Once a Lifetime: language may be somewhat offensive to others but it is true emotion..

Saturday, March 19, 2011

language may be somewhat offensive to others but it is true emotion..

Aug 9, 2007

TO MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER...

Current mood:

melancholy

Ok , Peoples... I am in the most reflective mood .. I guess its because it was30 Years ago (8th Aug 77) that Lisa La Dawn , my beautiful sister was born in to this world..For those of you who knew her, knew the wonderful light that she brought into this world. How her smile and laughter would light up the room, yet each year with the celebration of her birth, of her life, the vast cold reminder of how much we have lost is slammed into my face and heart.
For just three days after she turned 18 on (11 Aug 95) she was taken in a drinking and driving accident.That accident permantly changed my family forever, it changed our lives our hearts and souls.... She may be gone but there are reminders from her that I find in my life daily. I see her actions in my children who two of them never meet her... In her friends memories she lives on.. Her best friend named her daughter after her.. I named my daughter after her.. in a way she has became immortal.. for as long as we are living, loving, her she isnt gone.. she is still with us... and in my heart she is protecting my children when I cant..

Enought of my ranting.. I'll let you go... take care .. love ya.. all..

and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA LADAWN STEVENS
8-8-77- 8-11-95

Jason & Crys *HUG*

4 years ago

Jul 9, 2007

My Babys Birthday...

Current mood:

loved

hey people today my baby turned 10... this is the baby that wasnt suppose to live 12 hrs... im soo glad but in some warped way im sad.. sad that my baby is slowing losing her childhood and turning into a teenager on me.. Hell . thats all i need another teenager... but i happy that shes a lively happy person.. so SA-RAI ...Happy Birthday ..mommy and daddy loves u!!!

Jul 3, 2007

Happiness is... a CHOICE!!!!!

Current mood:

nostalgic

" for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life.but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished buisness, time still to be served, a debt to be paid, at last it dawned upon me that these obstacles were my life this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.. happiness is the way..so treasure every moment you have and remeber that time awaits for noone..HAPPINESS IS A JOURNEY, NOT A DESINATION...(souza)"

I guess what I am trying to say is that in this life there is no "do-overs" we get one chance to live our life to the fullest.. an yet many of us our still living our life for someone else.. loving someone (or in reality) dying day by day because the "people" in our life said that this was the way to happiness.. how many times to we make a choice, a decison then half way through it we find out how wrong it was , or how bad it truly sucks... then we stick to it...not out of love but out of fear.. out of not wanting to Disappoint the people in our lives.. Well .. thats all well and good ..but when it comes down to taking our final breathe ... we will be the only one with the "instant replay" of our life...we will be the only one with regrets.. SO take it from me and live your life by your own rules..by your own Choices... love ya all...

Jason & Crys HOORAAH

4 years ago

Jun 24, 2007

ALANA IS SICK ....

Current mood:

crushed

Ok .. I am midly freaking out..but Alana and I have been to the ER most the night due to the potassium levels in her blood being too low...that caused her to pass out.. AT least that is what they are telling me .. but this is a kid who has seizures and two strokes in the last two years....not addin in the complex migraines and the depression from the strokes andthe long term illness..
they check her blood levels regularly because of certain meds shes on an never a problem b4...but yet there is one now..we are not hopsitalized yet but that is till something that COULD happen considering all of this affects her sezuires and migraines...

I know im ranting but when my kids get sick (espically this one) I fall a part , i loose it..so everyone that cares ..please send us postive thoughts , prayers , healing... is what we need.. I ll try to keep you all posted but right as i type this shes lying asleep in my bed with a complex seziure/ migraine... and reverted back to a 3 yr old... so my life is very choatic to say the least ..plus i have a HUD inspection in the morning that if i dont PASS ill loose my HUD.. and it cant be rescheduled no matter what...
so again sorry about the rant... but.. im offically loosing it.. (Sorry Lynda if i got u into trouble ... i love u ) ...

Rata Lynn Stevens- Robi…ok.. just wanted to play catch up.. right now..ALANA is doing good health wise.. she is currently getting ready for HARRY POTTER world wind to start.. with the release of the 5th movie and the LAST book.. keep is in your thoughs and prayers..

4 years ago
Jun 19, 2007