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Aug 11, 2006

Memories.....

Current mood:melancholy

Do you ever wonder if you would have said "...." how that would have changed your whole outlook on life.. I know that sometimes i have been known to say things in anger.. and totally regret it later.. Yet there are times that I say nothing at all.. and end up with even more regrets..
Life is full of challenges, heartaches, and yet sometimes there is overwhelming love, and happiness. The greatest day of my life was when each of my daughters were born, and then when I married.. Granted I am now divorced raising these beautiful creations alone, but even if I could go back in time and change things, i would let them remain the same..
For
yes if i did change things there wouldnt be some heartache, but there would also not have been LOVE and when you love someone with your whole heart , they will always be apart of you no matter how bad the ending sucked... As the song goes,, " YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE GOT TILL ITS GONE" is true.. yet sometimes you cant live in the past , no matter how safe, loved and connected you feel. Life is a journey, sometimes the path is unclear.. but one way or another we are meant to love and to be loved... My greatest love , is my children now, and i solely focus my life upon their future .. theier happiness that is the most important thing to me ...

Aug 8, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!!

Current mood:contemplative

For those of you whom know me well, you may think im out of my freaking mind.. but today my sister would have been 29, she was bright, beautiful, and full of sass.. and taken way too soon by a drunken driver 11 years ago..
So this one is for her.. for what we all lost.. If you know anyone who drinks and drives .. please remember that you not only destory your life but countless others...
My children have grown up without a aunt, my parents had to bury thier youngest child, her friends lost

someone that they could depend in a choas...  not counting the numerous friends and family... and this world lost an angel ... I know I may be not the best to ask on this .. but i am the oldest sister  of the two of us... yet now I am a only child..

why did the a**hole have to ruin lives.. on that rainy friday night
                     LISA LA DAWN STEVENS
                           8/8/77- 8/11/95

Aug 6, 2006

A Walk Through Time

Current mood:contemplative

Admittly we all to this ... if it is a song that takes us back, or a memory that slips up on us... we go back to a time in our past
. Some times we go back to vist a lost love , or a memory of a childhood friend, or even like myself, i sometimes travel back to vist my family... Granted its not planned nor is it always easy.. but sometimes our mind that is the uttmost miracle known to man, does this journey complety on its own.. and then SLAM we are there .. if the place we travel too is a happy one this its easy and we smile and laugh at a forgetten memory..
Yet
if the memory is painful , then we are slammed with regret, loss and tears.. SOme would say that maybe we just dont want to grow up and Face reality... But FRUED would say that it is a defense mechanism built into our subconsious to protect its self... What would your choose?