I saw a sign the other day..

I saw a church sign the other day that has me pondering on it for days.. Which is not that unsual for me an these signs.. But this one said, "its not where you come from but where you going that counts.." An I for one have to publicly disagree.. For  I believe that before I came to this world I lived with my Heavenly Father.. I choose to come to the earth to take upon this body, and then to do my best to return with honor to my Heavenly Father. .Even though life is full of struggles, joys and tempations I still believe its about Where I came from , what Im doing while Im here and how I return back to my creator..
Life is meant to be hard, to smooth the rough edges off us personally and spirtually.. But there are days that I feel like Im barely treading water.. People are more discouraging than incouraging..
 The churches are full of people who are not there to worship the creator , and help thier fellow man to Heaven. But they are there to act like pre-schoolers and start the drama, add to the pain.. What is the point of going into a building to worship your creator if it takes more stress and strain out of you then staying at home.. Why should you have to build a wall aroound you just to "assoicate" with supposedly like mind indivuals? I know my Father in Heaven loves me , my family loves me and wants me to suceed everyone else can just kiss it. .an back off.. I'm tired of trying to hang on, on struggling to stand  on my own to feet especially when I just get knocked back down.. so its time to for me to let the stress and strain of worrying go.. and Rely on my Heavenly Father. .

Confusion

I am filled with confusion and heartbreak.. In times like these I pray for the strength to carry on.. Millions of things run through my mind.. I hate to hide behind pretenses but I'm tired of letting people in just to feel this pain.. To put the walls down, have my heart smashed into a million pieces. To hear your voice now its a million miles away.. it breaks my heart .. I dont know what I did to you, but know that no matter what I will always love you.. You are family, that will never change.. will  I let you in as close as you once were ...I dont know that answer questions ravage my mind like hidden daggers that attacks the very soul.. Who ever wrote the lines that Its better to have loved and lost....surely never  truly loved.. I love the experiance of having you in my life, I love the very being of your soul.. but I miss you.. I miss our things that we did together.. if you wouldve or could have let me in..then maybe I wouldnt feel this pain now. Maybe I would  feel like Ive done something horribly wrong.. Was I not good enough for the truth??? What went so wrong?? Could you just email me or let me know ..so the questions will stop swimming through my brain and soul.. so i can begin to heal and leave this place of pain and sorrow...

Heart Monitors and Iv Sticks

Heart monitors an Iv Sticks




I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me, my life,and my family .do I have all the answers: No..Am I scared.....More than I will ever publicly admitt too...

Yet the only Thing that runs through my mind right now is my Grandmothers favorite Scriptures," The Lord is my Shepherd ,I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters ..." so I know that matter how difficult life gets I will never have to walk it Alone.. for I will have my Heavenly Father looking out for me an my family walking by my side ..

Heart monitors an Iv Sticks

I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me, my life,and my family .do I have all the answers: No..Am I scared.....More than I will ever publicly admitt too...
Yet the only Thing that runs through my mind right now is my Grandmothers favorite Scriptures," The Lord is my Shepherd ,I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters ..." so I know that matter how difficult life gets I will never have to walk it Alone.. for I will have my Heavenly Father looking out for me an my family walking by my side ...'>new blog I find myself

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