Do you ever get tired of the bullshit.. well i have reached my limit.. today SUCKS !! i mean yes it's a good day because its PRINCESS BROOKLYNN'S birthday..
But my life has been imploding around me for a couple of weeks and their seems to be no chance of a freaking break.... My girls are about to start school soon an i dont have the damn $$$ to get them new school clothes, shoes or even a freaking pencil.. It is killin me!!! Hopefully ill have some money for what they need once school starts next week when my ex gets paid...but im kinda doubting it...
Life shouldnt be this hard.. you shouldn't have to kill your self , or never see your kids just to freaking provide the basics for them.. I know some might say that its my fault for having three kids.. but damn it . .i didnt do it alone.
Yet that seems to be the way im raising them . Alana's dad signed his rights down 2 nothing..and so is the childsupport.. how freaking far does he think 60 a month goes for a teenager??? Especially one with her health problems.. Now hes back in her life, which is good for her.. but damn its killing me on the gas transporting her back and forth ,.. considering the tolls cost a weekly childsupport check..
And my ex cares about my other girls but damn hes never around to help me deal with them or thier needs.. and when i talk to him about $$$ or the shit they are doing without its a F**KING FIGHT!! Im soo tired of it all.. Im about ready to pack up and leave.. And NEVER tell anyone where we are at.. yeah ill lose the childsupport .. but sometimes it seems worth it considering how 12 yrs ago we were best friends first. and right now we are quickly heading to hated enemies.. he says he doesnt hate me but it sure feels that f**king way .. considering how when we talk its very short , unless we are fighting over the kids or more accurtaly MONEY!!!
I AM DONE !!! I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE and everything....
maybe we are our own worse enemy.. we are taught from birth to conform to societial pressures .. Even if in our heart of hearts we know that we are getting screwed.. there used to be a time when you could trust your family and friends to stand behind you and support u know matter what
w as ,i lay here pulling the knife from my back , it seems that it is the very ones i should be able to trust with my life that has done me in... and i am not really suprised . not deep down ...
how do you overcome the betrayal and does the relationship surive? i dont know and i truly dont give a damn either.. So to those who think i am just someone to use an that i will take it a word to the wise... SCREW U... revenge is sweet.....
Do you ever get tired of the bullshit.. well i have reached my limit.. today SUCKS !! i mean yes it's a good day because its PRINCESS BROOKLYNN'S birthday..
But my life has been imploding around me for a couple of weeks and their seems to be no chance of a freaking break.... My girls are about to start school soon an i dont have the damn $$$ to get them new school clothes, shoes or even a freaking pencil.. It is killin me!!! Hopefully ill have some money for what they need once school starts next week when my ex gets paid...but im kinda doubting it...
Life shouldnt be this hard.. you shouldn't have to kill your self , or never see your kids just to freaking provide the basics for them.. I know some might say that its my fault for having three kids.. but damn it . .i didnt do it alone.
Yet that seems to be the way im raising them . Alana's dad signed his rights down 2 nothing..and so is the childsupport.. how freaking far does he think 60 a month goes for a teenager??? Especially one with her health problems.. Now hes back in her life, which is good for her.. but damn its killing me on the gas transporting her back and forth ,.. considering the tolls cost a weekly childsupport check..
And my ex cares about my other girls but damn hes never around to help me deal with them or thier needs.. and when i talk to him about $$$ or the shit they are doing without its a F**KING FIGHT!! Im soo tired of it all.. Im about ready to pack up and leave.. And NEVER tell anyone where we are at.. yeah ill lose the childsupport .. but sometimes it seems worth it considering how 12 yrs ago we were best friends first. and right now we are quickly heading to hated enemies.. he says he doesnt hate me but it sure feels that f**king way .. considering how when we talk its very short , unless we are fighting over the kids or more accurtaly MONEY!!!
I AM DONE !!! I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE and everything....
maybe we are our own worse enemy.. we are taught from birth to conform to societial pressures .. Even if in our heart of hearts we know that we are getting screwed.. there used to be a time when you could trust your family and friends to stand behind you and support u know matter what
w as ,i lay here pulling the knife from my back , it seems that it is the very ones i should be able to trust with my life that has done me in... and i am not really suprised . not deep down ...
how do you overcome the betrayal and does the relationship surive? i dont know and i truly dont give a damn either.. So to those who think i am just someone to use an that i will take it a word to the wise... SCREW U... revenge is sweet.....
irritated
pissed off
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