Friday, March 18, 2011

More MySpace, somewhat offensive *to the ones who know me know* but honest emotion



UPDATE

Current mood:scared
Things are progressing rather quickly here... I am waiting any minute for Alana's neuroteam to call admitting her to UK Children's Hospital.. I hope   they can find the problem and fix it...
This waiting and not knowing is killing me, an I dont see how much longer she can go in the constant pain...Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.. Thanks...
12:58 AM


HELP!! GUYS

Current mood:gloomy
Ok Guys,
I need you to remember my oldest daughter in your prayers.. She is not getting any better.. the migraines, seizures are increasingly getting worse. She has been sick since last Monday, we have been at the ER (Twice), the Doctors office.
She has now passed out twice, having chest pains , and rapid heartbeat.. She has had a spinal tap to check for a brain bleed,so far they cant seem to stop the pain, or find its cause. Right now she is in so much pain that she cant function. And all the doctors, neurologist and everyone else is wait and see.. Wait until you see the doctors w/ UK ..(Which isnt until Sept 14...) I am at my wits in. I am truly worried, for as a mother I am suppose to be able to fix my children's problems and right now I am helpless.
The main thing my daughter wants and needs (her Family) is something i cannot Give... i have to be enough, and sometimes i dont feel i am..
Keep us both in your prayers.. Thanks
9:34 PM

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More of my writings/Rants from MySpace some might find these offensive. **Warning* to you..

8/26/2006

Fantasy Worlds and Gum Drops. *READ ME*

Current mood:awake
Have you ever had a dream, then lived it the next day? Some people say that its impossible to do that yet i live it everyday of my life. When i dream I see things that shouldnt be possible. I can see people and things they are going through if i am close to them.( More times than I care to count I'm right)
I know what most of you are thinking, that i ready for a nice quiet rubber room somewhere... Yet how could I have known an be able to descirbe in amazing detail the person my husband at the time was cheating with... Believe me that was something i rather not known..
I would rather not see death before it happens to the people I love. For its hard living life day to day as if nothing is wrong, when in reality our making memories that will hopefully last you for your lifetime. Yet it was wonderful to have a conversation with my sister after she had been killed to know that she truly was ok..
I would love to be able to look at someone and not see what they are feeling. I would love to be able to lay down with someone and feel only their love .. not thier internal choas. I feel truly sorry for the people in my life having to put up with me.. But I have been this way since I was two years old, maybe even earlier but that is when my memory starts..
So the next time i bitch about things , you can feel free to ignore me, Hell i would love to sometimes. Why can life be full of GOOD MUSIC, GOOD LOVE and Gumdrops? IT would be so much easier just to leave the Bullshit behind.
11:42 AM
 

Fantasy Worlds and Reality....

Sometimes we live in a world of our own creation.. ofher times we are living in a creation of others. Why do we let other people force thier thoughts and views upon our own lives. If you feel like crying, you should cry. If you feel like laughing you should, if you feel like loving someone you should..

Love is meant to be given freely, and with a whole heart... Even in the desperate times, even if they say they dont love you back. Most people can turn thier love on and off like a water facuet.. others are good at hiding thier own true emotions, and some are good at manipulating the situation or people..

That can go for friends, lovers, husbands, sisters, mothers, and fathers.... then there is those who have a *motto* of love the one your with .. then move on.Then there are times when you cannot be with the one you love so your with anyone to fill that spot in your soul, the ache in your life that cant be filled or denied.

So why most people feel like they can run your life, just because they are your family or friends that gives them the right to tell you how to live your life? They dont see that they are adding to your pain or stealing your happiness.. How can they deem that they love you when they  put you through thier own private HELL....

11:51 PM

Karma...

Current mood:angry
They say what goes around ,comes around... I am a firm believer that when you do evil towards another person it will come back and BITE you in your ass..
I try to live my life to suit my own needs.. to make my children and myself happy.. Because in the end when I die I will be the only one with regrets..
Yet there is people out there whom claim to -- LOVE --- you , yet they are the ones that will stab in through the heart faster than anyone eles... How can that be love? its not in my book.. I am a good , decent person.. who basically leaves everyone the fuck alone.. HELL being a full time college student and a single mother of three I dont have time for anyone...My dad is having heart problems again, which terrifies me...I know we dont live forever..but wouldnt it be great if we did..
i know there are assholes out there that i couldnt deal with forever.. but i guess im in my own hell ..
1:15 AM


Missin'
Current mood:discontent
Miss Me Baby

Miss me baby
When you hear our favorite song, miss me baby
And when you start to sing along
Think about all the times that we danced in the light to it all night long
Then miss me baby

Want me honey
Like you did the night you told me that you loved me
We couldn't wait anymore
Left the keys in the door, took my hand, pulled me down on the kitchen floor
Yeah we were that crazy
Miss me baby

Chorus:
'Cause when he's holdin' you
Know that it's killin' me
Let my memory be the reason girl that you can't sleep
And every time you feel his touch
I pray to God it's not enough
And that I touched your heart so deep girl you can't shake me
'Cause I love you
Yes I need you
Miss me baby

Miss me baby
Until you can't take it no more
Miss me baby
Pack your bags and hit the door
I'm a man, I was wrong, forgive me, come back home, I'll be waiting
Right here waiting
Miss me baby

(Repeat Chorus)
( song by the awesome Chris Cagle......)


Has there ever been that "someone" in your life that you can't shake .. no matter what HELL they put you through? Have you ever been layin in bed next to someone wishin you were somewhere else or with someone eles? I know I have.. and I believe it's much easier to be completly alone than be with someone who is already gone.. Sometimes LIFE has a way of smacking you up side the head, or could it be that we are so wrapped up in our day to day lives that even though we love someone we dont have time for them.. I know what its like to be with someone would rather be gone.. and its not a pretty picture.. I even myself was afraid to "talk it out" in fear of the answers that I would find.. And that was apart of myself that I hated... I hated being so afraid of rejection that I would rather live in hell ...
Because it is pure HELL wanting to be with someone else and not knowing how to say "goodbye" to where your currently at.. I have been on both sides of this song.. it speaks to my heart.. for once you have been there .. done that.. you sure as HELL dont want to go back.. even if you still LOVE them..because sometimes LOVE isnt enough.. sometimes LOVE isnt worth fighting for..
I'd rather live my life with a space in my soul than to be complelty in love wtih someone who doesnt, couldnt or wouldnt love me back... If I can not be accepted for who I am I rather be left the HELL alone.. That includes every facet of my life..I rather not "pretend" to be friends with someone, when I know deep in my heart that they cant wait to get off the phone with me. Who said Just because Ive known them for half my life that they have to contuine being an active part of my life.. Because living like that turns wonderful memories into painful experiance that I would rather not have to revist..
Sometimes the best things in life are lost.....
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More of my writings from MySpace ..that is less likely to offend..



HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!!

Current mood:contemplative
For those of you whom know me well, you may think im out of my freaking mind.. but today my sister would have been 29, she was bright, beautiful, and full of sass.. and taken way too soon by a drunken driver 11 years ago..
So this one is for her.. for what we all lost.. If you know anyone who drinks and drives .. please remember that you not only destory your life but countless others...
My children have grown up without a aunt, my parents had to bury thier youngest child, her friends lost
someone that they could depend in a choas...  not counting the numerous friends and family... and this world lost an angel ... I know I may be not the best to ask on this .. but i am the oldest sister  of the two of us... yet now I am a only child..
why did the a**hole have to ruin lives.. on that rainy friday night
                     LISA LA DAWN STEVENS
                           8/8/77- 8/11/95


A Walk Through Time

Current mood:contemplative
Admittly we all to this ... if it is a song that takes us back, or a memory that slips up on us... we go back to a time in our past
. Some times we go back to vist a lost love , or a memory of a childhood friend, or even like myself, i sometimes travel back to vist my family... Granted its not planned nor is it always easy.. but sometimes our mind that is the uttmost miracle known to man, does this journey complety on its own.. and then SLAM we are there .. if the place we travel too is a happy one this its easy and we smile and laugh at a forgetten memory..
Yet
if the memory is painful , then we are slammed with regret, loss and tears.. SOme would say that maybe we just dont want to grow up and Face reality... But FRUED would say that it is a defense mechanism built into our subconsious to protect its self... What would your choose?
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Warning you may not ever want to read ..but it was from a place of true pain and emotion..


Fuckin Tired....

Current mood:irritated
Do you ever get tired of the bullshit.. well i have reached my limit.. today SUCKS !! i mean yes it's a good day because its PRINCESS BROOKLYNN'S birthday..
But my life has been imploding around me for a couple of weeks and their seems to be no chance of a freaking break.... My girls are about to start school soon an  i dont have the damn $$$ to get them new school clothes, shoes or even a freaking pencil.. It is killin me!!! Hopefully ill have some money for what they need once school starts next week when my ex gets paid...but im kinda doubting it...
Life shouldnt be this hard.. you shouldn't have to kill your self , or never see your kids just to freaking provide the basics for them.. I know some might say that its my fault for having three kids.. but damn it . .i didnt do it alone.
Yet that seems to be the way im raising them . Alana's dad signed his rights down 2 nothing..and so is the childsupport.. how freaking far does he think 60 a month goes for a teenager??? Especially one with her health problems.. Now hes back in her life, which is good for her.. but damn its killing me on the gas transporting her back and forth ,.. considering the tolls cost a weekly childsupport check..
And my ex cares about my other girls but damn hes never  around to help me deal with them or thier needs.. and when i talk to him about $$$ or the shit they are doing without its a F**KING FIGHT!! Im soo tired of it all.. Im about ready to pack up and leave.. And NEVER tell anyone where we are at.. yeah ill lose the childsupport .. but sometimes it seems worth it considering how 12 yrs ago we were best friends first. and right now we are quickly heading to hated enemies.. he says he doesnt hate me but it sure feels that f**king way .. considering how when we talk its very short , unless we are fighting over the kids or more accurtaly MONEY!!!
      
  I AM DONE !!! I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE and everything....
3:41 PM

  •  

    revenge is sweet....

    Current mood:pissed off
    maybe we are our own worse enemy..   we are taught from birth to conform to societial pressures .. Even if in our heart of hearts we know that we are getting screwed.. there used to be a time when you could trust your family and friends to stand behind you and support u know matter what
     w as ,i lay here pulling the knife from my back , it seems that it is the very ones i should be able to trust with my life that has done me in... and i am not really suprised . not deep down ...
    how do you overcome the betrayal and does the relationship surive? i dont know and i truly dont give a damn either.. So to those who think i am just someone to use an that i will take it a  word to the wise... SCREW U... revenge is sweet.....
    6:07 PM
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    Ok.. I will be adding some of my older blogs from MySpace..

    Somethings (emotions, feelings , perspective_) are too important to lose.. Warning... to some you may not want to read some of these.. very raw painful part of my live, but Im keeping it really and not editing my life..


    Judgement Day....

    Current mood:contemplative
    Why is it that some people seem to make it their lives work to destroy other people's happiness.. That they cannot be happy unless that are causing utter choas for other people? These people drive me insane.. I truely understand that one day they will get thier just punishment but how much pain and choas is created before that happens..


    Tired of the Lies...

    Current mood:bitchy
    Dont you get tired of the MEN in this freaking world thinking that they are GOD's and playing us women like we are stupid? Granted not all men are that WAY I am not so immature to believe that but why do some men cheat and constantly lie to our faces while they do it and how can a women be with a man knowing he just left the bed of another women? Once a cheater they always cheat ... GRRR.... i wish some people would freaking GROW up and take responsiblity for thier actions and stop destorying the people that actually love them.JUst because they are self seeking, and self involved and only caring about themselves..Because when you truly love someone , sometimes your needs become back seat to thiers .. at least if they are your children...

    TIme Travel.. where would you go...

    Current mood:indescribable
    Have you ever wished that you could be someplace eles.. in this great big world.. if so where? IF you had a time machine where would it take you.. Would you go back to a another century and watch the kings and queens, or would you do back to another decade to find that love that you lost?
    If time travel was truely possible how would you use it and where would you go.. That is the question that I pose.. some believe that everything happens for a rhyme and reason, while others believe that we CREATE our own destiny..  I choose to believe the later.. Would you find your place in time , or would you go back to that one great love.. that is the question that i leave you with....
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    Wednesday, March 9, 2011

    Even though this is a primary lesson.. I will be printing this out..

    Even though this is a Primary Lesson this is one of my favorite scriptures since joining the church. I will be priniting it out and posting it in my house to help me remember to take my "screw up" lighter, and that the most important thing is step by step.. Choosing the RIght, to return back to my Heavenly Father.. There is nothing more important to me in this life than Returning back to my Heavenly Father with honor. This life is full of trails, tragedys and pitfuls that try to decur us from that goal. But the greatest love and joy this earth can obtain is nothing to what is wating for us on the otherside of the viel.


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    Phildephia Cooking Creme House Party..

    I am so excited for Saturday March 12 2011 at 3pm ... For  I will be hosting a houseparty sharing wonderful saving tips, recipes, and cooking new reciepes to share with my friends and family. There is a great website http://www.houseparty.com/ where you can join get great gifts, an all you have to do is share with your friends .. In my HouseParty Package I recieved :
    For the host(me): 4 gratuity coupons for the New Philadelphia Cooking Creme
    1 GreenPan Signature Stainless Steel Skillet
    1 GreenPan Signature Stainless Steel Skillet pamphlet
    1 Philly Cooking Creme oven mit

    For Host and Guest: 16 Philly Creme coupons
    16 Philly Reciepes booklets
    16 Philly Creme note pads
    16 Philly Creme magnets
    16 Philly Creme cooking spoons
    16 Home Shopping Network coupons

    I plan on making four different dishes, veggie tray, fruit tray an of course a gift bags to take home.. I will be providing lots of pictures . This will be my first party and I am so excited to have many many more..

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    Friday, March 18, 2011

    More MySpace, somewhat offensive *to the ones who know me know* but honest emotion



    UPDATE

    Current mood:scared
    Things are progressing rather quickly here... I am waiting any minute for Alana's neuroteam to call admitting her to UK Children's Hospital.. I hope   they can find the problem and fix it...
    This waiting and not knowing is killing me, an I dont see how much longer she can go in the constant pain...Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.. Thanks...
    12:58 AM


    HELP!! GUYS

    Current mood:gloomy
    Ok Guys,
    I need you to remember my oldest daughter in your prayers.. She is not getting any better.. the migraines, seizures are increasingly getting worse. She has been sick since last Monday, we have been at the ER (Twice), the Doctors office.
    She has now passed out twice, having chest pains , and rapid heartbeat.. She has had a spinal tap to check for a brain bleed,so far they cant seem to stop the pain, or find its cause. Right now she is in so much pain that she cant function. And all the doctors, neurologist and everyone else is wait and see.. Wait until you see the doctors w/ UK ..(Which isnt until Sept 14...) I am at my wits in. I am truly worried, for as a mother I am suppose to be able to fix my children's problems and right now I am helpless.
    The main thing my daughter wants and needs (her Family) is something i cannot Give... i have to be enough, and sometimes i dont feel i am..
    Keep us both in your prayers.. Thanks
    9:34 PM

    Posted by at No comments:

    More of my writings/Rants from MySpace some might find these offensive. **Warning* to you..

    8/26/2006

    Fantasy Worlds and Gum Drops. *READ ME*

    Current mood:awake
    Have you ever had a dream, then lived it the next day? Some people say that its impossible to do that yet i live it everyday of my life. When i dream I see things that shouldnt be possible. I can see people and things they are going through if i am close to them.( More times than I care to count I'm right)
    I know what most of you are thinking, that i ready for a nice quiet rubber room somewhere... Yet how could I have known an be able to descirbe in amazing detail the person my husband at the time was cheating with... Believe me that was something i rather not known..
    I would rather not see death before it happens to the people I love. For its hard living life day to day as if nothing is wrong, when in reality our making memories that will hopefully last you for your lifetime. Yet it was wonderful to have a conversation with my sister after she had been killed to know that she truly was ok..
    I would love to be able to look at someone and not see what they are feeling. I would love to be able to lay down with someone and feel only their love .. not thier internal choas. I feel truly sorry for the people in my life having to put up with me.. But I have been this way since I was two years old, maybe even earlier but that is when my memory starts..
    So the next time i bitch about things , you can feel free to ignore me, Hell i would love to sometimes. Why can life be full of GOOD MUSIC, GOOD LOVE and Gumdrops? IT would be so much easier just to leave the Bullshit behind.
    11:42 AM
     

    Fantasy Worlds and Reality....

    Sometimes we live in a world of our own creation.. ofher times we are living in a creation of others. Why do we let other people force thier thoughts and views upon our own lives. If you feel like crying, you should cry. If you feel like laughing you should, if you feel like loving someone you should..

    Love is meant to be given freely, and with a whole heart... Even in the desperate times, even if they say they dont love you back. Most people can turn thier love on and off like a water facuet.. others are good at hiding thier own true emotions, and some are good at manipulating the situation or people..

    That can go for friends, lovers, husbands, sisters, mothers, and fathers.... then there is those who have a *motto* of love the one your with .. then move on.Then there are times when you cannot be with the one you love so your with anyone to fill that spot in your soul, the ache in your life that cant be filled or denied.

    So why most people feel like they can run your life, just because they are your family or friends that gives them the right to tell you how to live your life? They dont see that they are adding to your pain or stealing your happiness.. How can they deem that they love you when they  put you through thier own private HELL....

    11:51 PM

    Karma...

    Current mood:angry
    They say what goes around ,comes around... I am a firm believer that when you do evil towards another person it will come back and BITE you in your ass..
    I try to live my life to suit my own needs.. to make my children and myself happy.. Because in the end when I die I will be the only one with regrets..
    Yet there is people out there whom claim to -- LOVE --- you , yet they are the ones that will stab in through the heart faster than anyone eles... How can that be love? its not in my book.. I am a good , decent person.. who basically leaves everyone the fuck alone.. HELL being a full time college student and a single mother of three I dont have time for anyone...My dad is having heart problems again, which terrifies me...I know we dont live forever..but wouldnt it be great if we did..
    i know there are assholes out there that i couldnt deal with forever.. but i guess im in my own hell ..
    1:15 AM


    Missin'
    Current mood:discontent
    Miss Me Baby

    Miss me baby
    When you hear our favorite song, miss me baby
    And when you start to sing along
    Think about all the times that we danced in the light to it all night long
    Then miss me baby

    Want me honey
    Like you did the night you told me that you loved me
    We couldn't wait anymore
    Left the keys in the door, took my hand, pulled me down on the kitchen floor
    Yeah we were that crazy
    Miss me baby

    Chorus:
    'Cause when he's holdin' you
    Know that it's killin' me
    Let my memory be the reason girl that you can't sleep
    And every time you feel his touch
    I pray to God it's not enough
    And that I touched your heart so deep girl you can't shake me
    'Cause I love you
    Yes I need you
    Miss me baby

    Miss me baby
    Until you can't take it no more
    Miss me baby
    Pack your bags and hit the door
    I'm a man, I was wrong, forgive me, come back home, I'll be waiting
    Right here waiting
    Miss me baby

    (Repeat Chorus)
    ( song by the awesome Chris Cagle......)


    Has there ever been that "someone" in your life that you can't shake .. no matter what HELL they put you through? Have you ever been layin in bed next to someone wishin you were somewhere else or with someone eles? I know I have.. and I believe it's much easier to be completly alone than be with someone who is already gone.. Sometimes LIFE has a way of smacking you up side the head, or could it be that we are so wrapped up in our day to day lives that even though we love someone we dont have time for them.. I know what its like to be with someone would rather be gone.. and its not a pretty picture.. I even myself was afraid to "talk it out" in fear of the answers that I would find.. And that was apart of myself that I hated... I hated being so afraid of rejection that I would rather live in hell ...
    Because it is pure HELL wanting to be with someone else and not knowing how to say "goodbye" to where your currently at.. I have been on both sides of this song.. it speaks to my heart.. for once you have been there .. done that.. you sure as HELL dont want to go back.. even if you still LOVE them..because sometimes LOVE isnt enough.. sometimes LOVE isnt worth fighting for..
    I'd rather live my life with a space in my soul than to be complelty in love wtih someone who doesnt, couldnt or wouldnt love me back... If I can not be accepted for who I am I rather be left the HELL alone.. That includes every facet of my life..I rather not "pretend" to be friends with someone, when I know deep in my heart that they cant wait to get off the phone with me. Who said Just because Ive known them for half my life that they have to contuine being an active part of my life.. Because living like that turns wonderful memories into painful experiance that I would rather not have to revist..
    Sometimes the best things in life are lost.....
    Posted by at No comments:

    More of my writings from MySpace ..that is less likely to offend..



    HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!!

    Current mood:contemplative
    For those of you whom know me well, you may think im out of my freaking mind.. but today my sister would have been 29, she was bright, beautiful, and full of sass.. and taken way too soon by a drunken driver 11 years ago..
    So this one is for her.. for what we all lost.. If you know anyone who drinks and drives .. please remember that you not only destory your life but countless others...
    My children have grown up without a aunt, my parents had to bury thier youngest child, her friends lost
    someone that they could depend in a choas...  not counting the numerous friends and family... and this world lost an angel ... I know I may be not the best to ask on this .. but i am the oldest sister  of the two of us... yet now I am a only child..
    why did the a**hole have to ruin lives.. on that rainy friday night
                         LISA LA DAWN STEVENS
                               8/8/77- 8/11/95


    A Walk Through Time

    Current mood:contemplative
    Admittly we all to this ... if it is a song that takes us back, or a memory that slips up on us... we go back to a time in our past
    . Some times we go back to vist a lost love , or a memory of a childhood friend, or even like myself, i sometimes travel back to vist my family... Granted its not planned nor is it always easy.. but sometimes our mind that is the uttmost miracle known to man, does this journey complety on its own.. and then SLAM we are there .. if the place we travel too is a happy one this its easy and we smile and laugh at a forgetten memory..
    Yet
    if the memory is painful , then we are slammed with regret, loss and tears.. SOme would say that maybe we just dont want to grow up and Face reality... But FRUED would say that it is a defense mechanism built into our subconsious to protect its self... What would your choose?
    Posted by at No comments:

    Warning you may not ever want to read ..but it was from a place of true pain and emotion..


    Fuckin Tired....

    Current mood:irritated
    Do you ever get tired of the bullshit.. well i have reached my limit.. today SUCKS !! i mean yes it's a good day because its PRINCESS BROOKLYNN'S birthday..
    But my life has been imploding around me for a couple of weeks and their seems to be no chance of a freaking break.... My girls are about to start school soon an  i dont have the damn $$$ to get them new school clothes, shoes or even a freaking pencil.. It is killin me!!! Hopefully ill have some money for what they need once school starts next week when my ex gets paid...but im kinda doubting it...
    Life shouldnt be this hard.. you shouldn't have to kill your self , or never see your kids just to freaking provide the basics for them.. I know some might say that its my fault for having three kids.. but damn it . .i didnt do it alone.
    Yet that seems to be the way im raising them . Alana's dad signed his rights down 2 nothing..and so is the childsupport.. how freaking far does he think 60 a month goes for a teenager??? Especially one with her health problems.. Now hes back in her life, which is good for her.. but damn its killing me on the gas transporting her back and forth ,.. considering the tolls cost a weekly childsupport check..
    And my ex cares about my other girls but damn hes never  around to help me deal with them or thier needs.. and when i talk to him about $$$ or the shit they are doing without its a F**KING FIGHT!! Im soo tired of it all.. Im about ready to pack up and leave.. And NEVER tell anyone where we are at.. yeah ill lose the childsupport .. but sometimes it seems worth it considering how 12 yrs ago we were best friends first. and right now we are quickly heading to hated enemies.. he says he doesnt hate me but it sure feels that f**king way .. considering how when we talk its very short , unless we are fighting over the kids or more accurtaly MONEY!!!
          
      I AM DONE !!! I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE and everything....
    3:41 PM

  •  

    revenge is sweet....

    Current mood:pissed off
    maybe we are our own worse enemy..   we are taught from birth to conform to societial pressures .. Even if in our heart of hearts we know that we are getting screwed.. there used to be a time when you could trust your family and friends to stand behind you and support u know matter what
     w as ,i lay here pulling the knife from my back , it seems that it is the very ones i should be able to trust with my life that has done me in... and i am not really suprised . not deep down ...
    how do you overcome the betrayal and does the relationship surive? i dont know and i truly dont give a damn either.. So to those who think i am just someone to use an that i will take it a  word to the wise... SCREW U... revenge is sweet.....
    6:07 PM
    • Posted by at No comments:

    Ok.. I will be adding some of my older blogs from MySpace..

    Somethings (emotions, feelings , perspective_) are too important to lose.. Warning... to some you may not want to read some of these.. very raw painful part of my live, but Im keeping it really and not editing my life..


    Judgement Day....

    Current mood:contemplative
    Why is it that some people seem to make it their lives work to destroy other people's happiness.. That they cannot be happy unless that are causing utter choas for other people? These people drive me insane.. I truely understand that one day they will get thier just punishment but how much pain and choas is created before that happens..


    Tired of the Lies...

    Current mood:bitchy
    Dont you get tired of the MEN in this freaking world thinking that they are GOD's and playing us women like we are stupid? Granted not all men are that WAY I am not so immature to believe that but why do some men cheat and constantly lie to our faces while they do it and how can a women be with a man knowing he just left the bed of another women? Once a cheater they always cheat ... GRRR.... i wish some people would freaking GROW up and take responsiblity for thier actions and stop destorying the people that actually love them.JUst because they are self seeking, and self involved and only caring about themselves..Because when you truly love someone , sometimes your needs become back seat to thiers .. at least if they are your children...

    TIme Travel.. where would you go...

    Current mood:indescribable
    Have you ever wished that you could be someplace eles.. in this great big world.. if so where? IF you had a time machine where would it take you.. Would you go back to a another century and watch the kings and queens, or would you do back to another decade to find that love that you lost?
    If time travel was truely possible how would you use it and where would you go.. That is the question that I pose.. some believe that everything happens for a rhyme and reason, while others believe that we CREATE our own destiny..  I choose to believe the later.. Would you find your place in time , or would you go back to that one great love.. that is the question that i leave you with....
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    Wednesday, March 9, 2011

    Even though this is a primary lesson.. I will be printing this out..

    Even though this is a Primary Lesson this is one of my favorite scriptures since joining the church. I will be priniting it out and posting it in my house to help me remember to take my "screw up" lighter, and that the most important thing is step by step.. Choosing the RIght, to return back to my Heavenly Father.. There is nothing more important to me in this life than Returning back to my Heavenly Father with honor. This life is full of trails, tragedys and pitfuls that try to decur us from that goal. But the greatest love and joy this earth can obtain is nothing to what is wating for us on the otherside of the viel.


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    Phildephia Cooking Creme House Party..

    I am so excited for Saturday March 12 2011 at 3pm ... For  I will be hosting a houseparty sharing wonderful saving tips, recipes, and cooking new reciepes to share with my friends and family. There is a great website http://www.houseparty.com/ where you can join get great gifts, an all you have to do is share with your friends .. In my HouseParty Package I recieved :
    For the host(me): 4 gratuity coupons for the New Philadelphia Cooking Creme
    1 GreenPan Signature Stainless Steel Skillet
    1 GreenPan Signature Stainless Steel Skillet pamphlet
    1 Philly Cooking Creme oven mit

    For Host and Guest: 16 Philly Creme coupons
    16 Philly Reciepes booklets
    16 Philly Creme note pads
    16 Philly Creme magnets
    16 Philly Creme cooking spoons
    16 Home Shopping Network coupons

    I plan on making four different dishes, veggie tray, fruit tray an of course a gift bags to take home.. I will be providing lots of pictures . This will be my first party and I am so excited to have many many more..

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