Have you ever had a dream, then lived it the next day? Some people say that its impossible to do that yet i live it everyday of my life. When i dream I see things that shouldnt be possible. I can see people and things they are going through if i am close to them.( More times than I care to count I'm right) I know what most of you are thinking, that i ready for a nice quiet rubber room somewhere... Yet how could I have known an be able to descirbe in amazing detail the person my husband at the time was cheating with... Believe me that was something i rather not known.. I would rather not see death before it happens to the people I love. For its hard living life day to day as if nothing is wrong, when in reality our making memories that will hopefully last you for your lifetime. Yet it was wonderful to have a conversation with my sister after she had been killed to know that she truly was ok.. I would love to be able to look at someone and not see what they are feeling. I would love to be able to lay down with someone and feel only their love .. not thier internal choas. I feel truly sorry for the people in my life having to put up with me.. But I have been this way since I was two years old, maybe even earlier but that is when my memory starts.. So the next time i bitch about things , you can feel free to ignore me, Hell i would love to sometimes. Why can life be full of GOOD MUSIC, GOOD LOVE and Gumdrops? IT would be so much easier just to leave the Bullshit behind.
Sometimes we live in a world of our own creation.. ofher times we are living in a creation of others. Why do we let other people force thier thoughts and views upon our own lives. If you feel like crying, you should cry. If you feel like laughing you should, if you feel like loving someone you should..
Love is meant to be given freely, and with a whole heart... Even in the desperate times, even if they say they dont love you back. Most people can turn thier love on and off like a water facuet.. others are good at hiding thier own true emotions, and some are good at manipulating the situation or people..
That can go for friends, lovers, husbands, sisters, mothers, and fathers.... then there is those who have a *motto* of love the one your with .. then move on.Then there are times when you cannot be with the one you love so your with anyone to fill that spot in your soul, the ache in your life that cant be filled or denied.
So why most people feel like they can run your life, just because they are your family or friends that gives them the right to tell you how to live your life? They dont see that they are adding to your pain or stealing your happiness.. How can they deem that they love you when they put you through thier own private HELL....
They say what goes around ,comes around... I am a firm believer that when you do evil towards another person it will come back and BITE you in your ass..
I try to live my life to suit my own needs.. to make my children and myself happy.. Because in the end when I die I will be the only one with regrets..
Yet there is people out there whom claim to -- LOVE --- you , yet they are the ones that will stab in through the heart faster than anyone eles... How can that be love? its not in my book.. I am a good , decent person.. who basically leaves everyone the fuck alone.. HELL being a full time college student and a single mother of three I dont have time for anyone...My dad is having heart problems again, which terrifies me...I know we dont live forever..but wouldnt it be great if we did..
i know there are assholes out there that i couldnt deal with forever.. but i guess im in my own hell ..
Miss me baby
When you hear our favorite song, miss me baby
And when you start to sing along
Think about all the times that we danced in the light to it all night long
Then miss me baby
Want me honey
Like you did the night you told me that you loved me
We couldn't wait anymore
Left the keys in the door, took my hand, pulled me down on the kitchen floor
Yeah we were that crazy
Miss me baby
Chorus:
'Cause when he's holdin' you
Know that it's killin' me
Let my memory be the reason girl that you can't sleep
And every time you feel his touch
I pray to God it's not enough
And that I touched your heart so deep girl you can't shake me
'Cause I love you
Yes I need you
Miss me baby
Miss me baby
Until you can't take it no more
Miss me baby
Pack your bags and hit the door
I'm a man, I was wrong, forgive me, come back home, I'll be waiting
Right here waiting
Miss me baby
(Repeat Chorus)
( song by the awesome Chris Cagle......)
Has there ever been that "someone" in your life that you can't shake .. no matter what HELL they put you through? Have you ever been layin in bed next to someone wishin you were somewhere else or with someone eles? I know I have.. and I believe it's much easier to be completly alone than be with someone who is already gone.. Sometimes LIFE has a way of smacking you up side the head, or could it be that we are so wrapped up in our day to day lives that even though we love someone we dont have time for them.. I know what its like to be with someone would rather be gone.. and its not a pretty picture.. I even myself was afraid to "talk it out" in fear of the answers that I would find.. And that was apart of myself that I hated... I hated being so afraid of rejection that I would rather live in hell ...
Because it is pure HELL wanting to be with someone else and not knowing how to say "goodbye" to where your currently at.. I have been on both sides of this song.. it speaks to my heart.. for once you have been there .. done that.. you sure as HELL dont want to go back.. even if you still LOVE them..because sometimes LOVE isnt enough.. sometimes LOVE isnt worth fighting for..
I'd rather live my life with a space in my soul than to be complelty in love wtih someone who doesnt, couldnt or wouldnt love me back... If I can not be accepted for who I am I rather be left the HELL alone.. That includes every facet of my life..I rather not "pretend" to be friends with someone, when I know deep in my heart that they cant wait to get off the phone with me. Who said Just because Ive known them for half my life that they have to contuine being an active part of my life.. Because living like that turns wonderful memories into painful experiance that I would rather not have to revist..
Sometimes the best things in life are lost.....
Have you ever had a dream, then lived it the next day? Some people say that its impossible to do that yet i live it everyday of my life. When i dream I see things that shouldnt be possible. I can see people and things they are going through if i am close to them.( More times than I care to count I'm right) I know what most of you are thinking, that i ready for a nice quiet rubber room somewhere... Yet how could I have known an be able to descirbe in amazing detail the person my husband at the time was cheating with... Believe me that was something i rather not known.. I would rather not see death before it happens to the people I love. For its hard living life day to day as if nothing is wrong, when in reality our making memories that will hopefully last you for your lifetime. Yet it was wonderful to have a conversation with my sister after she had been killed to know that she truly was ok.. I would love to be able to look at someone and not see what they are feeling. I would love to be able to lay down with someone and feel only their love .. not thier internal choas. I feel truly sorry for the people in my life having to put up with me.. But I have been this way since I was two years old, maybe even earlier but that is when my memory starts.. So the next time i bitch about things , you can feel free to ignore me, Hell i would love to sometimes. Why can life be full of GOOD MUSIC, GOOD LOVE and Gumdrops? IT would be so much easier just to leave the Bullshit behind.
Sometimes we live in a world of our own creation.. ofher times we are living in a creation of others. Why do we let other people force thier thoughts and views upon our own lives. If you feel like crying, you should cry. If you feel like laughing you should, if you feel like loving someone you should..
Love is meant to be given freely, and with a whole heart... Even in the desperate times, even if they say they dont love you back. Most people can turn thier love on and off like a water facuet.. others are good at hiding thier own true emotions, and some are good at manipulating the situation or people..
That can go for friends, lovers, husbands, sisters, mothers, and fathers.... then there is those who have a *motto* of love the one your with .. then move on.Then there are times when you cannot be with the one you love so your with anyone to fill that spot in your soul, the ache in your life that cant be filled or denied.
So why most people feel like they can run your life, just because they are your family or friends that gives them the right to tell you how to live your life? They dont see that they are adding to your pain or stealing your happiness.. How can they deem that they love you when they put you through thier own private HELL....
They say what goes around ,comes around... I am a firm believer that when you do evil towards another person it will come back and BITE you in your ass..
I try to live my life to suit my own needs.. to make my children and myself happy.. Because in the end when I die I will be the only one with regrets..
Yet there is people out there whom claim to -- LOVE --- you , yet they are the ones that will stab in through the heart faster than anyone eles... How can that be love? its not in my book.. I am a good , decent person.. who basically leaves everyone the fuck alone.. HELL being a full time college student and a single mother of three I dont have time for anyone...My dad is having heart problems again, which terrifies me...I know we dont live forever..but wouldnt it be great if we did..
i know there are assholes out there that i couldnt deal with forever.. but i guess im in my own hell ..
Miss me baby
When you hear our favorite song, miss me baby
And when you start to sing along
Think about all the times that we danced in the light to it all night long
Then miss me baby
Want me honey
Like you did the night you told me that you loved me
We couldn't wait anymore
Left the keys in the door, took my hand, pulled me down on the kitchen floor
Yeah we were that crazy
Miss me baby
Chorus:
'Cause when he's holdin' you
Know that it's killin' me
Let my memory be the reason girl that you can't sleep
And every time you feel his touch
I pray to God it's not enough
And that I touched your heart so deep girl you can't shake me
'Cause I love you
Yes I need you
Miss me baby
Miss me baby
Until you can't take it no more
Miss me baby
Pack your bags and hit the door
I'm a man, I was wrong, forgive me, come back home, I'll be waiting
Right here waiting
Miss me baby
(Repeat Chorus)
( song by the awesome Chris Cagle......)
Has there ever been that "someone" in your life that you can't shake .. no matter what HELL they put you through? Have you ever been layin in bed next to someone wishin you were somewhere else or with someone eles? I know I have.. and I believe it's much easier to be completly alone than be with someone who is already gone.. Sometimes LIFE has a way of smacking you up side the head, or could it be that we are so wrapped up in our day to day lives that even though we love someone we dont have time for them.. I know what its like to be with someone would rather be gone.. and its not a pretty picture.. I even myself was afraid to "talk it out" in fear of the answers that I would find.. And that was apart of myself that I hated... I hated being so afraid of rejection that I would rather live in hell ...
Because it is pure HELL wanting to be with someone else and not knowing how to say "goodbye" to where your currently at.. I have been on both sides of this song.. it speaks to my heart.. for once you have been there .. done that.. you sure as HELL dont want to go back.. even if you still LOVE them..because sometimes LOVE isnt enough.. sometimes LOVE isnt worth fighting for..
I'd rather live my life with a space in my soul than to be complelty in love wtih someone who doesnt, couldnt or wouldnt love me back... If I can not be accepted for who I am I rather be left the HELL alone.. That includes every facet of my life..I rather not "pretend" to be friends with someone, when I know deep in my heart that they cant wait to get off the phone with me. Who said Just because Ive known them for half my life that they have to contuine being an active part of my life.. Because living like that turns wonderful memories into painful experiance that I would rather not have to revist..
Sometimes the best things in life are lost.....
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