More MySpace, somewhat offensive *to the ones who know me know* but honest emotion

Sep 25, 2006

feeling you ...

Current mood:awake

Slowly I awake to the sound of my alarm, I reach over to feel you. Then I realize your not there... I sense your presence here in our bedroom, its as if Icould almost  reach out and touch you.
I smell the air, it seems charged with supernatual presense, I feel safe for I am not alone, you are here with me. Just as surely as I was in your arms only a few nights ago. I thought i surely would have awaken the whole world when I felt your lips upon my neck, taking in the verry essence of my life.
I cannot describe eurphoic feelings of total possesion of owns soul to another, its been along time . Yet it feels as if it was only days ago since our last earth sahattering encounter. You feed the fire in my soul as i surely set here, you are the other half of my soul. You always have been and will be until I take my final breathe from this existance. I have loved you over half my life and i still love ...

6:10 AM

Done!!!!!!

Current mood:drained

You know sometimes you reach your breaking point, well I m here to tell you.. I m not at a breaking point , I'm at a snaping point!! I am FUCKING DONE!! I have given all I can give, I'm tired of the games an the lies,, this is no way to live...Some people think they have a right to bitch an complaing about being cheated but fuck .. its my girls that are cheated every GOD DAMN DAY and I am fucking tired of it. .i am fucking tired of pretending to be one happy family...our family stop existing the day he slept with someone else..
Its my turn, its my turn to find me someone who will love me an ONLY ME,, who will sleep next to me in this big lonely bed at night, Someone who my children can look up too , I know that this man isnt just a dream , that somewhere out there is a man to love me and be a father to my girls.. im looking forward to finding him.. to finding that day .. a new start...

9:35 PM

• Angie Gartin-Lowe     Everyone has a soulmate out there, and you will find yours.. It took me a long time to find me, and now that I did, its wonderful.. You have to keep up the hope that he is out there and you will find him !!!                           

  • 5 years ago

Sep 19, 2006

if u believe....

Current mood:depressed

To my fellow friends.. and ......
Helll there are some of you out there right now ,sitting infront of your computers , reading the words that pour out of this twisted soul and I wonder the FUCK WHY? Do u like to see inside the twisted soul that I live in day to day? Do u have a right to look into the deep recess of my soul , into the places that I banished u from so long ago..
My mind is racing thousands of miles per hour.. the kids are driving me insane , always asking for more, for anyother piece of my soul!! i cant give anymore , i cant care anymore and i sure the hell cant try to figure you out anymore.. i dont have the time nor patience for it.. LOVE isnt suppose to hurt this bad...love doesnt want u only half the time.. .

PSSS... my brother Rick is in the hospital and its not looking good.. so for those of u who belives in a GOD .. keep him in ur prayers.. thanks .

7:39 PM