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Its Christmas Time .....

All the house is decorated, the stockings are hung, the tree is up full of tinsel and joy. This year decorating our tree was a fun experiance for the first time since I became a mother the whole house pitched in , decorating was the number one priority on everyone's mind. Each one of my girls had a "Special" place that decorations had to .. It was blast with Christmas music blaring out the speakers on the computer from "Pandora" the candle and jasmine incense light with such care in hopes that the Holiday spirit would soon be found there..

Each ornament that was pulled out of the box represented parts of our lives , memories of time esclipsed forever. Each one of our children has recieved a ornament every year from the time of thier birth, for the plan you see is that when they leave Mommy and Daddy's they would have something of thier "childhood" in thier homes.. Starting out with just a bit of thier past with them. There are so many stories, each can remember where they were when they opened that special present. My husband and I decided years ago that a Star would top our tree every year for the "star" that brought light into this dark world when a newborn baby was born in that stable.. Each passing year as my children grow older, and the ones that I love passing into the veil. So I have an angel from "the Drake Collection" that my husband brought our oldest daughter years ago when doll collecting was her phase.. But yet it reminds me of my beautiful sister who will be spending her 15th Christmas in Heaven. So I now take time that to recongnize all the love ones that are here with me now , and those who are watching over me from above. I thank my Heavenly Father for giving me this wonderful life, for sending his son to give us a choice of eternal life.. Families are together forever, yet its a choice for us.. SO when we set down for those presents around the tree, enjoy those who are assembled around the tree more than what's under the tree. For presents can be bought anytime of the year, but sometimes life is short and fleeting..
Ok , you have listened to my rambling now, so I just want to wish you a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS and Happy New Year.. .

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Thanks-Giving.. .

    Are we "Thankful" for the table decorated for the festive hoilday, or the people that are in our day to day lives . To me "Thanks-Giving" has become more than a hoilday about eating our favorite foods, or who's coming to dinner. The older I get, an especially since my recent illness in September this Thanksgiving was full of love, gratitude, and grace. Love for all the people that are in life, that has impacted me and made me a better person. Gratitude  for Heavenly Father allowing me to contuine to live my life on this side of the veil , with my family . And I am also grateful for the knowledge that when we die life goes on for us. There is so much love that encompasses us as pass through the veil, the love ones that have gone on before us waiting there. Most of all for our Savior Jesus Christ, that laid his life down so we may raise ours up once again, so we all can return back to our Heavenly Father. Grace to allow me to be able to put others before myself. To serve my fellow man kind with a open loving heart..
    This Thanksgiving was a start of a new tradition for me and my family. For I was in charge of cooking an preparing this meal this year all on my own. Something my mother has waited for the last 16yrs for, and something I've dreaded to do for fear of screwing up everyone's hoilday. But this year I was bound and determined to do it so my parents could just enjoy the day .Their health hasnt been the greatest this year so I thought it was time to allow them just to enjoy the day and NOT worry about cooking or cleaning for a bunch of us.
         For you see traditions run deep in our families, every year its the same food with the same stories behind them of when, where and why we started making them. These are the things that I enjoy and find comfort in. As I make mashpototes I hear my baby sister whisper in my ear, "you know you can add more butter and milk to that right?" Lisa has been gone from this earth for the last 15 years, and yet everytime I make mashpotoes I hear her voice whisper that in my ear. Yes, its a memory but a dear one. Chocolate pie is my favorite pie, but it was also my Daddy Gibbs favorite too .. I didnt make it this year because of my diabetes being crazy but I did think of him .. Every year as I lay the deviled eggs on the plate that belonged to my Nanny Clark, I see her smiling.. for you see over 25 yrs ago she when on to be with our Heavenly Father. I know they are waiting on me for I saw them and talked to them during my coma in September. I truly beleive that I will be reunited with my family on the other side of the veil, but for now I'll bring thier memories with me as I cook each hoilday meal.. I cant wait to have Mommy Gibbs punch come New Years..

When it rains..

When it rains all I want to do is curl up in a good book, or snuggle in bed with the one I love.. That goes back to my childhood, the deepest memories of cabin with my beloved Aunt and Uncle. Listening to the sounds of the rain hitting the tin roof as we were camping.

Then when Charles and I first married , we had bought a trailer.. I loved laying in bed snuggling with my babies as the rain blew outside. These are the memories that I hold dear to my heart , as the play through my brain now on another cold rainy day.

Instead of snuggling with my babies , I have my laptop as music plays quietly in the distance. Life changes, babies grow and unfortunately people that we love dearly leave us , and we find ourselves saying goodbye. The one thing that I have learned in the last month is that the veil between life and death is very thin. We come down to this planet only to leave the only home we had ever known, leave the presence of our Heavenly Father. SO full of light , love we came here to take upon our mortal bodies and all the lessons that we are meant to be here. This is a poem that was read at my sisters funeral over sixteen years ago, but its so full of love, I just had to share.

To All Parents
"I'll lend you for a while a child of mine,"
He said.
"For you to love the while she lives and mourn for
when she's dead.
It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or
three,
But will you, till I call her back, take care of
her for me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you, and should
her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories as solace for
your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay; since all from
earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I
want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over in My search
for teachers true
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes
I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love, not think
the labor vain, Nor hate Me when I come to call to take her back again?"
I fancied that I that I heard them say, "Dear Lord,
Thy will be done!
For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the
risk of grief we run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness, we'll
love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known, forever
grateful stay;
But should the angels call for her much sooner
than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and
try to understand."
~Unknown

I pray that I never have to live through the grief of burying my own child, and my heart breaks for those of you  that had to bear . But it is so close that veil and when we cross over that great divide they are their waiting on us. When we walk from the darkness into the bright light full of love, an peace we will know that our journey, trials and lessons that we had to face here on earth will be worth it in the end.. So just remember no matter how difficult the storm, return with honor back to our home in Heaven .We lived their once and will return again if we have lived with honor..

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Changes...

Changes…
As I sit here listening to, “The House That Built Me” by Miranda Lambert. Memories rush through my mind, memories of my childhood and all those that are no longer here. I am not the same person as I was the day I was born or even the day I went into the hospital on that rainy September night.
Many things has changed inside my soul, for once in my life I am not trying to please the people that are in my life, I am living only to please my God, My family and Myself. These are the only people I answer to know in my life. I may be someone’s daughter but I am no longer a child. I have the agency that Heavenly Father gave me to make choices.
I have realized that I don’t want to have regrets when I close my eyes for the last time. As I face the eternities I don’t want to have regrets of should’ve done... or could’ve done. . I want to know inside my heart and soul that I lived my life to the fullest never slowing down or giving up on my hopes and dream. I will take my life by the reigns and be in control of it... There isn’t a man on this earth that I am afraid of and the only Judge I have to answer to is my family, and Heavenly Father. A family that I answer to consist of my husband, and children. I know that people may think I have lost it and that I’m going crazy but life is short, too short to live it in misery.
I leave a final question with you, my love ones … If you were to take your last breathe on earth tonight .what would be the one thing you would regret not doing.. SO all that I ask of you, the ones that I love, is either come on this journey with me, or love me in spite of my choices.
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