green     Aww Rata that was beautiful!!!I love you.                                 Sister Green                           
            3 years ago

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              Craig Penrose... God.. I wish...

              Current mood:infuriated
              Enough said with my icon .. for those of you have had the mistake of knowing Craig.. he's has complety disappered off the face of the earth, leaving all is children behind .. which now is 4.. and he is still screwing with them... why cant he just go away an stay away like a bad freaking dream... you know the kind you wake up from.. its been 17 yrs and im still not wake .. i love my daughter and i would never change her.. but DAMN to i wish HE wasnt her sperm donor... that is all he is..for a FATHER never walks away..and never leaves thier kids.. he never puts hes needs aboves his childrens.. why is my daugher at 16 more mature then he will ever be?


              3 years ago

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                ok for some STUPID REASON...

                Current mood:pissed off
                i cannot access my email.. so will everyone please take the time to email me .. at myforeverfamily@gmail.com ... so i can have thier email address.. sorry...

                love you guys...
                Rata...

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                I am a dork....

                Current mood:overstimulated
                Ok, just for the record.. I am a dork.. I was cooking dinner for a dear friend of mine.. and trying to help the girls with thier homework... (Which for the record is something I have done a billon times before) and ... wouldnt you know it.. I end up cutting my fracking finger.. not once twice.. Well for those of you who dont know me I have neropathy .. so i have nerve damage... in my hands.. so when i felt pain in my hand and then saw the blood i knew it was bad...
                Plus the fact that I was really sick to my stomache immeditelay... But my lovely hubby said i was ok.. it didnt need stitches.. well thank god he doesnt have a medical degree..lol.. cause he was wrong.. i have two in my finger.. My niece was nice enough to come and drive me.. i felt so stupid for askin her..but i was afraid if they had to give me stitches .. and shots i wouldnt be able to drive..
                Plus the girls were at church, Charles had to be at work at 8... it was bad.. Thanks to Angie Blake for saving my butt and bringing the girls home from church because by the time the kids would have gotten home i dont know what i would have done.. it really was hurting ... it still is.. I am still sick to my stomach I hope that goes away soon.. but the Dr said it will hurt like the devil for a while...Just great... plus with me being a diabetic .. i am a slow healer..
                ok enough whinning i am going to try to go to bed.. nite to all... i just hope to feel better in the morning..


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                hey guys. whats everyone up to?

                Current mood:blissful
                School is in session here.. and the Girls are in Happy with Russell.. they were excited about going back this year.. it was good to get them out of Raceland.. They was way to many bad feelings there especially since they wouldnt help me with and IEP for Alana yet within 2 days of her being at Russell last yr she had one... The girls are doing well ..
                Sa-Rai had her bottom braces on right before school started.. poor baby... she couldnt eat for days... but atleast we will get her teeth fixed at it all will be good.. Alana is upset that Harry Potter 6 is coming out Next summer instead of November..but shes way excited that her Twlight Movie is taking its place...so atleast she will have something to put in its spot her favorite classes are Psychology and Latin 2... Can u believe that she is a Junior?? Where did the time go?
                Natasha is in 7th grade and my baby is in 6th grade..where has the time gone? time has flown by.. it seems like your pregnant forever.. then in a blink of an eye they grow up on you.. oh well .. unenough of my rant for now..talk to you soon...


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                If only we had this 13 yrs earlier.....

                Current mood:numb
                Every year, nearly 13,500 people are killed by drunk drivers with an illegal alcohol level of .08 BAC or above.
                The Campaign to Eliminate Drunk Driving kicked off in November 2006 with the goal of eliminating drunk driving permanently. The Campaign has four essential elements:
                The rest of the website is very inforamational.. I am a firm believer that NO ONE should get behind the wheel of a car, no matter how much or little they have had to drink.. For you do stop to think how your choices impact other peoples lifes.... Thirteen years ago today.. my daddy and sister (Lisa) was coming to pick me up from work we were suppose to go shopping for college stuff her her, and baby stuff for me because I was expecting my secound child.. Little did I know that when I left her to watch my oldest daughter that morning.. tell her " I love you Lee, I 'll see you soon...Are you sure you can watch Alana?' That those would be the last words ever spoken to her on this side of enterity.. I guess I am lucky for I can still her hear echoing "I love you Ray" in my head as I walked out the door that morning.. Lisa's driver wasnt convicted becasue the accident was soo horrific that it took too long to get the BAC level done.. He had enough time to sober up... but when there is three car pile up ..one person already gone at the sceen , my daddy trapped in the car.. the person behind him hurt... could stop an hit them again.. The state trooper that rolled on to the scene that rainy night in August was a reconstrustion..which by a blessing helped us later.. the scene was horrific he recounted under testimony in court.. So not all people who committ drinking an driving get convicted.. not all victims get justice.. I firmly believe just as Abels blood cried out in the days of old .. my sisters did the same and may I will never know it.. But I believe that her death will have justice in the end..
                I am thankful to have loved her and had her in my life for those 18 yrs.. God knows I wish it could have been many , many, more.. I miss her every day.. As my girls grow up into beautiful women , I wonder how much she would have spoiled them.. This week has been a hard one .. for just 3 short days ago was her birthday and now its the anniversay of her death.. As things are happening with my parents heath.. I miss her so much more.. Lisa ... I love you... I know you are ok..but i just wish you were hear with us..
                So I implore you the next time you have a drink .. and u think its ok to still drive DONT... if not for any other reason .. Do it for Lisa... Love ya Lee..

                   

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                Happy Birthday to my Baby SIster.. Lisa La Dawn Stevens.. We Miss you..

                Current mood:peaceful

                Some say that she will be forever 18... but I can remember on 8-08-88 when she turned 11 how fun she that that was... Sitting here I cannot let the day pass without celebrating what she meant to me .. and how much i love her.. she would have been 31...that sounds so forgien to me.. I wonder if she would have been married with kids of her own by now.. i know that mine would be more spoiled than they are if she was stilll her.. I love you Lee.. and I will see you one day ...



                 
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                [OFFICIAL] Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Trailer



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                  Fun in the Sun with Kids and Family....

                  Current mood:adventurous
                  Today was a blast.. It was soo nice out.. the sun was out , the sky was bright and it was  warm , but not deathly HOT outside... So what did me and my girls do you ask? Well, Annie, Noah( her son) and Me and my girls, went out to Grayson Lake and swam today!! We had a Blast... Alana took time out of her busy internet schedule to spend it with dear ol Mom... an we just spent time together.. Right where we were swimiming at there was a playground there so when the kids got tired of swimming Alana took them to the playground..and Annie and I could still watch them from the water.. Alana could handle it on her own ..i know ..but it was a nice day..
                  We went back to Annie an Nickys an had dinner.. then Nicky built a nice pit fire.. we roast marshmellows and made smores ..The girls and Noah loved it.. I am soo tired.. Poor Noah wore himself out.. The girls were asking to spend the night.. but I had to be a mean mommy and bring them home with me because we have our church picnic tomorrow.. The Only thing that could have made the day any better was if Charles could have been there..but right now he is working Midnights.. so he needed his sleep.. and my poor baby has been really sick..so i am really sure he enjoyed his day of uninterrupted sleep.. and mom and Dad really need some peace and quiet since Daddy had his heart Cath yesterday...
                  Btw they said that Daddy has a 50% blockage in his heart but they are going to leave it alone for now..because it would do more damage if they bothered it too early... SO i havent a clue as to what is causing his problems right now..So just keep praying for us..
                  But for once today was nice.. even if I am still sick as a dog..


                   
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                  SOS...turns Choas an Tears into a Helping hand....

                  Current mood:listless
                  Which I will be forever grateful for!!! I pulled my back today lifting , trying to get the rest of that stuff out  of the old house, by myself, why you ask because my hubby was working.. which I'm glad he is working but it frustrates me to that he hasnt been able to help me .. I know he is sick right now and tired on top of it..but dang it plp.. I can only go so far.. any who..Alana is sick so that she can barely stand up, we are watching her for seizures,, because anytime she runs a fever... she can have them.. and we have been really lucky so far.. So its been up 2 me and Natasha and Sa-Rai.. those to argue more than they help..So as the tears run down my face, I can barely walk... because I've just thrown up ...all because i lifted a box ...i barely make it back home.. as i make it in the house .. i struggle to make it in the house without my parents to know how truly bad I'm hurting.. for I dont want to worry them.. Daddy is sick enough right now.. an the only person I can think of in this world to call to help me is Annie and Nicky...
                  Thank God
                  that she was there and a that she came right away to help me.. she was truly my angel today.. my salvation.. she lifted, carried. and worked her butt off without her i would have been so screwed ...i hope so knows how truly thankful i am to her ..works cannot express how much it means to me what she did for me to day.. Also just to let you guys know .. if i get a bit crazy next wk... my daddy goes in for a heart Cath on the 24 July at 8am depending on what they find is when and if he has to have another heart surgery so keep him in your prayers please..
                  Terra Valentine     sorry i couldnt of been of any help ...... hope to see you soon we need to get together and talk i miss you !!!                           
                  3 years ago


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                  • New.... Movie... which makes me wanna cry....

                    Current mood:gloomy
                    Ok... the reason behind Heath's Pic being my default pic .. is because since The Dark Knight is being released tonight..I felt it was only approraite that he should be remembered.. For he lovely man , father an friend that he was.. The world truly lost a beautiful light when he left... and even though I personally didnt get to know him I will forever miss him.. but I feel blessed by the laughter his movies brought to my life and the world in general.. For someone who only lived such a short time on this planet.. he will be greatly missed an forever loved..

                    On the brighter note.. if your reading this you will see that my layout has changed .. and theres something added to my blog.. What do you think?? Talk to me...
                  • Blessings....

                    Current mood:blessed
                    ok.. this is the easiest way I could think of to share my exciting news with you .. Charles Got the Job that we have been praying for November... So not only does he get to drive a truck which he loves..but he gets to be with his family... which he loves more... so thanks for all the prayers..
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                  • Moving Sale......

                    Current mood:anxious

                    Ok. Guys..  I am moving and having to Sale almost Everything in our house.. I cannot afford to put an ad in the paper so i thought this was a way to get the word out.. I will be at my old address tomorrow . .Come by and see if I have anything you need.. I will be there from 8 am till about 5pm.. friday and Saturday.. Come by an tell everyone you know too.. Thanks a bunch...

                    701 Franklin Ave
                    Raceland Ky 41169
                    Directions: If you are on US 23 go to the light at 23 .. and Super Quick.. Turn left on to Pond Run its first road on the left and the Second house ( Red Brick House, Right across the street from the First Baptist Church and DayCare..)
                  • Update.. From the Robinette Household

                    Current mood:betrayed
                    I know some of you have been reading our page and silently saying to yourselfs.. WTF!?!?!?!?!? Is going on with her... Well we have been going through alot of changes as of lately.. So its high time I set down with pen to paper... and write it out.. ( or actually with my laptop)...
                    In March  Charles and I agreed to let a friend move in due to her family going to Hell.. I also went to Alabama with her at the beginning of May.. Well in coming back from Alabama my mom called to say the Doctors are having really negitive reports about my father.. For all of you who actually know me. My younger and only sister was killed in a Drinking an Driving accident on the 11th August 1995. Before that wreck happened in the late 80's early 90's my dad was hurt from a work related accident that has caused a lot of brain damage.. to get to the point .. from that damage and his heart they want him in a wheelchair full time.
                    After much prayer and talking Charles agreed with me to move are family in there to help them out.. So we are in the process of doing that.. Right now due to our own fincial sitution our cell phones are turned off and it is driving me crazy.. But Charles is still looking for work..Right now I have been hurt once again... and feel used once again.. So I have made some choices latley that I feel is right..Some may get hurt by it.. but I do things I feel is right ,, and it was done out of love.. So love me or hate me I dont really care that choice is up to you.. But before you judge me .. walk a mile in my shoes..
                  • Coming up this Saturday...

                    Current mood:ecstatic
                    Charles, Natasha, Sa-Rai and I will be baptized at 6pm at
                    The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints..in Russell Ky...
                    You guys should come out and join us...
                    1001 Kenwood Dr
                    RUSSELL , KY 41169

                  • Memorial Day...Warning....

                    Current mood:pissed off
                    I have posted have some new pictures in my photos that some of you my find depressing or really morbid...  I just wanted to warn you . I personally do not find this as depressing or even morbid. I find this as a way to honor those  that  are no longer physically with us.. So if you decide to open up the album the choice is yours ...
                  • Changes!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??

                    Theres been a lot of crazy Changes around here.. and there seems to be alot more coming around the bend.. The Good Lord Knows I HATE Suprises.. but there seems to be a lot coming my way!! I thank God daily for my friends.. for the peace that I get from them .. from the support that they give to me..
                    On the upside.. i had an wonderful visit from a dear friend today.. its been a couple of months since i had last seen him so it was soo nice to sit down and talk.. I only wish i was able to spend more time with him.. but i thank God for the time i had.. it was unexpected . but i feel blessed..
                    Hey I enjoyed talking to a dear friend on the phone this evening.. yeah my teacher .. you and your hubby are gonna hafta come over.. LOL .. and I'll make charles make a cheese cake.. .. but it was nice to talk to you.. thank goodness.. for the priesthood.. and the temple..
                  • Upadate from Alana’s Party!

                    Current mood:blissful
                    It seems like Saturday morning while the house is quiet, and asleep I can acually sit down with my laptop and post a new blog.. I just wanted to say "Thanks!" to all of you who took time out of your busy schedule to come an wish Alana a Happy birthday! I know life gets in the way an every body is busy that we understand if you couldnt be here..
                    I would like to take the time to especially give a huge  HUG of love and thanks to Barb and Jeff, for you will never truly know what it meant to Alana to be able to see and spend time with you and her sisters.
                    I would also like to give a huge HUG to Crys an Jason Hatten, who spent 19 hours total of their kid free weekend making , and decorating Alana's Harry Potter Hogwarts Castle, not counting the additional time and effort it took to transport an lift that thing over here.. We love and appreaciate you more than words could ever say
                    I would also like to give a personal hug in there to Cathy (Cat-bird) Clark Greene , who came in and visited. You made not only my mother and father's day but mine too.. They  talked about it ever since, just dont be such a stranger.. i loved having you here..
                    And of course , Mom and Dad (Stevens and Robinette),Annie (my faithful photographer), Noah, Lynda,  Brianna,an Nate. The Sister Missionaries stopped in.. and Alana's best friend  Tonya we cant forget her...
                    To say Thank You , will never be enough to show the act of kindness an love that you showed to my daughter...But I just needed to express the our abunance of love in my heart for each and every one of you!
                  • Monkeys (ALANA)Birthday Party is at One today

                    Current mood:indescribable
                    Not many more years will she actually allow me to have a birthday party for her.. Hell it was Hell on her getting this one... but we compromised!! Its her 16th birthday, Aunt Crys made her cake... and we have family over today at one...
                    Last Friday... the Night one her actually bday we her daddy and i and her friend went out for mexican , Rocky Horror!!! She had a blast... Then on Tues we, ( the same that celbrated her actual bday) went out for chiense and bday shopping...She Picked out a sweat shirt at HotTopic, a Harry Potter Armband (for thoses of you who will be here 2day she willl prolly have it one.. she swears she will never take it off!!! ) and ofcourse there will be plenty of pics!!then we went to Starbucks afterwards!!!
                    I dont know where the time has went ... i dont know where my beautiful little baby is .. but i love the woman she is becoming... I am so proud of her.. a long time ago My daddy looked at me and said, I dont know who is raising who,, and looking back he was right.. i was 17 the day she was born .. and i firmly believe that it takes a village to raise a child.. for i would have been lost without the love and support without my family..I wish Lisa, Mom and Dad Gibb, Granny Short who worshiped the ground Alana walked on could see her now.. but i have to believe that they do... ok before i go on an emotional tear filled rant I am closing out..
                    Partys at one ...come if you can... Rata. .if you get lost you have my number.. if not you dont need it .. lol.. .just Im me and Ill give it to you..
                  • tired of it!

                    tired of the bullshit and drama that seems too have been revolving around my life! ! get 2 steps ahead an something slams me back aleast 4 ! Friends are plunging swords in my spine deeper and deeper; thank God I have a few willing 2 circle around me !Charles an I are in a great place! I love him 2 the depths of my heart an soul; more importantly I know he loves an cherish's me 2! I thank God daily for Crys an Annie they are my friends I know I jave many more who make this insane world sane! :-D I <3 u all u="">
                  • Alana’s 16th bday

                    Current mood:blessed
                    On March the 28th at 9:58 am Alana was born 16 years ago... where the hell has all the time went? It doesnt seem like its been that long ago since my beautiful baby was born, yet now she is now a beautiful woman!
                    She is turning into such a beautiful woman with a mind of her own, she has had many ups and downs lately with her own health issuse but she has come back fighting!! I just wanted to sit down for a minute to let the world now how proud I am of my beautiful baby girl, yes i know shes not a baby anymore..but damn you can blame me for tryin..

                  hurt and through hell

                  Current mood:pugnacious
                  It really hurts that we you have DONE NOTHING to your friends except to try to be there and support them that they stab you in the back.. WTF .. i mean this has happend to me twice in the last year .. with two friends that i have gone through hell and back and i would have done anything in the world for them.. oh well i guess in the end my friendship didnt mean as much as they said it did
                  I was in not able to make the test due to having a severe complex migraine attack , Sunday .. I took medication trying to get over it. but nothing worked ,, I ended up in the ER for over 14 hours with blurred vision, chest pains and the thoughts of my brain exploding.. With the complex migraines a stroke is always the number one risk..  Then we I started having the chest pains .. I felt my health was just to great to compromise.. I have a doctors excuse but until Wednesday due to the fact that my electrolytes are all out of wacky, which was according to the doctor what was causing the chest pains..
                  They put me on some high patience antibiotics due the infection that they found in my sinus which they believe could cause the imbalance and help with the pain... added to the migraine..

                  I know that you didn't need a complete medical rundown of the last several days and i dont feel like going in to anymore.. i guess maybe where i feel so bad an have been going through so much this betrayal hurts more than it should .. for i am weak now..but never fear i will get stronger

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                  Monday, September 19, 2011

                  A brand New World..

                  Since Im having major issuse with this blog Ive changed .. Follow me here please.. .


                  http://ratarobinette.wordpress.com/2011/09/19/hello-world/

                  Saturday, September 17, 2011

                  A Open Letter to Myself

                        Sometimes when I sit down to read a blog, I wonder to myself is this their authentic voice coming through the pages or are they just pretending to get a "huge Following".. Well for those of you who read this, if its anyone besides my friends, within theses pages you will find me ..
                           If you look behind the screen you will find a (almost) 37yrold wife to my wonderful husband who isn't afraid to work for his family, Mother of the most  amazing young Women that you will ever have the chance to meet.. It breaks my heart that they are growing up so fast , I sit back an wonder where my babies went too.. It seems just like yesterday I was juggling  kids in the Primary school , a toddler and one on the way.. The days of sleepless nights, bottles, diapers and homework seem so far away.. But what I miss is having all my babies together and their cuddles... When I could take them into my arms and with a kiss an hug make the world right for them once again.. That the biggest pain they would ever face could be magically fixed with hugs&kisses.. Granted my life hasn't been full of rainbows and kittens.. There was a lot of pain, stress and trials to get me to where I am in my life. But there was also love for every pain, joy for every trial an peace for every moment of stress..

                            For I am a Convert to "The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints", yes I meet a 19 year old boy who changed my life forever..Who changed my family forever, for he gave me the most precious gift I could ever receive...He taught me how my family can be Eternal, how death doesn't have to separate us..He taught me that Heavenly Father loves all this children , no matter how bad we screw up.That if we have a contrite heart, ask forgiveness for my sins that the ATONEMENT is there for me ..No matter what.. There has been many missionaries come and go in my life since that fateful October day in 2008, but I still Remain close to handful of them.. I am proud to call them my family, and yes I miss them so much ..There are days that these very special souls are on my speed dial, an they always listen to me no matter how crazy I sound..Being a  convert means that I speak another language from the rest of my family and friends.. An on the days that I long for a good gospel discussion *Yes Britt.. its you Im talking about ** I know who to call.. An just talk it out without having to give a defination for every other word out of my mouth. .LOL.. :OP

                  For Some reason ,which I have no clue why , Heavenly Father made me with a smart mouth that has no filter.. So whatever Im thinking usually comes straight out my mouth..*not a good thing if you ticked me off LOL* Also I hate Changes, I hate letting people get close to me because I fear rejection or losing them..But on the upside if I love you .. I will love you forever ,no matter what .. I am a friend that you can call at 3am because I m still awake.. I may not have lots of money but I will give any help I can to anyone ( an that usually comes back to bite me but oh well!!)
                       I am a daughter to my "origanl" parents (thats a reference from my SIster Lisa) . I have two brothers whom I love with all my heart , they may not be blood but they are from my heart so that is where it counts.. Just because you have the same blood running through your viens it doesnt make you family.. Fammily comes from our heart, your soul the connection that you feel with another.. I have another set of parents watching over me from Heaven , my baby sister is with them.. But Heavenly Father has sent me more sisters to help me get through this earth, Tara (Twit), Terra (Tigger),Ms Ash...*oh how I miss you Arizona), Ms Mollie*I need some cuddle time with your cuddle bug* ,Sweet dear Kenzie, an last but Never least my Britt * I miss our gospel conversations.. I miss you**The sad part about this list is that all of them but one live on the other coast.. Oh how I miss you.. Then I have the most amazing brother / Sister in laws that a girl could ever ask for.. You know the ones that you can run to with tears streaming down our face ,an they make it ok.. or how they stand by your side even when your marriage was falling apart at the seems.. I can never do enough to show them my love an gratiude..

                     When people ask me about my Testimony I tell them I am a work in progress because I firmily beleive i will not be done learning, growing or changing until after I take my last breath here .. and not even when I take my first breathe across the veil.. I am not perfect just striving hard daily to be found worthy to return back to my father in heaven.. To be the daughter that would make him proud. to be the mother to the chidren that he blessed me with, to all be reunited in Heaven one day..

                   Well enough of my rants I will be closing for now.. Until next time...



                      
                      

                  Thursday, September 15, 2011

                  Updates in the Choas that I call my life..

                         Ok in the month that I have last updated  a LOT has been going on in this crazy life I call mine.. I love my girls but our days have been filled with moving boxes, home work , band activites and running to an fro... Life is now fillled with Seminary Mornings, rushing them to the High School soon after..then picking them up in the evenings with band.. then band competions on the weekends..

                       In the days of endless running and choas I miss my babies running around the house filling it with toys and chatter.. but I am also excited to be in this stage of my life. To be the Woman that Heavenly Father created me to be. To be the best wife and mother I can be.. to be the best sister ,  and friend ...

                      Even though Heavenly Father took my only sister home to be with him 16yrs ago , he has giving me Many to hold my hand, to pray with me , or just to put up with my crazy rants.. An I love each and every one of them.. Yes, Tara Lynn , Terra Beth, Mollie, Ashley Hovick- LeMieux, an last but never least Mackenzie Meyer-Taylor.. I love you crazy women with all m heart , and soul.. You each have been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on, a friend to lift me up in prayer when I couldnt see for the darkness that surronded me.. Your apart of my family, my heart an will forever be..

                      SO all my bright beautiful Sisters when you will you please come home and visit me.. These long-distance is killing me.. Your East Coast family needs you, to hug you and to love you.. No pressure though, i know all about lives, jobs , kids an Money.. Just know that your never alone and Im always here just a phone call or txt away...  

                  Tuesday, August 16, 2011

                  Ashley…

                  Sitting here at KDMC with Ash.. She has been through hell and back in the last two weeks.. First of all she developed an abscess, which I am no stranger too.. It was caused by her sugars being too high..Then after the surgery to remove the infection in he abscess she developed the Flesh Eating Bacteria Virus on top of septic..

                  I know that without the blessing she was given by our full-time missionaries that we have currently serving in our ward. I know without a shadow of a doubt she was closer to the veil than she was here.. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for restoring the Priesthood power to the Earth..

                  Now she has two blood clots in her right arm, an one in left arm.. She is also in the beginning stages of kidney failure. But I know through the power of prayer and the loving grace of our Heavenly Father He can bring her through this and anything else in her way from a full recovery..

                  So right now I am currently taking the Night shift at the hospital so her Mom and Dad can sleep.. Her other family members can take the time during the day.. I am not complaining a bit, I love her so much .. I can remember her being a baby sitting on Mom Gibbs knee.. Hearing her say “Run Petey Run..” oh .. how the memories have flooded my mind of Mom and Dad Gibbs as of lately.. I wish  I could hear their precious voices once again..But on the other hand I am so glad they are not here watching their granddaughter go through this hell .. So as I close with a final thought I am asking you to pray for my niece… Whether you believe in a higher power or not.. she can use all the prayers , love and positive support her way..

                  Tuesday, August 9, 2011

                  Another School Year…

                  Oh my in less than 24 hours my babies will be officially high school students..Where has the time gone, it feels like yesterday that they were toddlers running around my feet.. now they are beautiful independent women..

                  As of in the morning I will have a sophomore and a freshman at RUSSELL HIGH SCHOOL.. oh my oh my I  am feeling rather old today.. Well the back packs are bought, filled with school supplies(papers and pens) , their shoes are bought..now its time to find that “right” outfit to wear.. then off to school in the am..

                  Monday, August 8, 2011

                  Happy Birthday Baby Sister..

                  198699_2106582277723_1640539472_2075004_4018772_nToday you were born upon this earth, you were truly and angel that existed on this earth for the brief years you graced us with your love and presence. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back and talk to with you for I would never want to bring you here for where you are you are truly free in the presence of our Heavenly Father.. I wish I could hear your sweet laughter once again but I know I will one day.. and on that day that we are reunited we will never have to part again. I know your watching over me and my girls from the beautiful skies above.

                  I can still remember seeing your beautiful smile in September when I was in a coma. I felt no fear just love, peace and acceptance. I so wanted to just to be able to hold you in my arms once again , but you stopped me that’s when I remembered my beautiful girls . .. and what my loss would mean to them.. I thank you for that.. for without them I don’t know where I would be..

                  Baby Sister I just want you to know how much I love you.. I know if you were still with us you would have a been a very distinguished doctor prolly with a million babies running around.. So many people are still stuck in 1995 with you , your so loved and missed.. Danny and Amy became medical professionals because of you.. Because of you Nancy was able to move on find love, and become such and amazing artists.. Your friends that have children now take them to meet you to tell them WHY not to drink an drive.. Oh My if you could see Alana Gail now, shes not a baby anymore but a beautiful amazing woman… Oh how much I love an miss you sissy.. This is not a goodbye its until I'm226836_1837518911307_1640539472_1789735_5527302_n with you again..

                  Friday, July 22, 2011

                  Unexpected Blessings..

                  There has been many many unexpected blessings come our way in the last two wks.. Heavenly Father is answering many prayers that have long been praying.. I know the scriptures say that “Heavenly Father will only answer prayers that are for our benefit ,”but sometimes its so hard to hang on when your praying and you see nothing Change..


                   

                  I am not going into the Changes right now, I am requesting that you guys still pray for me because its not over yet..But this battle that I have been struggling with for far too long is almost over.. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and it feels when I was in coma full of love, peace and just blessings..

                  Friday, July 1, 2011

                  Moving…

                  Seeing your life hauled into contents of boxes, stirs up emotions an sometimes memories.. I hate moving , I hate trying to plan what usually becomes utter chaos. because no matter how many boxes you have , you will always need more.. An I don’t know why but in my household something always ends up broke. Whether it be a picture frame, or something as big  as a latch on an appliance.

                  As I am surrounded by what feels like a million boxes, there are easily a million memories that go with each box.. Sometimes its as easy a card that I had received in the mail, “ you know the kind Im just thinking of you today” or a report card from a long ago year..
                  Like with each passing of the school year that is a milestone that will never be crossed again. As I long for stability in my children’s life. I know the most important things is NOT where we live but how we live.. Its more important that we are all together, united as one household*One Family* jn stead of living separate worlds.. *Yes I do realize the Journey Reference, even though its after 5am I'm awake enough to catch a good song.. *

                  On a much happier note I was able to purchase tickets for the midnight premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part2 ….In 3D ….with line skip…  I know might not seem that exciting to you guys out there but the last time Alana and I saw Harry Potter in 3D*even though it as on IMax* was because she was soo sick in Children's in Cincinnati .. an that movie was Goblet of Fire… so that tells you something right.. I know we will need about a billion boxes of tissues but I think the 3D effect will make you feel apart of the battle which is what happens when you read anyway.. An yet that is and end of an Era,,

                  Thursday, June 23, 2011

                  Life is a great circle full of movement , and Road blocks..

                  While visiting a dear friend of mine this past week I noticed stenciled on her wall, FAMILY , A JOURNEY TO ENTERITY.. *or something to that affect for I was quite emotional * ..

                  Well any who that has gotten this mind of my whirling.. For I am one of those that personally believe that we lived in Heaven before we came down here to take upon this mortal body.. And before I start rambling into Primary Songs, I know that live is hard , its full of roadblocks, heck even our own personal Hurricanes and tornado's .. We may not be affected by them physically but we can be emotionally, mentally or even spiritually..  I think the ones that know me best, know I have been in the middle of my own Spiritual hurricane.. An I like anyone who has ever survived a hurricane knows I battened down the hatches around my heart, my home , my family..

                  I have never been on to be an open book to others, to be able to ask for support if I truly needed or even let people know I was drowning.. My life has been full of love, laughter and even devastation, There has been many things that I have overcame , that would have killed a lesser woman.. I am not being boastful or arrogant .. I am just simply stating the things that I have overcame in this lifetime would warp your mind if you allowed it.. But once I had my beautiful daughter my survival became for most in my life, for I had to survive to take care of her.. She was my world, my very reason or existing.. All three of my children are, even when they’re trying my patience and turning me grey.. 

                  Looking over the last 4 years of my life there has been many changes, many ups and downs. Some of them blow my mind or I couldn’t imagine how empty my life, and my family would have been without some of these blessings… How people I didn’t know Four years ago , I would lay my life down for now if they needed it.. I am thankful for the love and support you all have shown me, an brand new world I never knew existed.. For when you say your love someone they actually mean it.. For people showing they love ,support me without wanting to hurt me or something first for them selves.

                  Granted I would love to take away some of the challenges that we have had , and continue to have but one thing I've learned is that even when we are walking into our own personal “living nightmare or hellish existence” Heavenly Father is always there with us loving us and wanting us to turn to him.. Sometimes when we pray its not that he’s not listening .. its just that the answer is not for our benefit so that’s why we are getting silence. . He loves us so much an only wants things for our benefit.. I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who is bedside me each step of the way on this side of mortality and waiting for me on the other side of immortality For when this race is finished I know that my home will be with my loved ones.. I am so Thankful that I know that Families are Forever.. .

                  Monday, June 20, 2011

                  Changes an Self Reflection

                  I am not the biggest fan of Changes, whether those changes are good for me or bad.. I have such a hard time letting people in and get close to me , for my biggest fear is rejection. Of loving someone and not being loved in returned. So If you have breached the wall that I have been around myself “Congratulations” because its not easy but yet its not something I can change.

                  One of my greatest quirks about myself that I am starting to find as one of my greatest strengths … Is that I tell you exactly what I am thinking.. an Feeling (most of the time LOL) the feeling part is still a great work in progress.. I am so tired of all the people whom seem to think that your life is their business, and if you don’t let them into your life they just make up an spread lies about you anyway.. I’ve been out of High School an long time now and yet some people never out grow that mentality of “Clicks” or destroying other people with their mouths. I am usually very tolerant of their stupidity but once they drag my children or family into their drama I See “RED” and all complete rational thought go out of my brain an my mouth goes into over-drive .. Yes I do see that as a flaw and I am currently working on the problem..

                  Life is crazy hard enough without other people trying to drag other people down.. So please encourage, love other people and like your mother told you ( or if she didn’t I will ) if you have NOTHING good to say then Say NOTHING at all. You don’t know what other people are experiencing in their lives, you don’t know their heartaches, stress or even medical problems .. so learn to leave your comments to yourself unless its full of love an appreciation for life is too short for all the DRAMA!!!

                  Tuesday, May 31, 2011

                  Reflecting on Summers past…

                  Summer has arrived in full force here in Kentucky and one of the things that I hate about summer is not the heat but the humidity..  According to my trusty Weather Channel App its 90 degrees outside but feels like 96 degrees UV index is HIGH …and this is only the last day of May.. I have a feeling we are in for another hellish summer.. Well tonight is Graduation Night in Ashland, my girls have to play in the band for graduation. Luckily or not for them it will be outside in the stadium, it’s a first experience for them. . I bet by the end of the evening they will be happy to have that breeze blowing on them from the wind instead of being shoved into a hot stuffy gym with no air flow..

                  Today is the last day of middle school for my youngest.. Lord I am feeling old right now.. But my Tomboy will officially be in high school..Time flies by …even though I have been with them during each of these steps it sometimes I feel as if I am watching from the outside.. I can remember holding each of these precious lives in my arms, how small and tiny they were.. How it felt as if the pregnancy was going to last a life time now I am reflecting back about how fast it went. Now time is at hand to enjoy each moment for they are fleeting.. it will not be much longer that they will want to hang out and watch a movie with dear old Mom and Dad.. I can say that Harry Potter Deathly Hallows Part2 is on the agenda for the Midnight Premiere for this family..what about you?? What are you plans for the summer lets me know… lets try to help each other out with ideas for I do know when I start hearing …”Mom I’m Bored” I tend to loose all thoughts out of my brain..

                  Sunday, May 29, 2011

                  Summer Trippin 2011

                  The very first weekend of Summer 2011, we started off at a Splash Park in Ironton Ohio. This is a new feature to our city, something for the kids to do and best of all its FREE.. WIth the state of the current economy I am sure I am not the only one looking for things fun to do with your families that doesnt cost a small fortune..
                  For the very first time in weeks we had nothing but lots of Sunshine, warm breeze a blowing through the trees,so it was decided FAMILY TIME .. Since we have a small car at this current time , I decided to take two trips to get everyone there legally.. The first one I took my hubby and our youngest to the Splash Park, allowing them to stake out the most perfect place.. While my older two kids went to pick up one of thier friends and the most perfect lunch awaits us, Zanzais Pizza  (http://www.zanzis.com/ZanzisMenu.htm) .. So after we picked up Natasha's friend Sunshine, I called in our order... Yummy , Sausage Pizza with and without Mushrooms, Barbaque Chicken Pizza and Cheese pizza for the little ones.. My best friend Terra , Amber (her sister) an her babies meet us at the water park as soon as they finished thier soccer games.
                  It was so much splashing around in the water, with the kids ..Watching Levi try to destroy the water as it jets out of the ground..an just hanging out and being a family.. I have always said that family is not defined by the blood that runs through your veins but your heart.. An I love those babies as much as I love my own.. Now since school doesnt offically end until Tuesday for us I wonder where the summer will find us.. Since I do believe that this was an excellent start.. So for you my wonderful readers.. tell me what your summer plans are, fill me in on your ideas for fun filled times that doesnt cost alot.. Lets try to make Summer 2011 the best one yet.. and most importantly not go in debt doing it.. LOVE to you all until the next time I sit down in front of this key board reaching out to you..

                  Monday, May 23, 2011

                  Cinderella.... The Transformation of a Tomboy into My Princess...

                  Sa-Rai was involved in a school Play called Cinderella, she loves acting and wants to become and actor.. So this is her journey into a bright new world, that for my shy child has became a revelation of hidden talent and strength. For you see ,Sa-Rai has been my tomboy since life was breathed into her soul. Even though as her mother I loved having the long cascading curls down her back, she would run into my arms going " Pull it up Momma, pull it into a ponytail, an get it out of my way.. " That was even at a year old, she was the one running around with bib overalls on, bare feet, chasing cars around the house an watching "Bob the Builder" ... 
                  Sa-Rai has never fit into a mold, or conformed to anything other than she thought she ought to be , being the youngest of my children, she has always been the "baby" .. Doing exactly anything that she deemed interesting .. She loves to draw, read comic books, play video games and hang out with her best friends. Not shopping at the malls,or chasing after boys.. She is my girl that I can find exploring out in the woods, or in front of the computer chatting with her best friends.. 
                  She was bitten by the acting bug a while ago, but not knowing exactly where to go or what to do.. It has taken her a while to proceed .. When her middle school had try-outs for their play "Cinderella" she wanted to try out.. With try-outs, a dentition came, and thus she was added to the cast Ensemble...They (the Cast) practice every day after school until 5- 5:30 pm thus making a long day.. As the play grew closer they practiced until 8.. I can tell you know that the play was scheduled the last full week school was ending.. 
                  There was many first in this play for Sa-Rai, first time she would be singing in front of a live audience, first time she would be wearing makeup, and curling her hair,the first time she would be sharing her talented self with the world .. Aw my baby has surely grown up, and is no longer that little Tomboy I see in my mind.. The confidence of being able to put on a full length formal gown and be comfortable in it, came froMollie Mayfield Pettingill... who taught Sa-Rai that she can still have fun, be herself even if she is in a dress..
                  I am so blessed to have the beautiful young women I have , even though in my heart and soul they are still my beautiful babies..  I am blessed to have the friends that I have , for I would be lost without them.. I have often said it "takes a village to raise a child' and i firmly believe that . for each person that comes into our lives leaves an imprint on our soul, and heart.. so with this I leave a final closing.. I am so proud to be a mother to my Three beautiful angels, I am proud of Sa-Rai for all she has accomplished in her 13 years that she has been on this earth and all she is going to accomplish( the child who was never suppose to live) and proud to have the friends and family I have without you I would not be half the woman, mother that I am.. Thanks for being there for me and my family.. 

                  Monday, May 9, 2011

                  Mother's Day

                  My Mother's Gift
                  Well as you can see , Im starting my blog off with my present to my Mother. A photo collage of her children and grandchildren. I am the type of person that likes to make things for people because to me it comes from the heart, a lot of thought, time and engery goes into the gift.. Not just walking into Walmart an picking up the first thing that you run into .. I love photographs for they are truly a moment captured in time, a moment that I can never get back again . How my beautiful babies have grown into beautiful young women, I am so proud of them. Well for a run-down of my Mother's Day... I went to Church with my family, stopped in to my Moms and Mom(inlaw) and gave them my presents from us. I am the crafty one of my family so the gifts are a joint gift from me , my brother , sister in law brother in law and all the grandkids on both sides of the family.. Came home and made my Tacos for dinner, why you ask because  I wanted them.. Had a amazing dinner with my brother and family.. I love nights like this when the house is full of laughter and family. Then Charles an I settled into our kingsize bed to watch our Tv shows... Then my other *kids* called home, I loved hearing thier beautiful voices and listen to the exictment of wedding plans.. (Yes world I am talking about Jeff and his beautiful Mackenzie) I love these people with all of my heart. .

                  My Mother(inlaws) Gift
                  Do you have to give birth to be a mother? In my honest heartfelt opionion no. There has been many great women in my life that has helped shaped me into the wife, and mother that I am. I would not be half the person I am today without them. I love my mother-in law , she has always been a friend to me, my Great- Aunt Frankie was a mother figure in my life , an  I miss her everyday.. And I have had the privlage and even heart ache of loving children that I didnt give birth too. There are many special ones in my life an I would not trade anything for them, for them adding beauty and love to my life.I love my Returned Missionaries they are family to me, they brought so much love, joy into my life and family.. I dont know what or where  I would be without them. I love my church family, even though we all have our ups and downs there is unconditional love there.. So I want to leave you all with a poem that I found and it touched my heart.. An  I actually included this poem on the back of the Photos I made..

                  A mother heart is purely guided
                  As she senses her identity
                  She then becomes further ignited
                  Through her natural ability
                  How is a mother heart acquired?
                  But, through a gospel education
                  With strength and honor, she's attired
                  To strive without equivocation
                  Her tongue speaks the law of kindness
                  As she opens her mouth with wisdom
                  She eats not the bread of idleness
                  As she labors amongst God's kingdom
                  Her hands stretch out unto the poor
                  To willingly feed from her store
                  She looks well to her household duties
                  And her price is far above rubies
                  Out of small things proceedeth much verve
                  And, for her family, she delights to serve
                  Who is a mother heart? Why, it is us!
                  Before earth we shouted for joy at the trust
                  And we are here to attain earth life goals
                  By the side of righteous men each with their roles
                  Which neither can reach independently
                  To become endowed exponentially
                  Our work here is laying a great foundation
                  And obedience is part of this life's education
                  Those who're diligent will have much more advantage
                  As they take their considerable gifts and learn to manage
                  By developing a mother heart we prepare
                  To be blessed with a "quiver full" under our care
                  There is no limit then to what we can accomplish
                  To make the world a better place if we're conscientious
                  Julie B. Beck

                  A "Mother Heart"
                  Liahona, May 2004, 75
                  So until next time love each other, and be thankful to the women you have in your life because you are not promised tomorrow..

                  Wednesday, May 4, 2011

                  The Royal Wedding and other News worthy Headlines

                  Yes, I am one of those millons of Americans that anxiously sat in front of thier tv's to see the commoner become a Princess, thats every little girls dream right? I was of the generation that can remember watching Lady Diana marry Prince Charles, seeing Prince Willam grow up through photographs and even that horrible tradgey that took a mother away from her precious boys. As Alana and I watched the Wedding unfold on tv, the main thoughts that kept running through my mind was how much Prince William looks and acts like his mother, how much he must miss her and how much his wife would make his mother proud. Princess Diana never conformed to royal protocol and standards, She raised her boys to think about the world around them, taught them about true human suffering and to help the world around you. They have become better men for it, and now as William married for love, I know he made his mother proud.
                  For a mother is proud of her children no matter what they do. But there are days as a parent that you can do nothing right, when you feel like your kids are not listening to the messages that you try to instill in them.Then out of the blue they suprise you, they say or do something and your like....."wow" they really are listening. Ive taught my kids actions speak louder then words, and every action /choice you make in this life has a consquence whether in this life or the one that is to come you will have to face those consquences of your choice.
                  Just like the death of Bin Laden, an I so proud to live in a country that has freedom. I am so proud of my family/friends that are willing to lay thier lives down to insure that we are free everyday. I am proud of thier wives that go months to years at time keepin the home fires burning, and childrening growing up healthy and strong as thier Daddy fights in wars for our freedom. Words can never truly express the love and appreciaion I have for each member of our military.Just as the Germans learned with World War 1, Japanese learned in World War II, North Vietnam learned in "The Conflict" you may come an attack us, you may even knock the wind out of our sails but we will get back up and fight. American will attack and hit back harder than you could ever imagine, we will preserve freedoms even if lives are lost they are never forgot. I am so glad that we can finally close a horrible chapter in American History and may the families that were effected on September 11th 2001 finally have closure. May thier lives finally begin to heal, I know that when you loose someone you love you are never truly the same again but instead of sorrow an fear may they find peace. May the men an women fighting wars in countries all over the world finally be allowed to come home.

                  Tuesday, April 12, 2011

                  I saw a sign the other day..

                  I saw a church sign the other day that has me pondering on it for days.. Which is not that unsual for me an these signs.. But this one said, "its not where you come from but where you going that counts.." An I for one have to publicly disagree.. For  I believe that before I came to this world I lived with my Heavenly Father.. I choose to come to the earth to take upon this body, and then to do my best to return with honor to my Heavenly Father. .Even though life is full of struggles, joys and tempations I still believe its about Where I came from , what Im doing while Im here and how I return back to my creator..
                  Life is meant to be hard, to smooth the rough edges off us personally and spirtually.. But there are days that I feel like Im barely treading water.. People are more discouraging than incouraging..
                   The churches are full of people who are not there to worship the creator , and help thier fellow man to Heaven. But they are there to act like pre-schoolers and start the drama, add to the pain.. What is the point of going into a building to worship your creator if it takes more stress and strain out of you then staying at home.. Why should you have to build a wall aroound you just to "assoicate" with supposedly like mind indivuals? I know my Father in Heaven loves me , my family loves me and wants me to suceed everyone else can just kiss it. .an back off.. I'm tired of trying to hang on, on struggling to stand  on my own to feet especially when I just get knocked back down.. so its time to for me to let the stress and strain of worrying go.. and Rely on my Heavenly Father. .

                  Wednesday, April 6, 2011

                  Confusion

                  I am filled with confusion and heartbreak.. In times like these I pray for the strength to carry on.. Millions of things run through my mind.. I hate to hide behind pretenses but I'm tired of letting people in just to feel this pain.. To put the walls down, have my heart smashed into a million pieces. To hear your voice now its a million miles away.. it breaks my heart .. I dont know what I did to you, but know that no matter what I will always love you.. You are family, that will never change.. will  I let you in as close as you once were ...I dont know that answer questions ravage my mind like hidden daggers that attacks the very soul.. Who ever wrote the lines that Its better to have loved and lost....surely never  truly loved.. I love the experiance of having you in my life, I love the very being of your soul.. but I miss you.. I miss our things that we did together.. if you wouldve or could have let me in..then maybe I wouldnt feel this pain now. Maybe I would  feel like Ive done something horribly wrong.. Was I not good enough for the truth??? What went so wrong?? Could you just email me or let me know ..so the questions will stop swimming through my brain and soul.. so i can begin to heal and leave this place of pain and sorrow...

                  Monday, April 4, 2011

                  Heart Monitors and Iv Sticks

                  Heart monitors an Iv Sticks




                  I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me, my life,and my family .do I have all the answers: No..Am I scared.....More than I will ever publicly admitt too...

                  Yet the only Thing that runs through my mind right now is my Grandmothers favorite Scriptures," The Lord is my Shepherd ,I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters ..." so I know that matter how difficult life gets I will never have to walk it Alone.. for I will have my Heavenly Father looking out for me an my family walking by my side ..

                  Saturday, March 19, 2011

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                    Update on MOM

                    Current mood:worried
                    Mom is back in the hosptial and its not her heart this time. Her right leg is full of cellitis , and it has bubbles of infection on it which is staff infection .. which means the flesh eating diease is back after 5 yrs.. the last time that mom has this they wanted to amputate before they could get it under control.. this is a very dangerous illness. now with her heart probs im sure it complicates matters even more . .They decided to today to call in the Infections diease dr.. Dr Ganier.. so she is spending her birthday iin the hospital.. she has been thier since Friday.. and they have no clue when she will be released.. The good thing is that she recieved a Priesthood Blessing on Friday from Elders Niles and Golding.. Now all we can do is wait and pray.. .so please keep my family in your prayers

                    ☆ ASH TRAGEDY ☆     ive had cellulitis before and its definitely not fun. im sorry to hear about it and i hope all gets better soon. tell her i said hi and i hope she feels well and is back on  her feet in no time. <3 ya.
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                      Update of Sorts...

                      Current mood:contemplative

                      Hello , everyone.. I have been noticing that lately I have been getting a lot of request to approve comments bout drinking alcoholic beverages on my page. I am assuming that it is a new App, that I am unaware of .. Well I haven't been approving these comments. Before I hurt anyone's feelings, I felt that it was best that I should sit down with pen to paper and explain myself.. to you ... my friends..
                      As some of you who know Charles and I on a personal level, we started talking to some missionaries almost 2 yrs ago..  This past June we felt that it was right for us individually and for our family to become baptized in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints ( www.lds.org)
                      As a requirement for our baptism, and according to our Articles of Faith we no longer drink alcoholic  beverages, Charles quit smoking as of Mother's Day this year.. an many other great, amazing yet confusing changes have gone on in our lives.


                      THE ARTICLES OF FAITH
                      OF THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS

                      History of the Church, Vol. 4, pp. 535—541
                        1
                      We abelieve in bGod, the Eternal Father, and in His cSon, Jesus Christ, and in the dHoly Ghost.

                        2
                      We believe that men will be apunished for their bown sins, and not for Adam’s ctransgression.

                        3
                      We believe that through the aAtonement of Christ, all bmankind may be csaved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

                        4
                      We believe that the first principles and aordinances of the Gospel are: first, bFaith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, cRepentance; third, dBaptism by eimmersion for the fremission of sins; fourth, Laying on of ghands for the hgift of the Holy Ghost.

                        5
                      We believe that a man must be acalled of God, by bprophecy, and by the laying on of chands by those who are in dauthority, to epreach the Gospel and administer in the fordinances thereof.

                        6
                      We believe in the same aorganization that existed in the Primitive Church, namely, apostles, bprophets, cpastors, dteachers, eevangelists, and so forth.
                        7
                      We believe in the agift of btongues, cprophecy, drevelation, evisions, fhealing, ginterpretation of tongues, and so forth.
                        8
                      We believe the aBible to be the bword of God as far as it is translated ccorrectly; we also believe the dBook of Mormon to be the word of God.

                        9
                      We believe all that God has arevealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet breveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.

                        10
                      We believe in the literal agathering of Israel and in the restoration of the bTen Tribes; that cZion (the New Jerusalem) will be built upon the American continent; that Christ will dreign personally upon the earth; and, that the earth will be erenewed and receive its fparadisiacal gglory.

                        11
                      We claim the aprivilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the bdictates of our own cconscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them dworship how, where, or what they may.
                        12
                      We believe in being asubject to bkings, presidents, rulers, and magistrates, in cobeying, honoring, and sustaining the dlaw.
                        13
                      aWe believe in being bhonest, true, cchaste, dbenevolent, virtuous, and in doing egood to all men; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul—We believe all things, we fhope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to gendure all things.  If there is anything hvirtuous, ilovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.

                      We are not perfect, we are not any different that the people we use to be other than we are striving to live our lives from an eternal perspective now. I am not judging anyone, nor would I ever. Every one of you on my list I love with all of my heart and I pray that I dont lose your love and support. I just felt that if i didnt take the time to set down and atleast explain why I felt I couldnt post them, even though I know you mean no harm. I hope you dont take it personally and this doenst change your love for me.. All my love Rata 1:44 AM

                      Suzi Henderson     hey girl i knew you were going hru this and i hope you have found pease with this desision. i know i would and monte and i are back in church and closer then ever and he is being ordained and we have made a lot of changes also. love ya and call me sometime. give my love to the girls and charles.                          
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                      2 years ago
                      Suzi Henderson     monte and i have made alot of changes also. i am glad you have found hapiness. we have to. monte is going to be ordained soon and alot of things going on with the girls. call me sometime.                           
                      2 years ago

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                        New Pics

                        Current mood:creative
                        I have recently updated new pics of the girls, including when they were playing in the huge snow we had, Natasha at her first Valentine's day Dance, and her 13th bday..but for some unforeseen reason I couldnt get it 2 up load to MySpace.. So they are all on my Facebook.. I am currently on facebook more than ever.. Yes , I use MySpace only for my blogs... but if you just want to chat that is the place to catch me..

                        love you ...

                      Mom's in the hospital again....

                      Current mood:worried
                      On thursday she woke up having chest pains and pains in her arm, at 530 in the morning. She waited as stubborn as she is, for the doctors office to open at 9 before she did anything. They asked her to go to the hospital, she didnt go until 1100. Once we got there , they did the cardic enyzmes they were up the first time but the second time they were fine. the pain had left completly by then of course the nitro patch always helps lol...

                      anyway we've been admitted since thurday.. mom has experianced some neurological problems monday that were either caused by seizure, TIA, or strokes... we are now in the process of finding out what.. we have had a full battery of test 2day and even some last night but they are basically incluesive...

                      so keep us in your prayers.. an it looks like she will be in the hospital till monday..

                      Congrats to my Best friend an her Family..

                      Current mood:blessed
                      God is great... One of my best friends delievered her little boy last night , he weighed 6 lbs 5 1/2 oz and was 19 inches long.. She had some complications during the delivery but all is great with mommy and baby.. Her and her husband has two beautiful children after years of inferitilty .. God is great.. they were told they would never have any and they now have thier prince and princess.. She struggled to get him here but he is doing awesome now.. Welcome Levi Tate.. We all love you..


                      • Terra Valentine     AWWW YOUR SO VERY SWEET!!! i HAVENT BEEN ON HERE MUCH STILL ADJUSTTING TO BEING A MOM AGAIN AFTER 6 YEARS OF A VERY INDEPENDENT LITTLE GIRL BUT THINGS ARE GREAT... THIS PREGNANCY TAUGHT ME MORE THAN MOST WILL EVER KNOW... BUT THE IMPORTANT THING THAT IT TAUGHT ME WAS THAT I NEEDED TO TRUST GOD AND PUT MY WORRIES IN HIS HANDS BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT HE ALWAYS HAS THE BEST PLAN LAID OUT FOR US... AND EVERY TIME I LOOK INTO LEVI'S BEAUTIFUL FACE I AM REMINDED TO PUT MYSELF INTO GODS HANDS AND HE WILL TAKE CARE OF US!!!                           
                        1 year ago

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                        Checking My List....

                        Current mood:creative
                        Ok I am trying to get in the Christmas Mood.. (LoL) .. Its been really hard with me having recently been sick, with Mom having problems with her heart, and now Alana in seziure mode.. but Life does go on... So when Lisa died, Christmas Cards seem to do the trick.. I know most plp doesnt like them..So indulge me please.. If I dont have your address, birthdays.. (spouse children you.. you know the drill ) please send it to me..
                        I am a scrap book person by nature .. I love making things so please help me.. ok i love you guys.. Have a Merry Christmas .. An lets not stress about Jobs, money *or the lack of * an try to remember the TRUE reason why we celebrate this Season...

                        I love you guys each an everyone of you on here. Even If I dont say it.. Please remember that.. I dont have these pages to *collect * plp for status you are my friends or family.. I love you dearly.. Life is too short an we get caught up in trying to live it and not enjoy those around us..

                        Heavenly Father knows I learned that lesson 13 years ago, Merry Christmas Lisa, I love you my dear sister and I will see you one day...


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                        Updates an new info..

                        Current mood:sleepy
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                        everyone's been complaining to why i dont have a facebook so i thought  i would try it out .. add me.. tell me what you think... But i love myspace and im not getting rid of it..so u can still talk to me here..


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                        AMAZING.......

                        Current mood:rockin
                        That's about how I can sum up my night.. for one I finally was able to talk to my dear friend... Jeff.. I was so glad to hear from that boy.. I was beginning to think I was going to have to take a trip out to Washington State to hunt him down and whip him.. lol.. Im gonna call him back on Saturday so we can actually have a "sit down" and talk... this was more like Oh My!! how are you Ive missed you .. but he was working .. and I was driving down the highway to get my hubby from work... So its all good...
                        Then my Hubby, brother, niece , daughters , bestfriend an my daughters friend went to the midnight showing of TWLIGHT last night... Yes I know.. I encourage them.. But it was awesome.. they had a blast.. and they got up this morning on Cloud nine .. without complaint.. Still on thier Twlight High..lol.. We had 11 plp in our little group last night... Phoniex Theaters Sold out 3 different viewing rooms last night ..each room holds 250 plp per showing .. so at midnight that was a bunch of Twlight fans.. I bought our tickets 10 days earlier.. an they had already sold out of one theater (viewing room) right after I bought them.. An the movie actually sticks really close to the book.. thier is all kinds of book quotes in the movie.. I was throughly impressed with the movie..
                        So to say the least my night last night ROCKED!!!!!
                        3 years ago

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                          You know its been a Hard Wk...

                          Current mood:cold
                          When you past the song Lyrics that your keep on repeat in a blog so you can read them... Ive had this song on constant repeat this wk.. an its really helped me... Lord its only Tuesday.. Let's hope it get's easier..
                          Love and Prayers.. Rata..

                          East To West lyrics
                          Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
                          The chains of yesterday surround me
                          I yearn for peace and rest
                          I don't want to end up where You found me
                          And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
                          I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
                          And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
                          But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

                          Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
                          'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
                          In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
                          'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
                          From one scarred hand to the other

                          I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
                          Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
                          Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

                          I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
                          I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
                          I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
                          I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
                          You're holding on to me

                          Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
                          I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
                          In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
                          'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
                          From one scarred hand to the other
                          One scarred hand to the other
                          From one scarred hand to the other

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                          Have you ever looked into another....

                          Current mood:sad
                          Person's eyes and stared into thier souls.. Ive heard that our lifetime on this earth is just a breath in Heaven.. My so... Maybe my sister has sent me some angel's during this last yr.... I know now.. that in the Pre- existance we all choose to come down here to this world.. to have these experiances ... no matter what they are so we can return to our Heavenly Father...
                          For without sadness you can not truly know joy.. without Pain .. you cannot truly know love.. But there has been many times in my life where I have truly felt that I have felt more Sadness than Joy... more Pain than love... But I have honestly always been a firm believer that we go through things in our lives for  a reason.. We may not know them at that excat moment.. but there will be a moment in time where we will look back and go .. oh ... yeah... i understand now..
                          I also firmly believe that we have people in our lives for a reason.. that friends are in our lives for a purpose.. we may never truly know that purpose but lets never try to ignore any one in our life , or let each new wonderful possiblity esacpe us because we are too busy letting our daily lives pass us by...  This pass year has taught me a beautiful lesson in Friendship and Family.. and how quickly time can pass you by..
                          How a innocent knock at your door , that you think will not matter in the great scheme of things turns out to be a friendship that will last you a lifetime.. Or that innocent fresh face boy of 19.. who will forever be apart of our family to the day I die .. I love him as if I have known him a lifetime ... instead of a yr.. The words fault me as I try to describe for you the emotions as I feel runs through me ... when i can close my eyes and see my dear Sister Jones and Elder Taylor teasing each other beyond belief...(those too acted like brother and sisters..) Tears spring into my eyes as I think of the the "knighting" ceremony between the Elders that Christmas with Crys, Jason, Charles, I and all the Hell-dren... An the Epic throwing events between Sisters.. in my livingroom in Raceland.. The girls still practice.. These are the memories that I miss.. the snipets of time.. where my friends where still within reach.. but no matter where your at Washington, Utah, Arizona, or God sends you know that I love you dearly.. and I am praying for the day that we all can be together again...
                          Until that day.. Stay Safe my friends... All my love and Prayers...

                          3 years ago


                            angela green     Aww Rata that was beautiful!!!I love you.                                 Sister Green                           
                            3 years ago

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                              Craig Penrose... God.. I wish...

                              Current mood:infuriated
                              Enough said with my icon .. for those of you have had the mistake of knowing Craig.. he's has complety disappered off the face of the earth, leaving all is children behind .. which now is 4.. and he is still screwing with them... why cant he just go away an stay away like a bad freaking dream... you know the kind you wake up from.. its been 17 yrs and im still not wake .. i love my daughter and i would never change her.. but DAMN to i wish HE wasnt her sperm donor... that is all he is..for a FATHER never walks away..and never leaves thier kids.. he never puts hes needs aboves his childrens.. why is my daugher at 16 more mature then he will ever be?


                              3 years ago

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                                ok for some STUPID REASON...

                                Current mood:pissed off
                                i cannot access my email.. so will everyone please take the time to email me .. at myforeverfamily@gmail.com ... so i can have thier email address.. sorry...

                                love you guys...
                                Rata...

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                                I am a dork....

                                Current mood:overstimulated
                                Ok, just for the record.. I am a dork.. I was cooking dinner for a dear friend of mine.. and trying to help the girls with thier homework... (Which for the record is something I have done a billon times before) and ... wouldnt you know it.. I end up cutting my fracking finger.. not once twice.. Well for those of you who dont know me I have neropathy .. so i have nerve damage... in my hands.. so when i felt pain in my hand and then saw the blood i knew it was bad...
                                Plus the fact that I was really sick to my stomache immeditelay... But my lovely hubby said i was ok.. it didnt need stitches.. well thank god he doesnt have a medical degree..lol.. cause he was wrong.. i have two in my finger.. My niece was nice enough to come and drive me.. i felt so stupid for askin her..but i was afraid if they had to give me stitches .. and shots i wouldnt be able to drive..
                                Plus the girls were at church, Charles had to be at work at 8... it was bad.. Thanks to Angie Blake for saving my butt and bringing the girls home from church because by the time the kids would have gotten home i dont know what i would have done.. it really was hurting ... it still is.. I am still sick to my stomach I hope that goes away soon.. but the Dr said it will hurt like the devil for a while...Just great... plus with me being a diabetic .. i am a slow healer..
                                ok enough whinning i am going to try to go to bed.. nite to all... i just hope to feel better in the morning..


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                                hey guys. whats everyone up to?

                                Current mood:blissful
                                School is in session here.. and the Girls are in Happy with Russell.. they were excited about going back this year.. it was good to get them out of Raceland.. They was way to many bad feelings there especially since they wouldnt help me with and IEP for Alana yet within 2 days of her being at Russell last yr she had one... The girls are doing well ..
                                Sa-Rai had her bottom braces on right before school started.. poor baby... she couldnt eat for days... but atleast we will get her teeth fixed at it all will be good.. Alana is upset that Harry Potter 6 is coming out Next summer instead of November..but shes way excited that her Twlight Movie is taking its place...so atleast she will have something to put in its spot her favorite classes are Psychology and Latin 2... Can u believe that she is a Junior?? Where did the time go?
                                Natasha is in 7th grade and my baby is in 6th grade..where has the time gone? time has flown by.. it seems like your pregnant forever.. then in a blink of an eye they grow up on you.. oh well .. unenough of my rant for now..talk to you soon...


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                                If only we had this 13 yrs earlier.....

                                Current mood:numb
                                Every year, nearly 13,500 people are killed by drunk drivers with an illegal alcohol level of .08 BAC or above.
                                The Campaign to Eliminate Drunk Driving kicked off in November 2006 with the goal of eliminating drunk driving permanently. The Campaign has four essential elements:
                                The rest of the website is very inforamational.. I am a firm believer that NO ONE should get behind the wheel of a car, no matter how much or little they have had to drink.. For you do stop to think how your choices impact other peoples lifes.... Thirteen years ago today.. my daddy and sister (Lisa) was coming to pick me up from work we were suppose to go shopping for college stuff her her, and baby stuff for me because I was expecting my secound child.. Little did I know that when I left her to watch my oldest daughter that morning.. tell her " I love you Lee, I 'll see you soon...Are you sure you can watch Alana?' That those would be the last words ever spoken to her on this side of enterity.. I guess I am lucky for I can still her hear echoing "I love you Ray" in my head as I walked out the door that morning.. Lisa's driver wasnt convicted becasue the accident was soo horrific that it took too long to get the BAC level done.. He had enough time to sober up... but when there is three car pile up ..one person already gone at the sceen , my daddy trapped in the car.. the person behind him hurt... could stop an hit them again.. The state trooper that rolled on to the scene that rainy night in August was a reconstrustion..which by a blessing helped us later.. the scene was horrific he recounted under testimony in court.. So not all people who committ drinking an driving get convicted.. not all victims get justice.. I firmly believe just as Abels blood cried out in the days of old .. my sisters did the same and may I will never know it.. But I believe that her death will have justice in the end..
                                I am thankful to have loved her and had her in my life for those 18 yrs.. God knows I wish it could have been many , many, more.. I miss her every day.. As my girls grow up into beautiful women , I wonder how much she would have spoiled them.. This week has been a hard one .. for just 3 short days ago was her birthday and now its the anniversay of her death.. As things are happening with my parents heath.. I miss her so much more.. Lisa ... I love you... I know you are ok..but i just wish you were hear with us..
                                So I implore you the next time you have a drink .. and u think its ok to still drive DONT... if not for any other reason .. Do it for Lisa... Love ya Lee..

                                   

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                                Happy Birthday to my Baby SIster.. Lisa La Dawn Stevens.. We Miss you..

                                Current mood:peaceful

                                Some say that she will be forever 18... but I can remember on 8-08-88 when she turned 11 how fun she that that was... Sitting here I cannot let the day pass without celebrating what she meant to me .. and how much i love her.. she would have been 31...that sounds so forgien to me.. I wonder if she would have been married with kids of her own by now.. i know that mine would be more spoiled than they are if she was stilll her.. I love you Lee.. and I will see you one day ...



                                 
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                                [OFFICIAL] Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Trailer



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                                  Fun in the Sun with Kids and Family....

                                  Current mood:adventurous
                                  Today was a blast.. It was soo nice out.. the sun was out , the sky was bright and it was  warm , but not deathly HOT outside... So what did me and my girls do you ask? Well, Annie, Noah( her son) and Me and my girls, went out to Grayson Lake and swam today!! We had a Blast... Alana took time out of her busy internet schedule to spend it with dear ol Mom... an we just spent time together.. Right where we were swimiming at there was a playground there so when the kids got tired of swimming Alana took them to the playground..and Annie and I could still watch them from the water.. Alana could handle it on her own ..i know ..but it was a nice day..
                                  We went back to Annie an Nickys an had dinner.. then Nicky built a nice pit fire.. we roast marshmellows and made smores ..The girls and Noah loved it.. I am soo tired.. Poor Noah wore himself out.. The girls were asking to spend the night.. but I had to be a mean mommy and bring them home with me because we have our church picnic tomorrow.. The Only thing that could have made the day any better was if Charles could have been there..but right now he is working Midnights.. so he needed his sleep.. and my poor baby has been really sick..so i am really sure he enjoyed his day of uninterrupted sleep.. and mom and Dad really need some peace and quiet since Daddy had his heart Cath yesterday...
                                  Btw they said that Daddy has a 50% blockage in his heart but they are going to leave it alone for now..because it would do more damage if they bothered it too early... SO i havent a clue as to what is causing his problems right now..So just keep praying for us..
                                  But for once today was nice.. even if I am still sick as a dog..


                                   
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                                  SOS...turns Choas an Tears into a Helping hand....

                                  Current mood:listless
                                  Which I will be forever grateful for!!! I pulled my back today lifting , trying to get the rest of that stuff out  of the old house, by myself, why you ask because my hubby was working.. which I'm glad he is working but it frustrates me to that he hasnt been able to help me .. I know he is sick right now and tired on top of it..but dang it plp.. I can only go so far.. any who..Alana is sick so that she can barely stand up, we are watching her for seizures,, because anytime she runs a fever... she can have them.. and we have been really lucky so far.. So its been up 2 me and Natasha and Sa-Rai.. those to argue more than they help..So as the tears run down my face, I can barely walk... because I've just thrown up ...all because i lifted a box ...i barely make it back home.. as i make it in the house .. i struggle to make it in the house without my parents to know how truly bad I'm hurting.. for I dont want to worry them.. Daddy is sick enough right now.. an the only person I can think of in this world to call to help me is Annie and Nicky...
                                  Thank God
                                  that she was there and a that she came right away to help me.. she was truly my angel today.. my salvation.. she lifted, carried. and worked her butt off without her i would have been so screwed ...i hope so knows how truly thankful i am to her ..works cannot express how much it means to me what she did for me to day.. Also just to let you guys know .. if i get a bit crazy next wk... my daddy goes in for a heart Cath on the 24 July at 8am depending on what they find is when and if he has to have another heart surgery so keep him in your prayers please..
                                  Terra Valentine     sorry i couldnt of been of any help ...... hope to see you soon we need to get together and talk i miss you !!!                           
                                  3 years ago


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                                  • New.... Movie... which makes me wanna cry....

                                    Current mood:gloomy
                                    Ok... the reason behind Heath's Pic being my default pic .. is because since The Dark Knight is being released tonight..I felt it was only approraite that he should be remembered.. For he lovely man , father an friend that he was.. The world truly lost a beautiful light when he left... and even though I personally didnt get to know him I will forever miss him.. but I feel blessed by the laughter his movies brought to my life and the world in general.. For someone who only lived such a short time on this planet.. he will be greatly missed an forever loved..

                                    On the brighter note.. if your reading this you will see that my layout has changed .. and theres something added to my blog.. What do you think?? Talk to me...
                                  • Blessings....

                                    Current mood:blessed
                                    ok.. this is the easiest way I could think of to share my exciting news with you .. Charles Got the Job that we have been praying for November... So not only does he get to drive a truck which he loves..but he gets to be with his family... which he loves more... so thanks for all the prayers..
                                  • wanna play...

                                  • Moving Sale......

                                    Current mood:anxious

                                    Ok. Guys..  I am moving and having to Sale almost Everything in our house.. I cannot afford to put an ad in the paper so i thought this was a way to get the word out.. I will be at my old address tomorrow . .Come by and see if I have anything you need.. I will be there from 8 am till about 5pm.. friday and Saturday.. Come by an tell everyone you know too.. Thanks a bunch...

                                    701 Franklin Ave
                                    Raceland Ky 41169
                                    Directions: If you are on US 23 go to the light at 23 .. and Super Quick.. Turn left on to Pond Run its first road on the left and the Second house ( Red Brick House, Right across the street from the First Baptist Church and DayCare..)
                                  • Update.. From the Robinette Household

                                    Current mood:betrayed
                                    I know some of you have been reading our page and silently saying to yourselfs.. WTF!?!?!?!?!? Is going on with her... Well we have been going through alot of changes as of lately.. So its high time I set down with pen to paper... and write it out.. ( or actually with my laptop)...
                                    In March  Charles and I agreed to let a friend move in due to her family going to Hell.. I also went to Alabama with her at the beginning of May.. Well in coming back from Alabama my mom called to say the Doctors are having really negitive reports about my father.. For all of you who actually know me. My younger and only sister was killed in a Drinking an Driving accident on the 11th August 1995. Before that wreck happened in the late 80's early 90's my dad was hurt from a work related accident that has caused a lot of brain damage.. to get to the point .. from that damage and his heart they want him in a wheelchair full time.
                                    After much prayer and talking Charles agreed with me to move are family in there to help them out.. So we are in the process of doing that.. Right now due to our own fincial sitution our cell phones are turned off and it is driving me crazy.. But Charles is still looking for work..Right now I have been hurt once again... and feel used once again.. So I have made some choices latley that I feel is right..Some may get hurt by it.. but I do things I feel is right ,, and it was done out of love.. So love me or hate me I dont really care that choice is up to you.. But before you judge me .. walk a mile in my shoes..
                                  • Coming up this Saturday...

                                    Current mood:ecstatic
                                    Charles, Natasha, Sa-Rai and I will be baptized at 6pm at
                                    The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints..in Russell Ky...
                                    You guys should come out and join us...
                                    1001 Kenwood Dr
                                    RUSSELL , KY 41169

                                  • Memorial Day...Warning....

                                    Current mood:pissed off
                                    I have posted have some new pictures in my photos that some of you my find depressing or really morbid...  I just wanted to warn you . I personally do not find this as depressing or even morbid. I find this as a way to honor those  that  are no longer physically with us.. So if you decide to open up the album the choice is yours ...
                                  • Changes!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??

                                    Theres been a lot of crazy Changes around here.. and there seems to be alot more coming around the bend.. The Good Lord Knows I HATE Suprises.. but there seems to be a lot coming my way!! I thank God daily for my friends.. for the peace that I get from them .. from the support that they give to me..
                                    On the upside.. i had an wonderful visit from a dear friend today.. its been a couple of months since i had last seen him so it was soo nice to sit down and talk.. I only wish i was able to spend more time with him.. but i thank God for the time i had.. it was unexpected . but i feel blessed..
                                    Hey I enjoyed talking to a dear friend on the phone this evening.. yeah my teacher .. you and your hubby are gonna hafta come over.. LOL .. and I'll make charles make a cheese cake.. .. but it was nice to talk to you.. thank goodness.. for the priesthood.. and the temple..
                                  • Upadate from Alana’s Party!

                                    Current mood:blissful
                                    It seems like Saturday morning while the house is quiet, and asleep I can acually sit down with my laptop and post a new blog.. I just wanted to say "Thanks!" to all of you who took time out of your busy schedule to come an wish Alana a Happy birthday! I know life gets in the way an every body is busy that we understand if you couldnt be here..
                                    I would like to take the time to especially give a huge  HUG of love and thanks to Barb and Jeff, for you will never truly know what it meant to Alana to be able to see and spend time with you and her sisters.
                                    I would also like to give a huge HUG to Crys an Jason Hatten, who spent 19 hours total of their kid free weekend making , and decorating Alana's Harry Potter Hogwarts Castle, not counting the additional time and effort it took to transport an lift that thing over here.. We love and appreaciate you more than words could ever say
                                    I would also like to give a personal hug in there to Cathy (Cat-bird) Clark Greene , who came in and visited. You made not only my mother and father's day but mine too.. They  talked about it ever since, just dont be such a stranger.. i loved having you here..
                                    And of course , Mom and Dad (Stevens and Robinette),Annie (my faithful photographer), Noah, Lynda,  Brianna,an Nate. The Sister Missionaries stopped in.. and Alana's best friend  Tonya we cant forget her...
                                    To say Thank You , will never be enough to show the act of kindness an love that you showed to my daughter...But I just needed to express the our abunance of love in my heart for each and every one of you!
                                  • Monkeys (ALANA)Birthday Party is at One today

                                    Current mood:indescribable
                                    Not many more years will she actually allow me to have a birthday party for her.. Hell it was Hell on her getting this one... but we compromised!! Its her 16th birthday, Aunt Crys made her cake... and we have family over today at one...
                                    Last Friday... the Night one her actually bday we her daddy and i and her friend went out for mexican , Rocky Horror!!! She had a blast... Then on Tues we, ( the same that celbrated her actual bday) went out for chiense and bday shopping...She Picked out a sweat shirt at HotTopic, a Harry Potter Armband (for thoses of you who will be here 2day she willl prolly have it one.. she swears she will never take it off!!! ) and ofcourse there will be plenty of pics!!then we went to Starbucks afterwards!!!
                                    I dont know where the time has went ... i dont know where my beautiful little baby is .. but i love the woman she is becoming... I am so proud of her.. a long time ago My daddy looked at me and said, I dont know who is raising who,, and looking back he was right.. i was 17 the day she was born .. and i firmly believe that it takes a village to raise a child.. for i would have been lost without the love and support without my family..I wish Lisa, Mom and Dad Gibb, Granny Short who worshiped the ground Alana walked on could see her now.. but i have to believe that they do... ok before i go on an emotional tear filled rant I am closing out..
                                    Partys at one ...come if you can... Rata. .if you get lost you have my number.. if not you dont need it .. lol.. .just Im me and Ill give it to you..
                                  • tired of it!

                                    tired of the bullshit and drama that seems too have been revolving around my life! ! get 2 steps ahead an something slams me back aleast 4 ! Friends are plunging swords in my spine deeper and deeper; thank God I have a few willing 2 circle around me !Charles an I are in a great place! I love him 2 the depths of my heart an soul; more importantly I know he loves an cherish's me 2! I thank God daily for Crys an Annie they are my friends I know I jave many more who make this insane world sane! :-D I <3 u all u="">
                                  • Alana’s 16th bday

                                    Current mood:blessed
                                    On March the 28th at 9:58 am Alana was born 16 years ago... where the hell has all the time went? It doesnt seem like its been that long ago since my beautiful baby was born, yet now she is now a beautiful woman!
                                    She is turning into such a beautiful woman with a mind of her own, she has had many ups and downs lately with her own health issuse but she has come back fighting!! I just wanted to sit down for a minute to let the world now how proud I am of my beautiful baby girl, yes i know shes not a baby anymore..but damn you can blame me for tryin..

                                  hurt and through hell

                                  Current mood:pugnacious
                                  It really hurts that we you have DONE NOTHING to your friends except to try to be there and support them that they stab you in the back.. WTF .. i mean this has happend to me twice in the last year .. with two friends that i have gone through hell and back and i would have done anything in the world for them.. oh well i guess in the end my friendship didnt mean as much as they said it did
                                  I was in not able to make the test due to having a severe complex migraine attack , Sunday .. I took medication trying to get over it. but nothing worked ,, I ended up in the ER for over 14 hours with blurred vision, chest pains and the thoughts of my brain exploding.. With the complex migraines a stroke is always the number one risk..  Then we I started having the chest pains .. I felt my health was just to great to compromise.. I have a doctors excuse but until Wednesday due to the fact that my electrolytes are all out of wacky, which was according to the doctor what was causing the chest pains..
                                  They put me on some high patience antibiotics due the infection that they found in my sinus which they believe could cause the imbalance and help with the pain... added to the migraine..

                                  I know that you didn't need a complete medical rundown of the last several days and i dont feel like going in to anymore.. i guess maybe where i feel so bad an have been going through so much this betrayal hurts more than it should .. for i am weak now..but never fear i will get stronger

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