More MySpace, somewhat offensive *to the ones who know me know* but honest emotion

Sep 11, 2006

Wishing you were here

Isnt it funny how a smell, or a song can trigger a certain memory. Well welcome to my world, I can dream of the present , past or sometimes the future and it drives me insane!!! I can walk into my room and a certain smell of smoke can trigger me right back into a night of long ago, well may not so long ago in time just this reality..

So come and tell me your dirty little secrets and ill tell you mine..

11:42 PM

Wishing you were here

Current mood:exhausted

Ok I can not start this day off without remembering all we lost as a nation on 9/11/01 granted, I personaly lost noone close to me in that tragic event, but I believe as a nation we lost our innocences.I believe we lost our belief that we were " safe" and untouchable.

So I mourn for those who lost thier love ones on that Septermber morning and I mourn for us a nation, for the peace,and untouchable feeling that we will never be able to feel in our souls again.

On the up side. I had an AWESOME weekend.. took my daughter to a concert, me ASH TRAGEDY, CHARLES, ALANA(SPINAL TAP) AN ALEx(BLEEDING HEART) we had fun!! I know the girls enjoyed thier concerts more than i did but i just enjoyed the quailty family time.. JOES CRAB SHACK was awesome.. and THANKS CHARLES for the.... LOL you know i needed it ..

One of my fondest memory is of Charles in the mosh pit being so "protective" over Alana and Alex making sure that they got the full concert experiance an yet they walked away unhurt... They were so surprised when we gave them thier concert t shirts!!!  Well enough of my rambling about my family and my feelings .. i guess i should have named this rambing.. Alana is on the up swing right now yet keep us in your prayers..

Aug 29, 2006

UPDATE

Current mood:scared

Things are progressing rather quickly here... I am waiting any minute for Alana's neuroteam to call admitting her to UK Children's Hospital.. I hope   they can find the problem and fix it...
This waiting and not knowing is killing me, an I dont see how much longer she can go in the constant pain...Keep us in your thoughts and prayers.. Thanks...

12:58 AM

Aug 27, 2006

HELP!! GUYS

Current mood:gloomy

Ok Guys,
I need you to remember my oldest daughter in your prayers.. She is not getting any better.. the migraines, seizures are increasingly getting worse. She has been sick since last Monday, we have been at the ER (Twice), the Doctors office.
She has now passed out twice, having chest pains , and rapid heartbeat.. She has had a spinal tap to check for a brain bleed,so far they cant seem to stop the pain, or find its cause. Right now she is in so much pain that she cant function. And all the doctors, neurologist and everyone else is wait and see.. Wait until you see the doctors w/ UK ..(Which isnt until Sept 14...) I am at my wits in. I am truly worried, for as a mother I am suppose to be able to fix my children's problems and right now I am helpless.
The main thing my daughter wants and needs (her Family) is something i cannot Give... i have to be enough, and sometimes i dont feel i am..
Keep us both in your prayers.. Thanks

9:34 PM